Venting i just wish someone understood

[savethesememories]

i'll cut straight to the point, i'm a victim of my own father. take that however you will, whatever you can think of, he probably did worse to me.
my mother is his other victim, yet she's of the "pretend it never happened at all" type.
i spend every waking moment of my life with the unbearable knowledge of being violated by the very man who created me.
i don't think hell worse than this exists. i'm an 18 year old girl with no future and little to no friends. we're dirt poor and i'm not academically intelligent.
i've tried dozens of antidepressants, antipsychotics, antianxiety pills and the agony persists. yet i have so much love in my heart and no one wants it.
sorry if i've broken any rules with this post. i needed to get things off my chest to anyone who will read. i love each and every person alive dearly yet not myself.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

This is so horrible what you have to go through.

 

[Jadeith]

sorry if i've broken any rules with this post.

You didn't. In fact, this forum is considered to be one of the safest venting places.
As for your situation - i know it might sound "flat" from seemingly anonymous internet entity but i'm sorry you had to experience all that. No one should have to go through such abuse and mistreatment, child or otherwise.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

I'm so sorry you've had to experience this... it's so fucking cruel. Our parents are supposed to be who we seek for in times of stress for safety or comfort, but so many are just evil. My DM's are always open if you need to vent.

I really hope it gets better for you. I'm rooting for you always.

 

[savethesememories]

I'm so sorry you've had to experience this... it's so fucking cruel. Our parents are supposed to be who we seek for in times of stress for safety or comfort, but so many are just evil. My DM's are always open if you need to vent.

I really hope it gets better for you. I'm rooting for you always.

thank you. i wasn't expecting any replies to this, let alone such kind words.

 

[MercenariesofMidgar]

thank you. i wasn't expecting any replies to this, let alone such kind words.

<3333 You are worth more than what others say you're worth. I really hope you can find peace and happiness within life one day, sooner than you think.

PS... love silent hill aswell. When I first started to be depressed the characters and the music helped soothe me (Played around the same time)

 

[cazza82]

i'll cut straight to the point, i'm a victim of my own father. take that however you will, whatever you can think of, he probably did worse to me.
my mother is his other victim, yet she's of the "pretend it never happened at all" type.
i spend every waking moment of my life with the unbearable knowledge of being violated by the very man who created me.
i don't think hell worse than this exists. i'm an 18 year old girl with no future and little to no friends. we're dirt poor and i'm not academically intelligent.
i've tried dozens of antidepressants, antipsychotics, antianxiety pills and the agony persists. yet i have so much love in my heart and no one wants it.
sorry if i've broken any rules with this post. i needed to get things off my chest to anyone who will read. i love each and every person alive dearly yet not myself.

I'm so sorry this has happened to you. I'm only a message away if you need to talk. Day or night doesn't matter what time sending you a massive hug