Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[WanderingTiger]

How much suffering, I really agree, and it's very sad how everything in this existence is futile and unnecessary, and we don't have the option to leave without suffering. I hope you find your peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much suffering and harm.
It truly does just cause so much suffering and harm, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence as after all if I'm gone then nothing in this futile, torturous existence can ever concern me and finally I can be at peace, all I personally hope for is to be permanently free from this existence, to me existence itself really is the true problem.

I'll always see existence as an abomination that causes all this unnecessary suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd prefer to not exist as only then an I safe from suffering, to be permanently unable to suffer really is all I see as desirable, I just wish for this cruel, harmful existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer my problem, existence to me really does feel like a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this, to me existence itself will always be the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and harm ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of suffering. Non-existence really is the only peace for me, only in non-existence will I finally be free from the futile, cruel burden of existing as a human that I never would have chosen and never would wish for under any circumstances, I was just never meant for any of this, I'll personally always see it as so dreadful to exist and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from all suffering, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, it's the only peace for me from this existence so cruel

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just choose to sleep permanently, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this futile, torturous existence is finally all forgotten about, as long as I exist I really will just hope to not exist. Non-existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and to me existence really is just waiting to die, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just choose to permanently stop suffering even know this existence was so tragically imposed.

I really will always see existence as the most dreadful imposition that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and if I'm asleep for all eternity then none of this can concern me rather all will be gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to forget about this existence, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this existence rather I wish I never suffered at all. Peace for me really could only ever lie in eternal sleep and to sleep permanently is all I could wish for, I was just never meant for any of this and I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist, to me existence itself really is the ultimate problem which is why I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally, eternal sleep truly is all that can personally bring me any relief from this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.
I truly would be so relieved to never suffer in this cruel, futile existence ever again, non-existence really would be the only relief for me in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, no matter what I really would prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it.

Ceasing to exist really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from the suffering of existing, non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I could hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's suffering that only non-existence can bring me relief from, non-existence is all I've wished for and could ever do no matter what, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I just wish for permanent relief from. Non-existence would be a relief for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in the peace of non-existence, all I hope and wish for is to fall asleep permanently but of course the suffering of existing just continues, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again. I really will only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of unnecessary suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, I'd just never wish for any of this, I truly was never meant for the suffering of this existence I never would had chosen in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just so tired of it all.
I truly am always so tired of it all and it's tiredness that only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering but of course all the suffering in this dreadful, futile existence just continues with me hoping to sleep permanently, all I could hope for is an eternal sleep where I can finally forget about this existence, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence.

The only peace for me really could lie in never suffering ever again and I see existing as being only suffering, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me, only non-existence can bring me any relief in this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there are never a need for, in fact to me existence itself will always be the true problem and I find it tiring to simply exist. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence I was never meant for just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. I wish I could just choose to cease existing in peace to save myself from all futile, unnecessary suffering and I'd just never want to suffer in this existence, I only hope for the peace of non-existence instead and I'll only be at peace once this cruel, torturous existence is finally all gone for me, no matter what I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish for any of this, I just hope for non-existence instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence itself to me always the true problem.
To me existence itself will always be the true problem and it's just something I'd never wish for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence and I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all harm and suffering. I really will always see it as so terrible to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death as I see existence itself as always the true problem, to me existence really is the most terrible mistake that just causes all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I really was never meant for any of this and I'd just never wish for any of it rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from the suffering of this torturous, undesirable existence and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence could bring me peace from. I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally I can forget about this existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me, the only relief for me really could only lie in never existing ever again, I just want peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway, existence is the problem to me and it's a problem only non-existence can bring me relief from, non-existence is all I personally see as positive.

 

[FuneralCry]

It terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly does terrify me how a human can suffer for so long in this futile, torturous existence just to be tortured by old age and cease existing anyway, I'd personally just never wish for the burden of existence rather I just hope for non-existence. I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally this existence is no longer my problem and I can be at peace, for me peace really could only lie in never suffering ever again, to me existence really is an abomination that just causes so much suffering and harm until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist.

Non-existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace but of course all the suffering just continues and it feels like I've suffered for so long, as long as I exist I truly will just hope to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing but of course we exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what and the thought of suffering just to die in agony from old age is really horrific and unbearable. Existence to me really is an abomination that just causes endless amounts of unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it really terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I just want to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once this harmful, torturous existence is finally all forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to exist.
No matter what I really would never wish to exist, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'd just never wish for any of this, I never have done and never would do rather I only hope for permanent non-existence.

I only wish for the peace of an permanent sleep where finally this torturous, unnecessary existence is no longer my problem and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again as non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for, I was just never meant for the suffering this existence brings and I just don't want to suffer at all. I never wished for any of this and I find it so tragic how this existence was imposed that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this existence and I see existence as the most futile, harmful burden rather I just wish I never suffered at all. Only never existing is true perfection to me and I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently so I can finally be at peace from this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, nothing would make me wish for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this existence.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence can ever bring me relief from, I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues, it's all just so dreadful and cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this. I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong this suffering but of course I wish I never suffered, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd personally be so relieved to fall asleep permanently as I find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me.

I was just never meant for the torturous and futile burden of existing as a human and I'm just always so tired of it, I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again. Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for in this existence I'm so tired of that only ever caused me to suffer, I see existing as only being suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently to escape from this existence I'm always so tired of.

 

[FuneralCry]

Don't wish to prolong suffering.
I personally just don't wish to prolong the suffering of existing and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would have chosen, non-existence really is preferable to me than suffering so unnecessarily capable of suffering to unlimited extents just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, all I wish for is to not exist and I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again. I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up suffering way more and ceasing to exist anyway as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there are no disadvantages to the peace of eternal non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten, non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing.

Non-existence would solve everything for me and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again and if I had the option to permanently prevent all future suffering it'd bring me so much peace, for me peace truly could only lie in non-existence where finally this existence is all forgotten for me. I could just never see value and benefit to prolonging the suffering of existing rather I just don't want to suffer at all, I only hope for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering, non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace from the suffering of existing as after all there are no disadvantages to being gone, I just don't wish to prolong suffering in this torturous, futile existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was just never meant for any of this.
I really was never meant for any of this suffering and I just never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, to me existence is a burden that there was never a need for that just causes and brings all this unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I'll hope for non-existence. I only wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering and to sleep permanently really is all I'm meant for, I'd just never wish to exist and nothing would make me wish for any of this, only non-existence can personally bring me the peace I search for from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

I'll always see it as such a futile, torturous burden to exist and it's one I was never meant for that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option of a death like never waking ever again. Non-existence truly would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much relief, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, never existing at all would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence I really was never meant for, I'd really never wish for any of this, I wish I could just choose to permanently cease existing and finally be at peace, non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've suffered for so long in this futile, torturous existence.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, no matter what I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist.

To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer just hoping and waiting for death anyway, non-existence really is the only peace for me, it'd solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from this existence I always saw as a burden, I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish to be gone but of course the suffering of existing just continues. It's all just so terrible, cruel and painful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I just wish I never had to suffer at all, I'd always prefer to not exist but only never existing could ever be true perfection to me, I was just never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for it no matter what, the only relief for me really could lie in non-existence, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all can be forgotten about, I'd always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I just don't wish to suffer at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is something that just causes harm.
I truly do see existence as something that just causes harm, it causes so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me, I really would always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering in this harmful existence just waiting to die anyway. Existence itself to me really is the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing.

In an existence so cruel that causes all this harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace, for me peace could only lie in being permanently free from this harmful existence, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I'd be so relieved to be free from this existence I see as just causing so much suffering. To me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I'll personally always just see existence as an abomination that just tortures existing beings all for the sake of it and it's all so futile anyway, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous, harmful existence, I'm always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence itself as the ultimate problem.
No matter what I really will always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering causing all this harm and cruelty until all is finally forgotten about in non-existence anyway, I'd just never wish to exist rather I only hope and wish for nothingness, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the problem and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed.

I find it so tragic how this existence that causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for was forced in the first place, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and I'll always wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would have chosen. I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and I just don't see any value and benefit to existing at all rather I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and torturous that just brings suffering, existing to me is deeply undesirable in every single way and I was just never meant to be burdened with this existence rather it all just feels like a mistake to me. As long as I exist I truly will just hope and wish to be gone, the only relief for me could lie in never existing ever again where finally I can be at peace, non-existence would solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[RoyalBengalAutistic]

It will be very interesting to see you CTB some day. I hope the day comes very soon.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace from all the suffering.
All I could ever hope and wish for is peace from all the suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, torturous existence I never would had wished for and always saw as a mistake, existing to me really is only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from.

I just wish for this existence to all be forgotten about for me, I could personally never see any peace in this futile existence where there is all this endless suffering rather peace for me could only lie in non-existence and non-existence is all I could hope for and ever see as desirable no matter what. I was just never meant for any of this rather I'm only meant for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I can forget about this existence I see as causing so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it. I personally just want to never wake ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally able to fall asleep permanently, eternal sleep is all I've hoped for and could ever wish for, I really never should have suffered in this existence, I'll always prefer to not exist but only true perfection for me could lie in never suffering at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence.

