I don't know any more

[SadTrashPanda]

Hello all,

This is my first post on any sort of site like this and I'm not fully certain how it'll go but here's hoping for the best.

TLDR; I want to die but I'm a coward and I don't want to affect anyone else.

I currently don't want to live any more I just want to stop existing so the pain can go away. Every day is just agony for me and I hate myself every day. I'm a trans fem bi person who has super homophobic parents and can't be who I want to be. I don't live with them but they both work at the school I'm attending so I can't be myself. I feel like a fat slob who needs to lose weight (I'm 5'10 145 lbs I know ik not technically fat but I feel gross). I feel almost everyone I know is only friends with me for what I can do for them. I don't feel like they actually like me for me or want to hang out with me and this has been something I've been dealing with my entire life. I just want it all to end but I'm too much of a coward and I don't want people to be affected by my passing.

If anyone has any advice on what the least painless ways with the highest chances of killing me are as well as how I can do it without making people sad for me I would be very appreciative.

Thank you all for your time

 

[Cubetty]

The best painless methods are those that oppress the cortical breathing center, such as nembutal or opiods, even I believe that some benzodiazepines such as clonazepam, if you put enough of them together with alcohol, become lethal. Of course, death will always cause pain, but any intoxication is less traumatic for your loved ones than finding you hanged, at least you will seem asleep and it will be better for them to assimilate it

 

[SadTrashPanda]

The best painless methods are those that oppress the cortical breathing center, such as nembutal or opiods, even I believe that some benzodiazepines such as clonazepam, if you put enough of them together with alcohol, become lethal. Of course, death will always cause pain, but any intoxication is less traumatic for your loved ones than finding you hanged, at least you will seem asleep and it will be better for them to assimilate it

Thank you, I'll think about that, I don't want to cause any pain to people I wish there was a way I could just never have existed

 

[Cubetty]

Thank you, I'll think about that, I don't want to cause any pain to people I wish there was a way I could just never have existed

I'm sorry, but I hope you can find peace, maybe if you still have something holding you back from making the decision you should use it to question if it's something you really want to do