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IThirst4Freedom

Member
Mar 23, 2026
18
So last year i purchased some SN off a DW Market place. Yes, i tested it and its 99.7% pure SN. I have watched a few videos of people using it as their method to CTB and well it looks very uncomfortable. I can get my hands on some "China white" which is basically synthetic heroin or Fentanyl. The challenge is, its not truly full proof BUT if it does work it will be painless. I truly envy people who take one fucking pill OR even half a pill and lights out. It just amazes me that people who are not suicidal die easily, yet my ass has failed to CTB 4 fucking times :(. It always seems like the people who actually do good in life die, but people who actually want to can't seem to fucking do it. Oh the irony...

Anyway, I just want to go peacefully. When i did OD, i only survived because i was found :( I did not feel a thing though. I hope this time ill get the job done, if not then SN it will have to be.
 
knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Experienced
Apr 5, 2025
271
I also have SN but would much rather OD. SN doesn't sound pleasant to me and OD sounds kind of lovely.
 
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peewee

Specialist
Oct 16, 2025
351
Im the same, I got sn but now I'm going with the phenobarbital od in an air bnb where i wont be found for 3 days, just to be sure
 
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IThirst4Freedom

Member
Mar 23, 2026
18
I also have SN but would much rather OD. SN doesn't sound pleasant to me and OD sounds kind of lovely.
Yea, also i have OD before off Fent and it was peaceful. I was found and given narcan :( If you can get Fentanyl and if its pure enough, its def the best method in my book.
Im the same, I got sn but now I'm going with the phenobarbital od in an air bnb where i wont be found for 3 days, just to be sure
I believe that is what Michael Jackson died from. Yes, that sounds like a good way to good. Best of luck friend.
 
knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Experienced
Apr 5, 2025
271
Yea, also i have OD before off Fent and it was peaceful. I was found and given narcan :( If you can get Fentanyl and if its pure enough, its def the best method in my book.

I believe that is what Michael Jackson died from. Yes, that sounds like a good way to good. Best of luck friend.
I have spent countless hours on the darkweb looking for it but have come up empty. It actually surprises me how hard it is to obtain. They say it's a cheap drug but I would happily pay a grand for it
 
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IThirst4Freedom

Member
Mar 23, 2026
18
I have spent countless hours on the darkweb looking for it but have come up empty. It actually surprises me how hard it is to obtain. They say it's a cheap drug but I would happily pay a grand for it
Yea that one is hard to find... That is why i aiming for "China white" its all on there. I just have to make sure i get the purest batch possible.
 
knowledgeseeking

knowledgeseeking

Experienced
Apr 5, 2025
271
Yea that one is hard to find... That is why i aiming for "China white" its all on there. I just have to make sure i get the purest batch possible.
They all claim that's it's pure but it's not. I have bought it from a couple vendors and it wasn't anywhere near pure
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,089
I understand as all I want to cease existing as painlessly as possible with no more suffering, I hope you find the peace you search for.
 
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Thrillhouse

Member
Apr 9, 2026
19
Im the same, I got sn but now I'm going with the phenobarbital od in an air bnb where i wont be found for 3 days, just to be sure

Why an Airbnb instead of a hotel? Doesn't seem right to do that in someone's home
 
wannabeangel

wannabeangel

ź’°įƒ Missing Wings ą»’ź’±
Mar 14, 2026
149
same, i wish i had a decent opioid to OD on, i just plan on mixing whatever i can get my hands on to get high and hopefully black out before the SN starts to work. i would rather be in bliss than feeling the side effects, they dont seem very pleasant from videos
 
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Thrillhouse

Member
Apr 9, 2026
19
same, i wish i had a decent opioid to OD on, i just plan on mixing whatever i can get my hands on to get high and hopefully black out before the SN starts to work. i would rather be in bliss than feeling the side effects, they dont seem very pleasant from videos
I saw another post with someone saying that opiates slow down your stomach motility and shouldn't be combined with sodium nitrite
 
wannabeangel

wannabeangel

ź’°įƒ Missing Wings ą»’ź’±
Mar 14, 2026
149
I saw another post with someone saying that opiates slow down your stomach motility and shouldn't be combined with sodium nitrite
i already have delayed gastric emptying, but i have a feeding tube so i can just bypass my stomach with that using the J port, so i plan to just use it in there so my issues dont make my exit an issue too
 
ih34rty0u

ih34rty0u

ā€œdie young and save yourselfā€
Apr 16, 2024
96
if i had opioids on me i would choose them over SN anytime. both are pretty reliable but SN symptoms are unpleasant and might be hard to get through. im still hoping i could get my hands on fentanyl someday, which is one of the reasons i keep delaying my ctb.
 
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Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
378
not sure if this is new but i saw posts about people getting OD

cychlorphine was the drug causing it. might be intressting
 
bruised_reed

bruised_reed

Member
Apr 1, 2026
51
not sure if this is new but i saw posts about people getting OD

cychlorphine was the drug causing it. might be intressting
What in the world. This is the first I'm hearing about this. How does one even get their hands on this?
 
Aflame5926

Aflame5926

le tired
Apr 3, 2026
378
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chaotic_crow

Member
Apr 8, 2026
50
So last year i purchased some SN off a DW Market place. Yes, i tested it and its 99.7% pure SN. I have watched a few videos of people using it as their method to CTB and well it looks very uncomfortable. I can get my hands on some "China white" which is basically synthetic heroin or Fentanyl. The challenge is, its not truly full proof BUT if it does work it will be painless. I truly envy people who take one fucking pill OR even half a pill and lights out. It just amazes me that people who are not suicidal die easily, yet my ass has failed to CTB 4 fucking times :(. It always seems like the people who actually do good in life die, but people who actually want to can't seem to fucking do it. Oh the irony...

Anyway, I just want to go peacefully. When i did OD, i only survived because i was found :( I did not feel a thing though. I hope this time ill get the job done, if not then SN it will have to be.
I wish I could get access to SN 😭 I've also considered fent or H but I don't have the income for either. My next best option is yew poisoning but it's not very certain you'll die and it takes hours of being nauseous and heart palpitations
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Experienced
May 4, 2025
287
How dangerous is it to store SN in terms of legal issues ?
Depends on where you live. In most places, mere possession of it isn't an issue, but in some areas revealing you have it without having a good reason can lead police confiscation due to suicidal intent.
 
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