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angelkissed

angelkissed

Member
Jun 8, 2026
17
hello, I've decided to ctb within the next 2 months, every day is crucial for ensuring I will have what I need for when the time comes. I've read a couple threads, and have a good idea of what to get. Although a few things


1. Metoclopramid causes intense akathisia and I desperately want to avoid any discomfort especially as someone who is lightweight.
Would zofran ( ondansetron ) be a better alternative and have the same effect?

2. Is there any "drug" I can take before the SN to induce total euphoria or relaxation. The "warm" feeling people get before they pass that feels natural and less like a "high"

3. Does MIC provide 100g SN or is it min. 1kg? I can't seem to find an option for something that would cost around $40-$60 that would offer a small amount.

4. Is there any threads or links that document how it feels to OD on SN? Do you get any feelings of euphoria or calmness before you go unconscious or do you just get drowsy. I would like to hold my cat or something as I pass and feel "safe" I'm so scared I'll be waiting to pass out and feel completely sober
 
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adamantc

Member
Mar 29, 2026
92
hello, I've decided to ctb within the next 2 months, every day is crucial for ensuring I will have what I need for when the time comes. I've read a couple threads, and have a good idea of what to get. Although a few things


1. Metoclopramid causes intense akathisia and I desperately want to avoid any discomfort especially as someone who is lightweight.
Would zofran ( ondansetron ) be a better alternative and have the same effect?

2. Is there any "drug" I can take before the SN to induce total euphoria or relaxation. The "warm" feeling people get before they pass that feels natural and less like a "high"

3. Does MIC provide 100g SN or is it min. 1kg? I can't seem to find an option for something that would cost around $40-$60 that would offer a small amount.

4. Is there any threads or links that document how it feels to OD on SN? Do you get any feelings of euphoria or calmness before you go unconscious or do you just get drowsy. I would like to hold my cat or something as I pass and feel "safe" I'm so scared I'll be waiting to pass out and feel completely sober
1. A special type of anti-emetic is required. The drug you listed isn't compatible. There are a couple of alternatives, but you'll have to deal with the side effects.
2. There are many drugs that cause 'warmness' Taking less than required to get 'high' is key.
3. I'd not sure about MIC, but there is a private thread detailing how to get a smaller quantity of SN for around 30USD plus delivery. Delivers worldwide without restrictions in Ebay (and Amazon, but stock is small), and can be purchased IRL also. You'll need to solve a riddle to find out its name, though.
4. I'd look at videos of people dying by SN, on certain sites. Death seems calmer than it actually is on those videos, though. You'll probably be in pain unless you take stron painkillers and the taste will be very salty and unpleasant.
 
atre

atre

Member
Nov 18, 2024
74
4. Is there any threads or links that document how it feels to OD on SN? Do you get any feelings of euphoria or calmness before you go unconscious or do you just get drowsy. I would like to hold my cat or something as I pass and feel "safe" I'm so scared I'll be waiting to pass out and feel completely sober
From the videos I've seen so far, it depends on whether you take a large dose of benzos beforehand (like xanax or others). Expect tachycardia, nausea and vomiting before losing consciousness. People usually throw up, even the ones taking antiemetics. It is advised to take sedating drugs to not feel the full effects of the negative symptoms before losing consciousness.
 
darksouls

darksouls

Illuminated
May 10, 2025
3,679
however you decide,
I wish you the best, I hope you find relief from suffering đź«‚:heart:
 

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