Venting Thinking about doing it on my birthday.

[killrockstars]

Lately I haven't been able to stop thinking about ending it all, especially on my own birthday, July 18th. I really feel like it's my time to go and my birthday would be the perfect opportunity for it, especially since nobody will remember it. I've completely given up on studying for the school exams that are coming up in a few days because I've totally given up on having failed completely at everything. I'm a terrible friend, a terrible daughter, I hurt people I love with my extreme bipolarity and my excessive fear of everything. I'm totally open to anyone who wants to talk to me about it. My fate with myself is already decided and nothing could interfere with that, but it would be good to have someone to talk to for now, since I'm almost losing my last friend.