Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is something that just causes harm.
No matter what I truly will just see existence as something that just causes harm, it's just so harmful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I'll suffer as long as I exist, existence to me truly is the most harmful abomination that is ultimately responsible for endless amounts of cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I personally see existence as nothing but suffering and it's suffering all for the sake of it that was always completely unnecessary, only in death will I be safe from all harm and suffering, only then will I be unable to feel pain in any way, to me existence is the most terrible tragedy.

I'd never wish to suffer in this horrific world and I could never see value to existence rather I just see it as an unnecessary harm which just causes all this torture and cruelty all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. My wish to die truly is a result of being conscious in this existence and I'll wish for death no matter what as I just don't wish to suffer at all, I just want nothingness instead, permanently ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as only then will this terrible, harmful existence no longer be my concern, there's just so much cruelty in this torturous existence. It's all just so horrible to me, I'll personally only be at peace when I'm unconscious for all eternity, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all, all pain, problems and suffering are ultimately as a result of this harmful existence, the amount of harm this existence causes truly is beyond comprehension, I'd always prefer to die no matter what, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this terrible, torturous existence.

 

[whatcouldofbeen]

hey funeralcry,

just out of curiosity what do you think happens after catching the bus? why do you think we exist? me personally i think we exist kinda pointlessly or possibly inside a simulation or for archons (prison planet theory) or some combination / something similar. Hopefully after i die i have enough psychic energy to poltergiest a post about the beyond lol.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to never exist ever again.
All I could personally wish and hope for is to never exist ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'd never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty but rather I just wish to never exist ever again. I wish for the permanent absence of all pain and suffering where finally this existence is no longer my problem and I can be at peace, personally I'd always prefer to not exist as I find existing to be so deeply undesirable in every way possible but really I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I never should have suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, all I wish and hope for is to disappear from this existence, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as I just wish for relief from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence, I wish to be permanently unconscious and permanently unable of suffering but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone. I truly was never meant for any of this, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what which is why I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent peace and freedom from all pointless unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I just wish to never exist ever again and it's all I'll wish for, I could personally never see any value and benefit to existing rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for.

 

[whatcouldofbeen]

hey funeralcry

i have been your writing and its quite beautiful. so i guess thank you for providing some comfort to me. but it also made me think

if the egg theory /reincarnation is true. perhaps your a old soul or a matured soul that has reached maturity but unfortunately was left behind to suffer another cycle in the washing machine of the human condition? do you feel like a old soul?

The wish to never exist ever again.
All I could personally wish and hope for is to never exist ever again, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'd never wish to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty but rather I just wish to never exist ever again. I wish for the permanent absence of all pain and suffering where finally this existence is no longer my problem and I can be at peace, personally I'd always prefer to not exist as I find existing to be so deeply undesirable in every way possible but really I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I never should have suffered in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake, all I wish and hope for is to disappear from this existence, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as I just wish for relief from the terrible, torturous burden of human existence, I wish to be permanently unconscious and permanently unable of suffering but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone. I truly was never meant for any of this, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what which is why I just hope and wish to never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent peace and freedom from all pointless unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, I just wish to never exist ever again and it's all I'll wish for, I could personally never see any value and benefit to existing rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, only permanent non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for.

your a beautiful soul and i hope you can get the enternal peace you describe. I wish i was "smart" enough to be able to imagine the peace you describe it sounds mesmerizing. I always thought that the fleeting moments of happiness had a double-edged quality heightening the cutting despair of the lows of life
i think bojack horseman or something else said this but it presented 2 scenarios

1. you are happy and then you are sad
2. you were never happy and as a result your current sadness does not feel like suffering, similar to how adam and eve did not understand the shame in nudity before eating the apple

bad explanation but this video i half-assedly listened to touches on this

 

[FuneralCry]

I suffer simply from existing.
I truly do suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me, existence to me truly does feel like nothing but suffering and it's suffering so pointless and unnecessary that I'd never wish for no matter what, I personally just wish for permanent peace from all suffering and I just want to never suffer ever again, I suffer just from existing, as I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible.

