Venting I desperately want people to care, but nobody does..

[Sammystink]

I have this unhealthy obsession with people caring just a little bit, It bothers me knowing that if I died nobody would go to my funeral..
I'm always desperately trying to talk to anyone, to make friends, but it feels like everywhere I go I just get overlooked or forgotten, I meet really cool people and they're all just better than me in every way. I always feel like the dumbest person in every conversation, I look up to so many people, watch them get praised or socialize so easily, and I don't know if there's something wrong with me in specific, or what..
Even here, I really just feel like I'm not cared for, I'm in a place where everyone is in a similar headspace to me, yet I'm still just forgotten.
This is probably some selfish thought process, getting jealous of anyone who can find a place to fit it..
Anyways thank you all for listening to my rant!!

 

[gwnn__]

I don't think this is some "selfish thought process", what you're feeling is completely understandable and valid, i mean it is sad to have no one to care for you.

To be honest, I really think you should just keep on trying to "fit in" and just not give up, even if it does sound hard. That way you, someday, may find people who are just right for you.

I wish you the best of luck in your journey.

 

[Sammystink]

I don't think this is some "selfish thought process", what you're feeling is completely understandable and valid, i mean it is sad to have no one to care for you.

To be honest, I really think you should just keep on trying to "fit in" and just not give up, even if it does sound hard. That way you, someday, may find people who are just right for you.

I wish you the best of luck in your journey.

Thank you! I really appreciate it!
I'll try my best to be more social, Im just not good at talking to people lol

 

[gwnn__]

Thank you! I really appreciate it!
I'll try my best to be more social, Im just not good at talking to people lol

You're more than welcome, I believe you can get through this!

 

[crystalcastles]

I've been going through this too. What I've learnt (but have been unable to implement in my life) is to love yourself more.

 

[Sammystink]

I've been going through this too. What I've learnt (but have been unable to implement in my life) is to love yourself more.

Yeah that's really hard... I have a deep visceral hatred for myself.. Everyone I know off of this site dosen't get it, but it's soo hard to actually love yourself..

 

[mutsu]

i get how you feel

i feel like recently in my life i haven't really been hiding that im depressed or that i might ctb soon and it really does feel like no one really,,, cares??

at most i would get a "reach out or im here if you need help" but they don't understand that this is me reaching out and they still don't help. i know its a selfish thing to think but i cant help but want affection and care from those i am friends with

its not horribly suprising to find out i suppose, i know im supposed to get my self worth from loving myself but i hated myself for so long its deeply ingrained me that i am a faulty human being

 

[Sammystink]

i get how you feel

i feel like recently in my life i haven't really been hiding that im depressed or that i might ctb soon and it really does feel like no one really,,, cares??

at most i would get a "reach out or im here if you need help" but they don't understand that this is me reaching out and they still don't help. i know its a selfish thing to think but i cant help but want affection and care from those i am friends with

its not horribly suprising to find out i suppose, i know im supposed to get my self worth from loving myself but i hated myself for so long its deeply ingrained me that i am a faulty human being

Im sorry, It's such a tough feeling..
I had to stop reaching out to friends about stuff like that sadly, one of my friends who Im very close with lashes out everytime I share negative emotions, and she can say things that make me feel awful.
So emotionally I dont have many places to go anymore, it just seems like im more of an annoyance to everyone around me if anything..