Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so horrific to me how a human can can suffer for so long in this existence just to be tortured in agony from old age, I really would never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the dreadful unnecessary terrible suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway. Existing to me really is only suffering, I just wish I never had to suffer at all, never existing would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty in this torturous existence.

I find it terrifying how a human can be enslaved in this existence for so long just to suffer even more, it truly is so cruel and painful how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace even know I'd never wish for any of this, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this horrific world where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know all of this was imposed. I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I wish to be unconscious free from the suffering and cruelty of this existence, to me existence itself really is the true problem and I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long, the thought of being enslaved in this existence until old age is just so unbearable, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
Only in non-existence will I be at peace and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I wish for all to finally be forgotten about for me, non-existence is the only relief for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep rather all will finally be gone instead. I personally just hope to never exist ever again, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that there are no disadvantages to it, all I see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity free from the torturous and futile burden of existing that only ever caused all this suffering all for the sake of it and I was just never meant for the burden of existing rather I'm just meant for peace and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence.

For me there could never be any peace in suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, existence itself will always be the true problem to me, it's something that just causes and brings all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this existence I never would had wished for where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway, non-existence is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be only suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I see existence as the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes so much harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, I personally just want peace from the suffering but of course the suffering and cruelty just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone.

It really is all so painful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently so I can finally find peace from the suffering of existing, what is so dreadful to me is how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake. To me existence itself really is the true problem, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, existence will always be the problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want to never suffer ever again, I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until all is forgotten about for me in non-existence, non-existence is the only peace for me it's all I see as positive in an existence that causes and brings so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really was just never meant for any of this.
I really was just never meant for any of this and I just never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as so torturous and futile to suffer in this existence, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me, it's all I hope for and all I see as positive, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering I only hope to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace from this existence I never would have chosen and was never meant for once I no longer exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for and I really would be so relieved to never suffer ever again in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is the most terrible tragedy and I was just never meant for any of this, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence and non-existence really is all I see as desirable, it's all that could bring me any peace and to peacefully cease existing really is all I hope for. I'll always just see existing as being unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existence itself will always be the true problem, it's something that just causes all this cruelty and suffering until non- existence takes away all anyway with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I really was just never meant for the futile and torturous burden of human existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish and hope to be gone, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again, dreamless eternal sleep really would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much peace from this existence I never would have chosen. I just never wished to suffer in this existence and I never would do rather I only hope for the peace of non-existence, to permanently not exist really is all I see as desirable and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

I just wish for an permanent sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so futile and cruel that I never would have chosen, I personally always find it so painful and dreadful to exist and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently. I wish I could just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and I'd always prefer to sleep than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence that just caused so much pain, suffering and problems there were never a need for, to be at peace for all eternity really is all I've hoped for and could ever do, I just wish for nothingness, I just want to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's something I wish was never imposed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so torturous to exist.
I really will always find it so torturous to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any relief from, existing to me really is only suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I never would had wished for and never would have chosen. I'll always see it as a burden to exist and I find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'd just never wish for this existence, to me human existence will always feel like the most cruel mistake and it's one that only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just find it so torturous to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts.

I find it deeply undesirable to exist and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering, I'd always prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for non-existence. I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where this torturous existence is finally all forgotten, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was so tragically imposed, I'd just never wish for any of this and I really will always find it so torturous to exist, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence.