I don't have any other choices but to die

[VividMemories]

My only destiny is to find the quickest way to get out of here before things get worse and end up being in a much worse state than i could ever imagine. There's literally no other options for me i tried anything i could but nothing worked all of that shit that i tried was pure copium to keep myself alive and i despise myself so much for forcing myself to endure these years of suffering just for what? To expect that things will get better some day but no they didn't i just fooled myself because i was too stupid to realize that there is no other options and things won't ever get better. I have nothing left and when i say that i mean NOTHING because i never reached any of my goals that could make my life better and i didn't make actual friends irl. I lost all of my motivation i don't have any motivation to reach my hopes or at least do anything all of my hopes are ripped away from me forever there's nothing i can do besides finding a way.

 

[zrk]

Good luck soldier

 

[tonicer]

How far did you make it? I am 43 now and besides my parents i have no reason to keep going. I am somewhat glad that they are both 80+ so i don't have to wait very long until both are gone. I just can't do it before them. It would break their heart and they don't deserve this. Both were always good to me. I tried getting my life in order but i am the unluckiest person in the world. No job, no girlfriend, no friends, no money, no car, no purpose.

 

[zrk]

How far did you make it? I am 43 now and besides my parents i have no reason to keep going. I am somewhat glad that they are both 80+ so i don't have to wait very long until both are gone. I just can't do it before them. It would break their heart and they don't deserve this. Both were always good to me. I tried getting my life in order but i am the unluckiest person in the world. No job, no girlfriend, no friends, no money, no car, no purpose.

Jeez, how do you get by without any job or income?

 

[VividMemories]

How far did you make it? I am 43 now and besides my parents i have no reason to keep going. I am somewhat glad that they are both 80+ so i don't have to wait very long until both are gone. I just can't do it before them. It would break their heart and they don't deserve this. Both were always good to me. I tried getting my life in order but i am the unluckiest person in the world. No job, no girlfriend, no friends, no money, no car, no purpose.

I didn't make it too far and i won't but how do your parents let you live like this if you don't have an income to keep you alive at least

 

[tonicer]

Jeez, how do you get by without any job or income?

I'm a parasite and live of my mother pension plus i barely spend any money. It makes me feel even more of a loser and increases my suicidal thoughts. I am applying for jobs all the time and have a really good chance to finally get chosen by the last place i had an interview at.

 

[PanaxMan]

My only destiny is to find the quickest way to get out of here before things get worse and end up being in a much worse state than i could ever imagine. There's literally no other options for me i tried anything i could but nothing worked all of that shit that i tried was pure copium to keep myself alive and i despise myself so much for forcing myself to endure these years of suffering just for what? To expect that things will get better some day but no they didn't i just fooled myself because i was too stupid to realize that there is no other options and things won't ever get better. I have nothing left and when i say that i mean NOTHING because i never reached any of my goals that could make my life better and i didn't make actual friends irl. I lost all of my motivation i don't have any motivation to reach my hopes or at least do anything all of my hopes are ripped away from me forever there's nothing i can do besides finding a way.

For real as I'm doing my method now. It's suffering but I'm too much of a pussy to deal with alot of pain first

 

[tonicer]

I didn't make it too far and i won't but how do your parents let you live like this if you don't have an income to keep you alive at least

My mom is a saint and lets me live in her place. I help her a lot with chores and garden work. I am actively looking for a job but so far no luck. The last place i had an interview at might be the one that chooses me.

 

[Sept1stismyenemy]

I completely understand and agree, I also feel like everything I have had to do, spending time in the hospital, years of therapy, never attending school has pushed me even further into this idea that my only option is death.