Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I'd rather prevent suffering.
I truly would always personally prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more and it's just so terrible and dreadful how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me, for me non-existence really is always preferable and I see so much cruelty in how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful guaranteed death is so harmfully denied for me even know this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was imposed and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I personally see as desirable. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile and torturous existence and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to exist, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally no longer my problem, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I'd just prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just not a desirable state to me.
It truly is not a desirable state to me rather I see existence as something that just causes harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, all I wish for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence just continues.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence I personally always saw as a terrible mistake, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can take away for me, I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist which is why I'll only hope for non-existence no matter what, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and only permanent non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem. As long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, I'm just so tired of suffering and I wish this existence was never imposed, it's so terrible and dreadful to me how existence causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and pain there was never a need for at all and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, I really would never wish for any of this, to me existing is only suffering and I just don't want to suffer rather all I hope for is some peace, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, cruel existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want to permanently cease existing with all finally gone for me but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I always wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep with no more pain and no more suffering and I just wish I never suffered at all.

For me existence truly is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist and I've only ever wished for non-existence, only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me the relief I search for from the tiredness I feel in this futile, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, existence to me really is something so deeply undesirable. I'd never wish for the suffering of this cruel existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering but of course the suffering of this unnecessary torturous existence just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I really am just always so tired of it all, I wish I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I just wish this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I hope and wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I just find it so terrible how this existence was imposed. I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, never existing at all would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway and I wish I never suffered, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's one I always wish was never imposed.

I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, never existing really would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I hope and wait for death anyway, I'd just always prefer to stay permanently unconscious and unaware of this existence. I could just never see any point and value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, I wish for no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, to suffer in this existence truly is always something so dreadful and terrible to me.