 

[davidtorez]

Only hoping for peace from all the suffering.
All I could ever hope and wish for is peace from all the suffering, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, torturous existence I never would had wished for and always saw as a mistake, existing to me really is only suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any relief from.

I just wish for this existence to all be forgotten about for me, I could personally never see any peace in this futile existence where there is all this endless suffering rather peace for me could only lie in non-existence and non-existence is all I could hope for and ever see as desirable no matter what. I was just never meant for any of this rather I'm only meant for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I can forget about this existence I see as causing so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it. I personally just want to never wake ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally able to fall asleep permanently, eternal sleep is all I've hoped for and could ever wish for, I really never should have suffered in this existence, I'll always prefer to not exist but only true perfection for me could lie in never suffering at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence.

I love reading your posts because you're speaking my mind as well as yours

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish to erase my existence.
I truly do always wish to erase my existence, I just want it to be like I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me just wishing and hoping to be gone, being able to permanently erase my existence would bring me so much peace and for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering again where this existence is finally all forgotten.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence to me really was never worth it rather I see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope for nothingness. I wish I was never burdened with this unnecessary existence at all, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace, I just want to disappear from this existence, I just want all to finally be all forgotten about for me, I really am always so tired of suffering, I just want to erase my existence, being able to permanently erase my existence would solve everything for me in this existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it, I really never should had been forced to suffer and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me.

 

[DeathSleep]

I just want to disappear and be forgotten about as well. I'm sorry that you're in so much pain. I believe that death can be a merciful thing. Some people go through so much suffering that letting them go would be compassionate. But no, we live in a world where people do everything they can to "save" you from death. I think that's cruel. I understand that some people actually want to live... but for those of us who want to die it'd be nice if we'd be granted a peaceful way to go and it was a respected.

I hope you find your peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it so terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.
I really do find it so terrifying how there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering, torture and agony of existing can get, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence. Only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for from this existence I never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I see existence as a cruel, torturous abomination I'd prefer to avoid that only non-existence can bring me peace from, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist.

I see it as so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, I see it as so horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age and what terrifies me is how even trying to be permanently free from this existence can go wrong and lead to way worse torture and suffering. I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace, it's so painful how I cannot just choose to never suffer ever again as to permanently stop suffering really is all I hope for. I just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally I can forget about this existence, only eternal non-existence can bring me peace I search for from this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, I wish this existence of cruelty and suffering was never imposed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is just only suffering.
To me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I personally hope for is to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for this cruel, futile existence no matter what rather I only hope for non-existence, I'll always just see existence as a mistake and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where finally all is gone and forgotten and nothing can concern me.

I see existing as only being suffering, to me existence is the most torturous, unnecessary burden that just causes and brings suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for, I'd just never wish for any of this and I wish this existence was never imposed, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering and torture at any moment and I just don't want to suffer in any way rather I only hope for non-existence. Only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I never would had wished for that I see as just only being suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering, I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist no matter what and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I truly was never meant for this existence of cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently.
I always wish I could just choose to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep, non-existence truly is the only peace for me and is all that can bring me any relief, I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as to never suffer ever again is all I hope for. I'd always prefer to sleep permanently than suffer all for the sake of it in this futile, torturous existence and I see existing as only being suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and I'd be so relieved to never suffer ever again.

I just want some peace from this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, eternal sleep really is the only relief for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to being unconscious for all eternity yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the suffering and torture of existing can get, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable and ideal, being able to fall asleep permanently really would solve everything for me. I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's the kind of tiredness only eternal sleep can bring me peace from, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing, I just want to fall asleep and never suffer ever again, I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten about, I was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for any of it rather all I hope for is non-existence, I just want some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence always feels like a mistake to me.
It truly does and it's one that just causes all this cruelty and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, all I hope and wish for is the peace of non-existence where finally all of this is forgotten about for me, I just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes all this harm. I'd never wish to exist and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist, I see existence as the most cruel, torturous burden that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never wake ever again.

I wish for a painless death like falling into an eternal sleep so I can finally find peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake, I see it as something so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it hoping to not exist anyway, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from. I just wish for the relief of an eternal sleep where finally I can rest and all is forgotten, existence to me really is an abomination as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where finally I can forget about this existence, I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm really always so tired.
I really am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, all I wish for is some peace from all the suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this no matter what. All wish and hope for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering where finally this existence is all forgotten and I'd prefer to not exist no matter what, eternal non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any relief from the tiredness I feel.

I suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again and no matter what I'll only hope to sleep permanently, I just want to never exist ever again and the only peace for me could ever lie in ceasing to exist where finally all is gone, to me existing really is only suffering and I see it as so deeply undesirable to exist, existence for me was a burden I was never meant for and never would have chosen that I've never had any interest in and never would do. I just see existence as so unnecessary and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, never existing would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence I never would have chosen, I really am always so tired of it all and it's tiredness that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me peace from, I'd personally be so relieved to finally be free from this existence, I just want peace from all the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that feels positive for me.
It truly is all that feels positive for me and I'll always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I never would had wished for that was so tragically imposed, non-existence really is all I see as desirable as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture and agony of existing can get and I see it as all so futile anyway.

To me existing really is just waiting for death as after all, all will be gone anyway in non-existence and I'd personally prefer to cease existing sooner to escape from unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would had wished for and never would have chose, non-existence really is all I hope for, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist, non-existence would solve everything for me in this existence that just causes problems there were never a need for and suffering all for the sake of it. Ceasing to exist is my way of finding peace from the torturous, unnecessary imposition of existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to be gone, non-existence would solve everything for me and take away what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself and simply just existing really is enough to make me wish for death, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I was just never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for the permanency of non-existence.
The fact that non-existence is permanent is why it personally appeals to me, non-existence really is all I hope for and could ever wish for no matter what, a permanent solution to what I've always seen as the true problem which is existence itself really is all I hope for. Only non-existence could ever be desirable to me, non-existence would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish for the peace of permanent non-existence.

I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, I was just never meant for something as futile and torturous as existence that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer just to be tortured by old age and die anyway with no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I just want non-existence instead, to me existence really does feel like a mistake that just causes so much pain, I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity where nothing can concern me and finally this existence is no longer my problem, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the torturous burden of existence that I always saw as so unnecessary in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to cease existing.
I really will always see so much cruelty in it and I suffer so much from how I cannot just simply choose to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again. All I hope and wish for is relief from the suffering of existing and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer, permanent non-existence really is all I could hope for.

It just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have that option with no risks of trying to die going wrong especially as death is all that's inevitable anyway and I never even chose any of this in the first place, I see existence as a torturous, futile burden that was so tragically imposed and it's one I just never would had wished for, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I only wish for nothingness, permanent non-existence really is the only peace for me and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured by old age and die anyway. Existence to me really is something so dreadful and I'll always see it as so undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, non-existence really is all I hope for and eternal dreamless sleep would solve everything for me in an existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, I don't want to suffer in any way rather I only hope and wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I see existing as only being suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me was never worth it.
To me existence really was never worth it and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for eternal non-existence, only ceasing to exist could personally ever bring me any peace from this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen.

To me existence could never be desirable rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid that I only wish for permanent relief from, the only relief for me really could lie in an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where I'm no longer burdened with this existence and all is finally gone. Non-existence really is preferable for me and is all I hope for, I just don't see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's one so dreadful and cruel that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and I see existing as only being suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'd just never wish to exist, I find it a burden to exist and it's one so cruel and torturous, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering rather I wish I never suffered at all, I was just never meant for any of this and I have no interest in it either, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just see existing as so unnecessary, more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of futile suffering, for me none of this really could ever be worth it, the fact that this existence was imposed is always such a terrible tragedy to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to finally be gone for me.
All I wish is for all to finally be gone for me, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this existence is finally forgotten about and there is no more cruelty, no more suffering and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never exist ever again. Non-existence truly is the only relief for me and is all I see as desirable and I'll only be at peace once this cruel, futile existence that I wish was never imposed is finally all gone for me and I'd just never wish for the torturous imposition of existence, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing.

I really would prefer to not exist and non-existence is all I personally see as positive, I'd just never wish for existence and I was just never meant for any of this either, I really never should had been forced into this at all and I have no interest in suffering in this existence either. Non-existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace saving me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would had chosen, existence to me really did always feel like a mistake, it's so dreadful to me how existence causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never wake ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It really does cause so much harm and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful existence that just brings all this suffering, I see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence especially as there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, I only see never existing as perfection. All that existence does is cause so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so cruel, torturous and dreadful to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want non-existence, only in non-existence will I be safe from all the suffering in this existence that causes all this pain.

Existence to me really does feel like a mistake and I see it as an abomination to suffer in this harmful existence, existence itself to me really is the problem as after all it's the source of all harm and suffering and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace to finally escape from all this, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering where all is forgotten. I'd just never wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather all I hope for is non-existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, existence is just so cruel, so painful, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would had chosen.