How do you feel right now?

[Redacted24]

What would make you pull back?

I made a promise to another person on this site to hold off for a while. So that makes me pause in thinking. I'm trying. I really am.

 

[Jack_Nimble]

I feel like a bowl of spaghetti.

 

[shocksites]

horribly anxious

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Unusually anxious. One of my friends is thinking about dropping out of college, kinda makes me sad, and sorta envious lol

 

[Novath]

I'm perfectly fine but I can go Suicide at any moment when I can't take the stress anymore and running away is not an option. For now I'm doing good, she'll always Support me no matter what I do

 

[human909]

I feel depressed and tired. I also overthink alot.

 

[harlow-paige]

trapped, conflicted, alone, but too seen at the same time. too scared to commit to either trying to live or not. scared to actually try dropping my mask around people that seem nice, scared to "take up space" and interact with people. i guess just scared of the vulnerability that comes with trying to be genuine and experience existing.

 

[onthefence]

Like having a drink but knowing it would be way more than just "a drink." Trying to tell myself that if I'm going to drink I have to eat first, but also feeling really like not eating because I'm finally managing to get my weight down.

 

[brittlemoth]

Thanks for asking. I feel tired and isolated. Also a bit disappointed in myself over a recent relapse. I'm confused and discouraged, not knowing where to go or what to do next in this life. I am also feeling shame over procrastinating on things I could do to improve my condition. But really, I feel fundamentally out of place, like I'm not meant to be here. Thanks for allowing me the space to share.

 

[altkey]

extremely sleepy but neutral

 

[onthefence]

Like I just want to be dead

 

[Regen]

I spent time with my brother, his wife and our mother. And now I feel terrible. I feel lonely, lost and I feel wrong.

 

[Boots2Scoots]

I feel horrible. Some days I can escape my brain... today is not one of them. I'm trying to maintain a sense of normalcy before I lose everything I've worked for and my life gets flipped to "impossible" difficulty. I want to recover.... I really do. But I don't think I can this time. And if I do manage to truly smile again... it'll be like 10 years from now.... I've already hurt so many people by not thinking about my actions. Forever wishing I could change it all

 

[Electra]

Worried, achy, tired.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Fed up. Lethargic. Reluctant. The usual. Have work I need to do but, don't want to do it. Maybe I should be grateful I still have things I'd rather do instead. I want to spend another day playing video games but I know I musn't.

Sometimes, I think I'd be so good at being NEET but, I know it's not an option so, I'm just a petulant child inside raging at everything I'm expected to do.

 

[MoonBat]

My girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me today. Part of my urge for recovery was to make life with her better for the both of us. I still want to recover, but I feel like I've just taken a serious blow. Heart broken.

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

My girlfriend of 3 years broke up with me today. Part of my urge for recovery was to make life with her better for the both of us. I still want to recover, but I feel like I've just taken a serious blow. Heart broken.

Take the time you need and feel the emotions. Don't try to bottle it up, it doesn't work. It's great that you still want to recover, and I hope you can feel better soon. I know the healing won't be linear and might take a bit but I wish you the best and a fast recovery

 

[blood-orange]

I found DMC on sunday night and for the past two days i've felt liberated. In two months (ctb date 3rd April), I won't exist anymore. None of the things i worried about matter anymore.

 

[BoulderSoWhat]

I feel like I've been cyclically dying over and over and somehow I'm still not dead yet, time has lost meaning. I'm a robotic facade, pretending to be human. Anhedonia, check, apathy, check, void, check, but not while at work, hide that shit. Force smile, force talk, force doing. Go home and let self die, rest, until the next day conjures me again, and again. Until time exhausts itself and leaves me be, finally, one day.

 

[Trismegistus_13]

Just a couple hours ago, I was so angry at everything and everyone. It's very unlikely me because I'm very rarely angry. I've been under a lot of stress recently, and I think college and Valentines Day pushed me over the edge for a while. I'm still upset but less so.

I'm currently taking the time to tell myself that my frustrations are valid, and that it's okay to feel angry sometimes. Tomorrow, I will feel better. It will be a new day, and everything will turn out okay.

 

[JaJu]

I feel like I'm really patient and understanding toward people, but the same people are not patient and understanding towards me. Makes me think there's something wrong with me. They're never wrong, but I'm always wrong. Feeling life is pointless and wishing for a comfortable exit every night.

 

[Jaded_Wolf]

I've been feeling a lot of dread lately.

 

[onthefence]

I feel that things are never going to get better. I came into this world at a huge disadvantage and I will never be able to claw my way being comfortable and safe.

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

depressed, honestly, but trying to look for an alternative option to suicide.

 

[JaJu]

It's been just about 1 year since I landed this job and as I feared, I am feeling the dread of continuing this job, so I've been desperately looking for something new.. just got done with an interview today and the hiring team did not even look like they wanted to be there.. very cold and serious and unwelcoming. I'm looking every day, but I can't seem to find any jobs out there that is fitting for me long-term, nor is there any particular career field I'm interested in pursuing.. God I want to be erased from life so much. Please please please please please

 

[Nadienobody]

I feel tired, depressed, anxious and alone. I'm trying to recover but not making any progress. I'm losing the little hope I had.

 

[GlassMoon]

I feel tired and anxious, afraid that someone is disappointed in me and might blame me for their emotions.

 

[Electra]

Anxious, worried, disappointed, sad, scared.

 

[JaJu]

Praying every night for a restful exit

 

[untraveler]

I'm crying out of disappointment. I felt a brief true hope of hapiness and now I feel it crashed and gone. Yet again. I was really trying. I feel like I did all I could on my part. I don't want to believe in my success anymore and be foolish. I'm tired.