Hello all, I've been a long time lurker here and finally made an account out of frustration/desperation.
For the past year I've been combing through this entire thread, over 100 pages. I've looked at countless diagrams, guides, resources and I've been trying with partial so many times I've lost count. I've tried standing, sitting, lying down, kneeling, crawling, rope above and below adam's apple, scarf and socks in between rope, different knots, etc…..I simply cannot get myself to pass out.
I locate my pulse and I've studied countless illustrations of the carotid, but I cannot feel anything close to passing pressing with my hands/thumbs there. As with others, most common I get is the exploding head which I know is jugular related. Sometimes, I get very close to lightheaded and close to passing out upon a first attempt, but any time after that for the next hour I get nothing. Somehow people are able to do this with neckties, scarves, even shoelaces and meanwhile I cant even end my own life properly.
I've added a photo: climbing rope over the door frame and tied to doorknob. I don't know what to do.