I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes and brings rather I just want nothingness and as long as I exist I'll only hope for it, nothing would make me wish for the cruel, futile burden of human existence and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed. I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless unnecessary suffering where there is all this cruelty and pain all for the sake of it, existence to me is something so dreadful, I see existence as causing nothing but harm and I suffer simply from existing as I find it such a burden to exist and it's a burden that only permanently ceasing to exist can bring me peace from. I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I only hope and wish for the relief of an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is gone for me and forgotten about, non-existence truly is the only relief for me personally and I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, existing to me truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer at all under any circumstance.

 

[FuneralCry]

For me ceasing to exist is the solution to escape from unnecessary suffering.
It truly would be the solution for me, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and save me from all pointless, future suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way. There is no suffering in what I see as the ideal state which is eternal non-existence, there is no disadvatages to never suffering again yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture of existing can get, for me personally a permanent solution to what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself is all I'll hope for.

I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, I find it such a futile, torturous burden to be conscious in this existence and have to experience anything at all and it's a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope to never suffer ever again. I wish to be permanently unable to suffer, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence that was completely unnecessary rather I just want death to solve everything for me, existence itself truly will always be the ultimate problem for me no matter what and I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes and brings rather I just wish for true permanent peace. I wish for the peace of never existing ever again where this existence is finally all gone and forgotten about, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me and the peace of never existing again truly is all I personally see as ideal, non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've always wished for death.
I truly have always wished for death and it's all I'll wish and hope for no matter what, for me non-existence truly is always preferable to suffering all for the sake of it in this futile, torturous existence I never would have wished for, I find it the most dreadful, terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all. Human existence to me truly is just pointless, futile suffering and I'd never wish to suffer at all rather I just wish for non-existence and it's all I've ever wished for, only the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep appeals to me where this existence is finally no longer my problem and all is forgotten.

Personally I'd always prefer to die than be trapped in this pointless existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to die anyway, existence to me is just unnecessary suffering and cruelty, I find it a burden to be conscious in this existence and have to exist at all and it's a burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, I've always wished to not exist as I just have no interest in the burden of human existence. I never have wished to exist and never could do, rather I just want to permanently cease existing in peace and never exist ever again, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence I never would have chosen that I saw as causing nothing but suffering and my wish to die is a result of existence, simply just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, I wish for non-existence because I exist and it's all I'll hope and wish for no matter what, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant to exist.
I truly was never meant for something as cruel and pointless as existence at all and I never should have suffered in this existence, to me existing truly is just futile, terrible suffering and it's suffering I was never meant for. Personally I'd always prefer to die than be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it, existence to me just feels like a dreadful, cruel mistake and it's a mistake ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of cruelty and torture. It's all just so terrible to me and I was never meant for any of this, I was never meant to be enslaved and trapped in this reality where there is all this endless suffering without the option to just painlessly die in peace and never exist ever again but of course the suffering just continues, nothing would make me wish for existence and existence could never be worth it for me.

I see no value to suffering so unnecessarily in this terrible, torturous existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering, personally I'd prefer to avoid existence and all the immense harm it causes no matter what, I truly was never meant for the abomination of existence, I was never meant for an existence of pointless suffering rather I'm only meant for peace, I'm only meant for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and this existence is no longer my problem. Existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope for permanent relief from this existence I truly was never meant for and could never be no matter what, I'd never wish to exist under any circumstance but rather I just hope for nothingness, I only hope for permanent peace from this existence I was never meant for that only caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only wished for eternal sleep.
I truly have only wished for eternal sleep and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence, I see nothing appealing and nothing desirable about existing in general rather I see it as such a burden to exist and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence. The tiredness I feel truly is such that only eternal sleep can take away for me, I only hope to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have wished for, eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me peace from the terrible cruelty and pain of existing as after all only in death will I be unable to suffer.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me peace from an existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering, only in the absence of existence will I be unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way and to never suffer ever again is all I hope for, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. I'd never wish for existence under any circumstances and I see no value to suffering in this existence in general, eternal sleep truly is all that could ever be desirable for me no matter what as I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I just want nothingness instead. I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious at all burdened with this existence, ceasing to exist truly is the only peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I never would have wished for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in this terrible, torturous existence, it's so horrific to me, I see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it that was completely unecessary that there was never a need for, nothing would make me wish for the pain of existing, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this pointless existence where there is all this terrible cruelty that just tortures existing beings until death takes away all for them anyway. To me existence itself really is the problem as it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, I'll always see it as so dreadful and harmful to exist, I'd never wish to be enslaved in this reality where there is all this terrible cruelty where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel rather I just wish for nothingness.

I just wish for some peace from the cruel, futile burden of human existence where I cannot be harmed in any way and this existence is finally no longer my problem, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily and to die means to never suffer ever again. I only wish and hope for the absence of all cruelty and suffering where finally this existence is all forgotten about and I can be at peace, to painlessly cease existing truly is all I see as desirable and could ever do no matter what, I just want to never suffer, I wish to be permanently at peace from this torturous existence I always saw as causing nothing but suffering and there's just so much cruelty in existing, I'll always find it painful to be conscious in this existence just waiting to die anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing at all is always something so terrible and dreadful to me.
No matter what I'll always see it as something so dreadful and terrible to exist at all, being forced into existence is always such a tragedy to me especially as there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all yet there is no limit as to how torturous this existence that I always saw as so unnecessary and futile can get. To me existence truly is an unnecessary harm that just causes suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and existence itself is the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I could never see any benefit, point and value to being burdened with this existence at all and I find it a burden to simply be conscious, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering, never existing truly would have saved me from so much suffering. Personally I'd always prefer to die as after all there are no disadvantages to being non-existent but more than anything I wish I never suffered, only never suffering is truly ideal to me what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and as long as I exist I truly will only wish and hope for non-existence. I just want to never suffer ever again, existence to me truly is the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes so much suffering just for one to decay and die anyway, existence to me truly does just feel like a terrible mistake, I'll always find it so terrible to be conscious at all, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist could ever take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing only for non-existence.
I truly do only hope and wish for non-existence, I only wish to never suffer ever again, personally I could never see anything desirable about suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence rather I just wish to be gone, I only hope for permanent peace from an existence that only ever caused me pain and there's just so much pain in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake. To me human existence truly does just feel like pointless suffering, I see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that has only ever caused me to suffer, only non-existence appeals to me and is all I've ever wished for, I just wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen.

I truly was never meant for any of this and I'd never wish for existence under any circumstances rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone and forgotten about for me. I see existence as just being suffering all for the sake of it just for one to decay and die anyway and it's all just so cruel, painful and unnecessary to me, all I personally hope for is to painlessly die and never exist again, I wish for no more pain, no more suffering rather I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where nothing can concern me and all is finally gone, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what and I suffer simply from existing, I suffer just from being conscious and it's suffering that only never existing again can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence truly is all that can personally bring me peace from pointless suffering.
It truly is all that can bring me peace as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in what I personally see as the only ideal state which is eternal non-existence, only ceasing to exist could ever be ideal for me personally and is all that can bring me peace from pointless unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose where I'm just waiting to die anyway and I suffer so much from waiting. It's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me, non-existence would solve everything for me as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I find it an abomination, a terrible tragic mistake to suffer in this existence.

I'd always prefer to die as I find it the most cruel, torturous burden to exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of cruelty and terrible unnecessary suffering where existing beings suffer all for the sake of it tormented until death takes away all anyway. Non-existence truly is the only peace for me and is all I could ever wish and hope for, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything no matter what, to be conscious in this existence and have to suffer so much as a result is such a terrible, futile burden that I see no value to. For me non-existence is all that's positive, it's the only peace, freedom and relief for me from an existence I never saw as worth it in the first place, I only hope to painlessly die and never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existence to be deeply undesirable.
I personally truly do find existence to be deeply undesirable in every way possible, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence but rather I just wish for non-existence, I wish for permanent nothingness where this existence is finally all forgotten about. I just see nothing desirable about having to exist at all, never have done and never could do no matter what, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, I'll always see existence as something so dreadful and futile.

I find it so burdensome to be enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering and I just have no interest in any of this either, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence, I just don't see any value, point and benefit to existence rather existence is something I only want to escape from, it's something I only wish for true eternal peace from, I just don't wish to suffer in this existence at all rather I just want all to be gone for me. I see no benefit to existence rather it's something painful and unnecessary that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for, the thought of suffering and struggling in this existence all for the sake of it just to be tortured dying in agony from old age is just so terrible to me, I'd just never wish for any of this, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I suffer simply from existing, just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to be gone, I only wish to be at peace from this existence I saw as deeply undesirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just pointless suffering.
No matter what I truly will just see existing as pointless suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I'd never wish to be enslaved in this terrible, torturous existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake rather I'd just prefer to not suffer at all and only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for. Nothing would make me wish for the cruel, futile burden of human existence, I just find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of pointless unnecessary suffering at all even know there was never a need for any of it all, existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me as it's the source of all suffering and cruelty.

I see it as so burdensome to simply exist and I see it as a tragedy how I was forced to suffer in this existence, I'll always just see existence as suffering all for the sake of it and it's suffering I'd always prefer to avoid, I could personally never see value in suffering in this terrible, torturous existence rather I just want to painlessly die in peace and forget about it all, non-existence truly is preferable to me than all this pointless suffering in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me. I could personally never see any value to suffering in this existence rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I'll always see so much cruelty in how painless death is denied for me even know existence truly is just pointless suffering that can easily get way more unbearable, I'd rather not exist at all than prolong all the suffering just to suffer way more.

 

[FuneralCry]

The terrible cruelty of existence.
There truly is so much cruelty in this existence, it's all just so terrible and painful, personally I'd never wish to be conscious of any of this under any circumstance, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all suffering and without existence I cannot suffer in any way. I see it as so futile and torturous to be enslaved in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and at any moment existing truly can very easily get way more unbearable and torturous, there is literally no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

To me existence is such a harmful burden and I see it as a tragedy to be burdened with this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and it's all just so cruel leading to decay and death anyway, for me personally ceasing to exist would be the solution to what I see as the ultimate problem which is existence itself, in an existence where there's all this terrible cruelty death truly is the only relief for me, I see death as the solution to suffering for me. I personally see death as my solution to all this terrible cruelty and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to be gone, I only hope to be permanently unconscious and unable to suffer in any way, to me existence will always feel like a mistake no matter what, I see it as a tragedy how there is all this terrible cruelty, I see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what, never existing ever again truly would be a relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer simply from existing.
I truly do suffer simply from existing and I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway, for me ceasing to exist truly is always preferable to all the terrible cruelty and suffering of existing and I suffer simply from being conscious, what I personally see as the ultimate problem is existence itself and I find it a burden to have to exist at all. I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and I suffer simply from existing, to me existence is something so futile that just causes harm, I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer in this pointless existence destined to decay and die anyway.

I personally see no benefit to suffering at all, I just don't have any interest in suffering as well and I just see myself as not meant for any of this either and I truly never should have suffered at all, I just wish I was never forced into this existence as to me existing truly is nothing but suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, it's just so terrible and cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know all this was imposed in the first place and I never would have wished for any of this. I suffer so much from existing and I'd never wish to prolong all this suffering for the sake of it rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, I only hope and wish for the absence of all suffering where this existence is finally no longer my problem and I can be at peace, I could never see any peace in this cruel, futile existence that to me feels like nothing but suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of being denied painless death.
I truly will always see so much cruelty in how I'm denied the option to painlessly die in peace to finally escape from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and I could never see it as worth it suffering in this existence which is why I find it so painful how I cannot just have the option to cease existing to escape from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chosen.

It truly is such a horrific world where painless death is denied despite the fact that this existence was imposed in the first place, I'd never wish for the terrible, torturous imposition of existence rather I just want nothingness, I just want some peace from this existence I saw as causing nothing but harm, there's so much cruelty in how painless death is denied, it's so horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die without the risk of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony. It's just so terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can be tortured in this existence that I always saw as a terrible mistake, I'd personally never wish for existence, I'd never wish for any of this, I just wish for non-existence instead, I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence and to me existing truly is nothing but suffering, I'd never wish to prolong the suffering of existing just to die in agony from old age but rather I just wish for true eternal peace instead, in an existence so cruel and torturous non-existence truly is the only peace for me and is all I'll hope for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is only suffering.
No matter what I truly will see existing as only being suffering, there's so much suffering in this horrific reality which is just so cruel and terrible to me and I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I always saw as a dreadful mistake. Personally I see no value in the torturous, pointless burden of existing as a human and I'd always prefer to not exist, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me, I just see existence as terrible suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it that there was never a need for with no limit as to how unbearable it can get but as well as that I suffer simply from existing.

Just being conscious is enough to make me wish for death, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I personally just don't wish to suffer at all, I see no benefit to suffering and struggling all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age rather I just want non-existence, permanently ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as after all I cannot suffer in any way if I'm permanently unconscious and unaware. There's just so much suffering and the suffering just continues, I'll suffer until death takes away all for me anyway but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing and hoping to be gone, I only hope for non-existence it's all I see as ideal in an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, I just want peace from the abomination of existence, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again which is why I suffer so much from being denied the option to painlessly free myself from this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence as a solution for me.
For me non-existence truly would be the solution, it'd solve what I ultimately have a problem with which is existence itself, there cannot be any suffering in what I see as the ideal state of non-existence yet there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence and it's suffering I see as completely futile and unnecessary just tormenting existing beings until death takes away all anyway. There are no disadvantages to not existing which is why it appeals to me, I wish for a permanent solution to the cruel, futile burden of existing that was so tragically imposed in the first place and I'll always see existence as an imposition no matter what, it's an imposition that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for and if I cease existing then none of this can concern me.

If I cease existing then this existence is no longer my problem and I'm spared from all future, pointless suffering in this existence I never would have chose, to me human existence is nothing but suffering and the suffering this existence causes is beyond comprehension, if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way which is all I see as ideal. I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, for me existence is a problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me, ceasing to exist would be the solution for me to suffering in an existence I saw as causing nothing but harm in the first place, I'd never wish to exist rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish for peace from this existence I never would have chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

I see existence as causing nothing but harm.
The way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm bringing endless amounts of pain and suffering until death takes away all anyway and personally I'd never wish to suffer in this torturous, painful existence rather I just wish for non-existence, I wish for the absence of all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone and this existence is no longer my problem.

I'll always see existence as an abomination that has just tormented existing beings and caused them to suffer all for the sake of it, it truly is all so terrible and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope to painlessly die and never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for, only non-existence can bring me peace from this existence that I just saw as an unnecessary harm that there was never a need for at all. Existence to me is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish to suffer in this harmful existence rather I just wish to be permanently unconscious, nothing would make me wish to be conscious of any of this at all and I find it a tragedy how I was forced into this harmful existence at all even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all. To me existence truly is just futile, unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence can very easily get way more unbearable and torturous at any moment which just shows how harmful it truly is, nothing would make me wish for existence and what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as after all it's the source of all harm and suffering and I really do see existence as causing nothing but harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish for peace.
As long as I've existed I truly have only ever hoped and wished for peace, I wish for peace from all suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, the way I see it to exist means to suffer and to die means to never suffer ever again. I personally see death as the only peace as only then can nothing can concern me, only then is all suffering and pain gone with this torturous, futile existence no longer my concern, there truly is so much cruelty in this undesirable, unnecessary existence it's all just so dreadful to me.

Personally I just want peace from all this, the thought of suffering until old age capable of suffering to unlimited extents in this existence I never would have chosen truly is so dreadful and painful to me, I was never meant for any of this cruelty and suffering rather I'm only meant for peace, ceasing to exist truly would be the relief for me and is all I see as desirable anyway. I only hope to never suffer ever again, I wish for the absence of existence where all is gone and forgotten about, I wish for peace from the burden of existence that has only ever caused me to suffer so unnecessarily all for the sake of it. To fall asleep permanently and never be burdened with this existence again truly would bring me so much peace, in this reality where there is all this terrible suffering that was all so unnecessary non-existence truly is the only peace for me, I prefer peace over suffering in this existence, I'd always prefer to cease existing but more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I wish I stayed unconscious and unaware of existence, nothing would make me wish to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

It truly terrifies me how a human can suffer so long.
It truly does terrify me how a human can suffer so long in this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake, all I personally hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again. I just wish for peace from all the cruelty and suffering of existing and I just find it so extremely cruel how there's no acceptance towards the choice to cease existing as I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer for the sake of it just to die in agony from old age, permanently ceasing to exist truly is all that can bring me any relief from this torturous, undesirable existence I never would have chosen, the thought of suffering until old age is so horrific to me.

Old age just sounds like extreme torture and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to die painlessly in an guaranteed way to save myself from cruelty and suffering and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering, I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only permanently ceasing to exist can take away for me, I personally could never see value to suffering in this cruel, futile existence rather I just want to die in peace and forget about it all instead. I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that has caused endless amounts of suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I wish for the option to just never exist again as I have so much dread for what lies ahead, I'll always find it so dreadful and undesirable to suffer in this existence no matter what, nothing would make me wish for the pointless, unnecessary suffering of existing.

 

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Existing to me truly is just waiting to die.
No matter what I truly will just see existing as waiting to die and I suffer so much from waiting, I just find it a terrible tragedy how I was forced into this unnecessary existence of pointless suffering even know there was never a need for it all. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and death is all that's inevitable anyway so I'd always prefer to cease existing sooner to prevent and save myself from suffering and to me existing is nothing but suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this pointless, harmful existence I never would have chosen, there's just so much suffering in existing and it's suffering that only ceasing to exist could ever bring me peace from.

I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer in this existence just waiting to die anyway, I find existing to be so futile, so burdensome and deeply undesirable in every way possible, the fact that I'm denied the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace just feels so cruel to me especially as I never would have chosen or wished for any of this, I'd rather not exist than be enslaved in this existence just destined to decay and die anyway. Simply just existing truly is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope and wish to be gone, I just wish for peace from this existence that I was forced into, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer in any way which it's why it's all I wish and hope for, I just want the relief of never existing ever again but of course I never should have been forced to exist at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only hoping for eternal sleep.
I personally truly have only ever hoped and wished for eternal sleep, I just wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with me trapped and enslaved in this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it and no matter what I'd prefer to die than suffer in this existence, I just hope to fall asleep permanently.

I just wish to be unconscious incapable of suffering in any way, there's so much cruelty in existing and only in eternal sleep can none of it concern me, I only hope to be unaware and incapable of suffering, in an existence where there is all this suffering eternal sleep truly is the only peace for me, the only relief for me could lie in never suffering ever again where this existence is no longer my problem. I just wish to painlessly cease existing where I'm safe from all suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake, eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering in the first place and saves me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chosen.

Personally I could never see value to the futile and cruel burden of human existence rather I just wish to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I just wish to forget about this existence that I never would have chose, nothing would make me wish to be enslaved in this existence rather I only hope and wish for the peace that only eternal sleep can bring me, I find it so burdensome to have to exist at all, eternal sleep truly is all that could ever appeal to me.

 

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Never seeing any value to suffering in this existence.
No matter what I truly could never see value to suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake, I find it a burden to have to exist at all and it's a burden I always saw as completely unnecessary that just caused suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for. I could never see any value, point or benefit to existence rather I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, I see no value to being burdened with this existence and I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all, to me human existence truly is just waiting to die, I see it as so futile and pointless having to exist at all, nothing would make me wish for existence rather I just want to never exist ever again.

I don't see value to being conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to decay and die anyway, for me non-existence is the only ideal state, it's all I see as desirable, I only hope and wish to be unconscious for all eternity where this existence is no longer my problem as I find it so burdensome to simply exist, the fact that this existence was imposed is a tragedy to me. I wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering as what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and it's a problem that only ceasing to exist can bring me relief from, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me and no matter what I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than be enslaved in this existence that there was never even a need for at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being trapped in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of being trapped in this existence and the tiredness I feel is such that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, I personally just hope to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering continues with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. Nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as a cruel mistake and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing where all can finally be gone and forgotten about for me.

I truly do suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, it's just so dreadful and terrible to me how there's no acceptance towards preferring non-existence with suffering seen as something to prolong no matter what instead, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this horrific world and I'd never wish for the cruel, futile burden of human existence. I'd always prefer to painlessly die than suffer all for the sake of it and to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of it. Simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of never suffering ever again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable in every way, I've suffered so much for so long and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, there's just so much suffering in this unnecessary, torturous existence, it's all so dreadful to me, I'll always find it dreadful to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is a burden.
No matter what I'll always find it a burden to be conscious in this existence at all, it's a burden so undesirable and unnecessary that just causes suffering all for the sake of it until death takes away all anyway. I just wish I was never forced into this existence of pointless suffering, more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence that to me was always completely futile, I personally just don't see any benefit in having to exist at all rather it's a burden that I never would have chose, to me non-existence is always preferable, I only see non-existence as desirable.

The way I see it existence just creates pain and problems there was never a need for all while one is just waiting to die anyway and no matter what all will eventually be forgotten about in death which is all I hope for, I only wish for the absence of all cruelty and suffering, I only hope for peace from the cruel, futile burden of existence where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. I just don't see value and point to any of this rather I see existence as something that just causes harm, to me it's always such a burden to exist, I find it so burdensome having to wake again in this existence there isn't any need for at all, human existence truly does feel like a mistake to me and I find it a tragedy how I had to be burdened with this existence even know I couldn't suffer from never existing at all, never existing is perfection to me, there are no disadvantages to it after all, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that could bring me any relief.
In an existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering non-existence truly is all that can bring me any relief, I only hope to never suffer ever again, nothing under any circumstances would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to painlessly die and forget about it all. I only wish for the peace of never suffering ever again but of course all the suffering just continues in this existence I never would have chose, human existence truly does feel like the most terrible, cruel mistake to me.

It's something that I see as just causing harm and suffering all for the sake of it, I personally just hope for the peace of non-existence, never existing ever again truly is all I see as desirable and is all that could ever bring me relief, I'd always prefer to die as only then is the suffering gone for me but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never forced into existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of unnecessary, pointless suffering and I'll always hope to be gone as long as I exist. Existing truly is deeply undesirable to me in every way possible, I only hope and wish for the relief of never existing ever again, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be trapped in this cruel, futile existence just waiting to die anyway, non-existence truly is the only peace for me, only in non-existence am I safe from all suffering unable to be harmed in any way and I'll always see it as so harmful to suffer in this existence I always saw as so unnecessary, I never should have been forced to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always just see human existence as just being pointless suffering.
To me human existence truly is just pointless suffering that is completely unnecessary I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to painlessly die and never exist ever again, I see it as the most terrible, tragic mistake having to suffer in this futile existence. Nothing would make me wish to be conscious in this existence rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I just hope for the peace of never suffering ever again where all is finally forgotten about, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and pointless suffering non-existence truly is the only relief for me, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about with me finally unable to suffer.

I'd never wish for any of this, I see it as something so dreadful to be conscious enslaved in this existence of pointless suffering capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, it's all just so futile to me and unnecessary. I just find it deeply undesirable to exist in general, existence was never a desirable state to me but rather something that just caused so much harm, I'd never wish to suffer in this dreadful, harmful existence I always saw as a terrible, tragedy rather I just want nothingness, I could never see value to all the suffering this existence causes rather I just want to painlessly die in peace and never suffer ever again, in an existence so cruel and pointless non-existence truly is all that appeals to me, only non-existence can bring me peace from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered.