Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Always finding it so torturous and dreadful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so torturous and dreadful to exist and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, I just want to fall asleep permanently but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues.

It's all just so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer trapped in this existence of suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to be gone, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from suffering, I just wish for an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence. For me eternal sleep really is the only peace and relief in this existence where I'm just waiting for death, I'm so tired of being burdened with this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden so cruel and terrible that just causes all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist. I suffer simply from existing and I'm always so tired of it all, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just want this torturous, futile existence to be no longer my concern but of course all the suffering in this existence just continues and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

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Never being meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten and I'd just prefer to forget about this futile, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty the only peace for me could lie in dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally gone and this existence is no longer my problem, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I hope for.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I was just never meant for and never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace, I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from this existence I was never meant for and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to sleep. I just want some peace, I just want to never wake ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this existence only hoping for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to exist, to me existence really is always the problem and I was just never meant for any of this, I never should had been forced to suffer at all and I'd never wish for the cruelty and suffering of this torturous existence I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in eternal sleep will I be at peace.
For me the only peace really could only lie in eternal sleep and I'd just always prefer to sleep than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

I just want all to finally be gone for me and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence, existence to me really is the most dreadful unnecessary burden and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just wish for no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once all is finally forgotten in non-existence, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it's all so terrible to me. I'll always see existence as an unnecessary harm and as long as I exist I'll just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long. I just want this existence to finally be no longer my problem but of course the suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so painful to me and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I personally hope for is to never wake ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this harmful existence.
I truly would never wish for this harmful existence and no matter what I'll always see existence as something that just causes so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it, it really is all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and to me existence really does feel like the most cruel mistake.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, to me existence truly is the most torturous, futile imposition that just causes all this suffering and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, the fact that this existence was imposed is always so tragic to me, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable as after all, only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer. There is so much suffering in this cruel existence and I'll always see it as so dreadful and terrible how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this cruel, futile existence I saw as only causing harm in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing and no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is eternal nothingness, I only wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone. For me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any peace and relief from this torturous, futile existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing.

I just wish I never suffered and nothing no matter what would ever make me wish for the burden of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, no matter what I'll always see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and for me non-existence truly is the only relief. It's all I hope and wish for, I'd just never wish for any of this and I'll always see it as so dreadful how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing, to me existence itself truly is just an unnecessary harm that causes so much pain, problems and suffering there was never a need for and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, non-existence is all that can bring me peace and is all I see as desirable, I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality where there is all this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to be permanently unconscious.
No matter what all I could ever wish and hope for is to be permanently unconscious, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is to not exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering the only relief for me could lie in eternal sleep where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me and all I wish is for this existence to no longer be my problem. I just hope for the peace of eternal sleep and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from the suffering of this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, I find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and I'll just always see existing as only suffering, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to sleep permanently. The only relief for me could ever lie in non-existence where finally nothing can concern me and there is no more pain, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this painful existence just wishing and hoping to not exist anyway and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I want all to finally be all forgotten for me and no longer my problem, to me existence truly is the most cruel, terrible tragedy that is only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, torturous existence rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just wish for this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake to finally be forgotten for me, I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again.

I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering all for the sake of it, I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just wish for peace, I wish for no more suffering but of course the suffering in this existence just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I see as desirable, existing really is only suffering to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again. It feels like I've suffered so much for so long and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather all I hope for is the relief of never suffering ever again and only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing no matter what rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is to sleep permanently, I've just always felt so tired and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from. I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer burdened with this torturous, futile existence just waiting to not exist and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for and I just wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as being only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I just wish for this painful, futile existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, in this existence so cruel and harmful non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me peace and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep so finally I can escape from suffering and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and more than anuthing I wish I never suffered. I never should had been burdened with this torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I'll just alwaya find it so dreadful to exist and I'm always so tired of it all, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.
It truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for and the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again where this futile, torturous existence is finally all gone and forgotten about.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway, all I personally hope for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is some peace, to me existing really does feel like only suffering and I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting to die and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death no matter what, it's just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I just want to never exist ever again. For me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I personally see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace in non-existence where all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just wish for permanent relief from all the suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping for death and as long as I exist I'll always and only wish to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace.
No matter what all I could hope for is some peace, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is the only relief for me in this cruel, torturous existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable and is all I could ever hope for, I just want peace from all the suffering but of course the suffering just continues with me hoping and wishing to be gone.

It really is all so dreadful and terrible and as long as I exist I'll just wish for no more suffering, I want all to finally be gone for me but of course I continue to suffer and it's so terrible to me how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing, only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for, I just want to sleep permanently, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep. I really will always see it as so painful to exist and I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence, I just wish I never suffered, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to be gone, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing ever again where all is finally gone and there is no more pain and no more suffering, I'm so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to be free from all suffering.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to be free from all suffering, I'd never wish for this cruel, painful and torturous existence that just causes all this cruelty and harm rather I only hope for nothingness. For me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief from the cruelty and torture of this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for some peace and I'll only be at peace in eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and this existence is no longer my concern.

I just wish I never suffered more than anything and nothing would make me wish for the suffering and torture of existing rather all I hope for is some peace, only non-existence is desirable for me as after all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, it's just so dreadful to me how existence causes all this suffering, cruelty and harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I just wish I was never forced to suffer. Nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to rest, I just want to sleep, I just want to be free from all the suffering in this cruel, undesirable existence I just never would had chosen and I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one that just causes all this dreadful suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so terrible to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as so terrible to exist, existing to me really is only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I only hope for nothingness.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from and prevent from suffering, I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist which is why for me only non-existence could ever be positive, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to fall asleep eternally and never exist ever again, existing to me really is only suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from as all I want is for all to be gone and forgotten for me. I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to never wake ever again but of course the suffering of this torturous, harmful existence just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all harm, pain and suffering where finally nothing can concern me, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this cruel, futile existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting for death anyway, I'll always see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
For me non-existence truly is the only peace and all I hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want all to be gone for me in non-existence, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible mistake and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again.

I just want to finally forget about this existence but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep where all is gone, I'm just so tired of it all and I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile, torturous existence. I just want to rest, I just want some sleep, I just want some peace but of course the suffering jus continues and it's all so cruel and terrible to me, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I can hope for, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

To never suffer ever again is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope is for all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, I just wish for this cruel, torturous existence to be no longer my problem but of course the cruelty of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and I always hope and wish to just peacefully cease existing so finally nothing can concern me.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I personally wish for is no more pain and no more suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, existence to me really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, to suffer in this existence is always so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace. I hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence and I personally suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want to finally forget about this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this cruel, painful existence of unnecessary suffering where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, existing to me truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the cruelty and suffering just continues, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is all I can hope for. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering but of course I continue to suffer in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for the mistake of existence rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for.

For me existence really is the problem and it's one that just causes all this suffering and harm until all is finally gone and forgotten, all I personally hope for is to never wake ever again and the only relief for me could ever lie in eternal sleep where finally all is gone, I personally just want to never suffer ever again. I just want all to be forgotten for me, I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it that I just never would had chosen and never would wish for no matter what, it's so cruel to me how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's positive for me.
It truly is all that's positive for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone and all I personally hope is for this existence to be no longer my concern, I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather all I hope for is to never wake ever again. I'll always see existence as something that just causes suffering and harm and I'd never wish for this harmful, torturous existence rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I wish for is to not exist.

I just want this torturous, cruel existence to finally be all gone and forgotten for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just unnecessary suffering and it's all so terrible and dreadful to me. If it's up to me I'd just choose to never wake ever again and nothing would ever make me wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and it's one I'd just never wish for that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace and relief from and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would be suffering prevention.
For me ceasing to exist truly would be suffering prevention as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd personally always prefer to prevent the suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably in this cruel, torturous existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway.

I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing and no matter what I'd just prefer to not exist than suffer, non-existence truly is all that can bring me any peace and is all I see as desirable, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful and dreadful to suffer in this existence, for me existence really is always the problem and I'd just prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than suffer way more unbearably just to face way worse suffering and torture and the cruelty of existing is endless. It's all just so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to never exist ever again but of course the suffering of existing continues, it truly is all just so terrible to me and more than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, I never should had suffered at all and I'll always see existing as being only suffering, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the problem to me.
It truly is the problem to me and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just want all to finally be forgotten, for me existence itself is the true problem as after all it's the ultimate cause and source of all suffering and I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering so much all for the sake of it, all I personally hope for is some peace and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from the suffering and torture of existing as I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so dreadful and painful to suffer in this existence.

For me the only peace really could only lie in eternal sleep and simply just existing is enough to make me want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer. There is no suffering in dreamless eternal sleep where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just dreadful unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to exist.
No matter what I'd never wish to exist rather I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake causing only harm and suffering and I'll just always see it as so harmful to exist, to me existence truly is the problem and I just never should had been forced to suffer in this existence and I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I personally suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence.

I just wish I could just peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all, only in eternal sleep am I unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope for, I just wish for no more suffering rather all I want is true permanent peace, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally nothing can concern me, existence is just so cruel, so torturous and painful and I'd just never wish for the pain of existing rather all I want is to never exist ever again. I'll just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long, to suffer in this existence is just something so dreadful and cruel to me and I'd just never wish for the cruelty of existing rather all I want is to never suffer ever again with no more pain, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only peace for me could lie in non-existence.
The only peace for me truly could only lie in non-existence and to not exist is all I'll wish and hope for no matter what, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten.

I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to escape from all cruelty and suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'll personally always see existence as a mistake, it's one that just causes all this harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway. For me non-existence truly is the only peace, it's all I've hoped for, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer simply from being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I only hope to never suffer ever again and to me existing really is only suffering. I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace, I wish for all to finally be gone for me but of course the suffering just continues and I'm always so tired of suffering all for the sake of it in this existence I just never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this, I wish I never existed more than anything, existence to me is just so cruel, so painful and so harmful which is why non-existence is all I'll hope for and could ever do no matter what.