Venting I'm thinking about all the people who treated me less then.

[sadDaysAhead]

I'm thinking about killing all the people who bullied me before I ctb I get these dark thoughts that make me so angry & sad that I let people who have nasty hearts and souls to crush me and treat me like shit I get thoughts about hurting them the same way they hurt me . am I crazy guys ?

 

[jodes2]

It's understandable. They're fucking bastards. They deserve a special place in hell

 

[Forever Sleep]

It's understandable that you're angry if you have been hurt so much. I can't say I condone violence and definitely not murder though. Mostly- because at the end of the day- that will only hurt you more most likely.

Do you have to be around these people anymore? Can you cut them out of your life? Personally- I think that could be the better way of moving forward. If they are that nasty- you'll unlikely get them to feel anything like remorse. If you attack them- they'll likely just see themselves as the victim and they'll likely press charges.

So- what will you have gained- asides from that brief bit of relief in that moment? I don't know- maybe I'm wrong. I've never actually carried out violent revenge on someone- so- I don't really know whether it would create lasting relief.

 

[Thisisme373]

I do understand, you're not crazy

 

[FuneralCry]

It certainly is horrific how humans create so much suffering but the best thing is to try to forget about them. People like that are not worth thinking about, but it does sound like such an awful and painful situation to be in. Existing certainly can be torture.

 

[sadDaysAhead]

It's understandable. They're fucking bastards. They deserve a special place in hell

I wish i could purchase a shotgun after shot my bullies in the face then turn it on myself and ctb that way:(

 

[angelcircuit]

I understand. Sometimes I imagine murdering my parents and then myself, and maybe I would have wanted to hurt others who hurt us in the past too. They have put us through such immense trauma it is unspeakable.

As for right now though? Currently I do not care. I feel apathetic of others and myself, and if anything my emotions are muted. I simply just want to be gone, because to me the problem is not the individual, its the entirety of the world. I was not meant to be born here, and if reincarnation is real then I desire to be placed where I truly belong. Otherwise I will welcome the dark, empty void with open arms.

 

[Source Energy]

I'm thinking about killing all the people who bullied me before I ctb I get these dark thoughts that make me so angry & sad that I let people who have nasty hearts and souls to crush me and treat me like shit I get thoughts about hurting them the same way they hurt me . am I crazy guys ?

That is a nice fantasy. I would kill my bullies but I would be arrested before having time to run home to ctb. So I just leave them behind, in the quagmire of their rotten souls. It is a pity though, that we are pushed to ctb by other ppl's malice

 

[SexyIncél]

You are not crazy. Most people are crazy, enabling bullies, too cowardly or pathetic to do anything

And that includes school administrators. Aside from the bullies, they're responsible above all. Of course they know they have bullies, just like prison wardens know that inmates get bullied by guards and other inmates. It's not a bug, it's a feature

 

[HopelessSoul]

It is normal that you feel like that, I think you would be crazy if you didnt hate them, and the worst part is that bullies usually end up having much better lives than those they abuse, I guess thats how it goes in this shithole of a world, if I could get them I would give them a fate worse than death.

 

[lionetta12]

I'm thinking about killing all the people who bullied me before I ctb I get these dark thoughts that make me so angry & sad that I let people who have nasty hearts and souls to crush me and treat me like shit I get thoughts about hurting them the same way they hurt me . am I crazy guys ?

The frustration is understandable, but I would encourage you to not act on these thoughts or hurt anyone obviously. The hardest thing in life is to let go of hurtful experiences and of people who have wronged someone, but it's for the best long term, for your own sake. Don't risk worsening your situation or your health to try and get back at or hurt evil people.

 

[2bemyenemy]

I'm thinking about killing all the people who bullied me before I ctb I get these dark thoughts that make me so angry & sad that I let people who have nasty hearts and souls to crush me and treat me like shit I get thoughts about hurting them the same way they hurt me . am I crazy guy

I understand exactly how you feel. Just remember that when you kill someone, you're not punishing them, you're punishing their loved ones. Letting them continue to live in the agony that is day-to-day in this world while I get to CTB is justice enough for me.