Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence is there no suffering.
And that is why non-existence truly is all I hope for as after all only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me, only in non-existence will all be gone and forgotten about, only once I no longer exist will I be safe from all suffering and harm. The only relief for me truly could only ever lie in being permanently unconscious where I cannot suffer in any way, without existence there cannot be any suffering as after all, all that torments existing beings is ultimately as a result of existence itself. I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this meaningless, torturous existence I always saw as a terrible tragedy that just leads to death anyway, only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from the burden of existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never suffer ever again.

I could never see any peace in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer where all that lies ahead is being tormented by old age just to die anyway rather existence is something so dreadful to me, I suffer simply from being conscious and having to wake again. I'll always see it as so terrible to exist in this reality, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and it's all just so undesirable and painful to me. The relief I search for is such that only non-existence can bring me, I only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where there is no more pain, no more suffering and all is finally gone and forgotten about instead, non-existence truly is all I hope for, I've suffered so much for so long I only wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should have suffered at all, it's always so painful and dreadful to be trapped in this existence I was never meant for just hoping and wishing to be gone. As long as I exist I'll only ever hope for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten for me as only then will I be at peace from this existence I was never meant for.

I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering but rather I'm just meant for nothingness, I'm only meant to be unable to suffer where all is finally gone for me, under no circumstances would I wish for the pain and cruelty of suffering in this meaningless existence destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway. I'd always prefer to cease existing as only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, I wish I was never forced into this existence I always saw as a terrible mistake, human existence will always be deeply undesirable for me. I don't belong in this reality, I was never meant for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be gone, I'll only wish to never suffer ever again, I truly have suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would have chose that only ever caused me pain, no matter what existence truly will always feel like a mistake to me, I only hope for non-existence, never suffering again in this existence is all that could ever be desirable to me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does cause so much harm which is so horrific and terrible to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, harmful existence but rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering again. To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy that just causes and brings suffering all for the sake of it, it just harms existing beings tormenting them until they cease existing anyway. There's so much pain and cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's horrifying to me how existence causes all this endless suffering, I'll always see existence as something so harmful, in fact existence itself will always be the problem to me.

I'd never wish to suffer in this reality but rather I just wish for nothingness, I wish to never suffer ever again, only in non-existence will I be safe from all harm and suffering incapable of feeling any pain, as long as I exist I'll only wish to never existing again, peace for me could only ever lie in being free from this harmful existence that to me serves no function but to torment existing beings, I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything. I wish I was never burdened with this existence that just causes harm, wanting to die truly is all I personally know as I just want peace instead of all this suffering, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer. I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering this existence causes just to be tortured by old age, only ceasing to exist can solve what the true problem for me which is existence itself, I'd never wish for existence as it's the source of all suffering after all, it'll always feel so cruel and horrible how I simply cannot just have the option to painlessly die to finally escape from this existence that only ever caused harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just feels like a curse to me.
No matter what existence truly will always feel like a curse to me, I see it as something so terrible to suffer in this painful, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, there really is so much pain in existing and ceasing to exist is all that could take it all away for me, I only hope for an eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally gone. Existence feels like a curse to me, it's something so harmful that just causes endless amounts of suffering there was never a need for and it's all so futile and unnecessary anyway, there's no suffering in non-existence yet no limit as to how agonising this existence can get which is why it always feels so horrible how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace.

I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to die in peace as non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, to never suffer again is all I hope for, I see it as a curse to be conscious tormented in this existence just destined for nothing but the extreme agony of old age, human existence is just so undesirable to me, it's such a terrible, horrific mistake that only ever caused harm. Existence will always feel like a curse to me that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll suffer, only death can free me from this curse as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer there's no suffering in non-existence, I just hope and wish for nothingness, death is always preferable for me than all this pointless suffering in an existence I always found deeply undesirable in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just suffering all for the sake of it.
It truly is just suffering all for no reason all for no purpose, existence is just terrible cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it and I see it as all so futile and unnecessary anyway, existence will always feel like a mistake to me, it's one so terrible and torturous that just caused harm, I wish this existence was never imposed. I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existence truly is the most horrific, terrible tragedy it just causes suffering there was never a need for, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence.

I have no interest in suffering and I see existing as completely undesirable in every way, non-existence is all I'll ever hope and wish for, only non-existence can bring me peace, I'll suffer until I die, every second I'll wish to be free from this cruel, harmful existence. There's no safety from suffering in existing in fact to me existing is nothing but suffering with the risk always being there of ending up in a situation of way more extreme pain and torture which is so horrifying to me. I just want to cease existing in peace and forget about it all death truly would be the only relief for me but of course all the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone, it'll always feel so terrible and horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it, more than anything I wish I never suffered I never should have been forced into this existence, for me existence itself will always be the problem no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace.
As long as I exist peace truly is all I'll ever hope for, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again, under no circumstances would I wish for the torture of existence rather I just want nothingness. I just want to be gone, peace for me could only ever lie in being permanently free from the cruel, torturous imposition of existence where all is forgotten about for me, human existence was always a mistake to me that I was never meant for that just caused endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, it's all so terrible, I just want peace from it, to never suffer ever again is all I wish and hope for.

I just wish for the absence of all suffering, death truly is always preferable to me than being trapped in this futile and cruel existence where there's all this suffering for the sake of it, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I never became conscious, I'd never wish for the pain of being conscious in this meaningless, unnecessary existence but rather I just want nothingness. I've only ever hoped for peace personally, I wish to never think or feel anything again, I'll always see it as a burden having to wake again and suffer so much as a result and it's a burden so terrible that just causes suffering, I'm just so tired of it all and it's tiredness that only death can take away for me, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence, I'll always find it so painful to suffer no matter what, I wish to just die in peace to finally escape from this existence I was never meant for that brought me nothing but pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting no more suffering.
That is all I hope for, I hope for no more suffering for all eternity, I just hope for non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, in an existence so cruel and torturous death truly is all that can bring me peace, I just want peace from the terrible burden of existence that only ever caused suffering all for the sake of it all for no reason and no purpose. I'd never wish for the pain of being trapped in this futile, pointless existence just waiting to die anyway but rather I just wish to never suffer ever again, I only want no more suffering and to me existing does feel like nothing but suffering, I truly have suffered so much for so long and I never should have suffered at all, to suffer in this existence is such a terrible tragedy to me.

I'll always see existence as the problem as it's the source of all suffering and without existence there cannot be any suffering in any way, for me non-existence is always preferable to all this terrible suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want to die in peace with this cruel, futile existence no longer my concern. To exist will always be something so terrible and harmful to me, I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence that to me was always deeply undesirable, I just wish for no more suffering and theres so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace to finally escape from an existence that only ever caused harm. All I see as desirable is never suffering again and I'll suffer as long as I exist, there's just so much cruelty and pain in existing it's all just so terrible, as long as I exist I'll always be wishing to cease existing and never suffer ever again, it's all I hope and wish for.

 

[UnnervedCompany]

This might come off a bit insensitive but PLEASE WRITE A BOOK OR UPPLOAD A STORY ON WATTPAD OR AO3 I WOULD READ THAT IMMEDIATELY. I love your writing so much and your English is so intricate. Please I would be your #1 fan and you would have so many others as well.

Even if you don't make anything you write public I believe using your energy writing something hopeful or just a story can be more helpful than writing dread that is existence.

I can't send you private messages so I didn't know how else to pass my message.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in death will I be unable to suffer.
And that is why ceasing to exist is all I hope and wish for as after all only in death will I be unable to suffer, only in death will all the suffering go away for me and I'll finally be free from the terrible, torturos burden of human existence, to me existing means suffering and I suffer simply from existing. I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, it all just feels like a mistake, to me a terrible, tragic mistake which is why I just hopeand wish to never exist again, existence is a mistake that only death can take away for me and bring me peace from, I'd always prefer to not exist and as long as I suffer in this existence non-existence is all I'll ever hope and wish for.

I have no interest in suffering in this meaningless, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty and I was never meant for it either, I was never meant for something as terrible as human existence that just causes harm and I suffer just from existing, I see it as a burden to be conscious an aware capable of suffering to unlimited amounts in this existence that only ever caused so much pain. I only hope to never suffer again, I only hope for the absence of all suffering and it's suffering that only death can bring me peace from, there's no safety from suffering in this cruel, futile existence that just leads to decay and death anyway. In fact to me existing feels like nothing but suffering with no limit as to how torturous it can get, to me existence truly is the problem and always will be no matter what, death is all I can ever hope for, all I hope for is the peace of being permanently unconscious unable to suffer in any way where all is finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the problem for me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the problem, it's something so terrible and torturous that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, personally I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence I always saw as a horrific, tragic mistake in the first place but rather I just wish for death. I wish for nothingness, ceasing to exist would solve what I ultimately see as the true problem as after all there is no suffering in non-existence and without existence one cannot suffer rather all is gone and forgotten about instead.

I just wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of feeling any pain, incapable of suffering in any way, existence is so cruel, so futile, it just causes suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid such, I'd prefer to avoid existence and all the pain it causes all for the sake of it. Existence will always be the problem to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist ever again, existence to me really is just a horrific tragedy that just harms and torments existing beings until death takes away all they know anyway. Existence is the problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering, I see existence as nothing more than an unnecessary harm that just brings so much pain, I'd always see it as so harmful to exist especially as there's no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get, suffering in this reality can easily get way more torturous, it's all so terrible to me, only death can personally give me the peace I search for, I only wish for permanent safety from all suffering and I'll only be safe once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always just wanting all to be gone for me.
It's what I always wish for, I'm always wishing for all to be finally gone for me, I just wish to never suffer ever again, I wish to be permanently unaware of this torturous, terrible existence that only ever caused harm. To simply be conscious and have to wake again is always a burden to me, it's one so painful that just brings suffering, I wish for all to be gone for me as only then am I unable to suffer, ceasing to exist would save me from all future suffering in an existence that just leads to way more torment, decay and death anyway, to me existing means suffering and to die means to never suffer again.

For me ceasing to exist means peace from all suffering, it means finding safety from all harm and cruelty, there's just so much suffering in existing which is always so terrible, the cruelty of existence is endless and that's why I just wish to be gone for me, ceasing to exist would be the positive solution for me personally because after all there's no disadvantages to being unconscious for all eternity, to never suffer again is all I hope for and is all I'll hope for as long as I'm unfortunate to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence. Death would be the only relief for me, personally I just wish to forget about this existence, I'd always prefer for all to be forgotten about for me as only then will I be at peace and for me peace truly could only ever lie in never suffering again, I just want all to be gone for me and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death. It'll always feel so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die to finally escape from this existence that only ever caused so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it, I just want peace from this cruel, harmful existence, in an existence where there's all this cruelty non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless amounts of suffering.
It truly does just cause such which is so terrible to me, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing in fact the amount this existence causes is endless, it's horrific, to me existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering. I suffer simply from being conscious, I suffer from being trapped and burdened with an existence I was never meant for and never would have chose and what is so horrifying is how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist, existing can very easily get way more unbearable causing so much more torture and agony as a result. The way I see it existence itself truly is just an unnecessary harm that is so incredibly cruel causing so much suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so long.

Personally I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of human existence rather such just feels like a terrible mistake to me that I'd never wish for. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong all the suffering just to end up tortured by old age and die anyway, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence at all rather non-existence is all that could be desirable to me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, there cannot be any suffering in non-existence as all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as it'd remove what I see as the true problem which is existence itself. The amount of suffering this existence causes is endless and beyond comprehension with existing beings tortured every second all for the sake of it and that is certainly why I'd always prefer to not exist, I'd always prefer to be unconscious and unaware as after all only in non-existence am I safe from all suffering and permanent safety from suffering is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never having any interest in existence.
As well as existence being so incredibly cruel and harmful causing endless amounts of suffering as a result I've also just never had any interest in existence and saw it as deeply undesirable, I find existence to be such a futile pointless burden that was completely unnecessary that there was never a need for. I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered in this existence in the first place, I personally suffer just from being conscious and aware and I'm always so tired of existing, personally I've never wished to exist and never would do under any circumstances, I'd never see any value to suffering in this existence just waiting to die anyway rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what.

I'll always find it so burdensome to exist, to me existence is a burden I never would have chose, in fact existence just feels like a mistake to me and I'm always wishing to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want all to be gone for me, I've never had any interest in existence and never would do. I just find it so terrible and how I cannot have the option to simply die in peace as non-existence is all that could ever be desirable to me, I just wish to never exist ever again, peace for me could only ever lie in being permanently free from this existence, I only hope to be unconscious for all eternity. I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never be able to think or feel anything again, I'd always prefer to die no matter what as I just have no interest in suffering in this existence instead I only wish for nothingness, for me the true problem will always lie in existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffering of existence just continues.
The suffering this existence causes just continues and it's all just so terrible, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and it's suffering that only death can take away for me, to me existence truly does feel like the most cruel, tragic mistake, I just wish to simply die in peace and forget about it all. All I hope for is to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering just continues with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, personally I'd always prefer to die than prolong all this suffering just to be tormented in agony by old age, non-existence truly is always preferable for me, I'd rather die than suffer for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as so futile anyway.

I'll always find it a deeply undesirable burden to suffer in this existence and it's a burden that just causes endless amounts of suffering, for me death truly would be a relief as only then am I unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, in an existence so painful yet so pointless non-existence truly would be the only peace for me but of course the suffering just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone. It'll always feel so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot have the option to just painlessly die in peace to finally escape from suffering even know I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd rather prevent suffering in this existence by ceasing to exist than prolong it just to end up in a situation of way worse torment, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to painlessly cease existing.
To painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again truly is all I hope for and wish for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I never would have chose that only ever caused me to suffer in the first place, to me existence just feels like a mistake and it's a mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything. To suffer in this futile, pointless existence is always so dreadful to me and it's something I'd prefer to avoid, I'll always see existence as the problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty, there cannot be any suffering in an eternal, dreamless sleep yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torture and torment of existence can get.

I'm always wishing to erase my existence like I never suffered at all, I just wish for the peace of never suffering again and for me peace could truly only ever exist in death, only death can bring me relief from the suffering and torment of existence as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone, I just want all to be gone for me. I've suffered so much for so long and it's suffering that only death can bring me peace from, I'll always and only wish and hope to cease existing, existence will always be the problem to me no matter what, it's something so cruel and terrible to me as after all it's the source of all suffering, there's so much pain in this existence I never would have chose which is why I just wish for death, I only hope to painlessly cease existing and be unable to suffer in any way with all finally forgotten about for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Not wishing to prolong suffering.
Personally I'd always prefer to die than prolong suffering just to end up in a situation of way worse torment, I just have no interest in suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence and I'd prefer to not exist no matter what as after all only in death will I be unable to suffer, there cannot be any suffering in non-existence and for all the suffering to be gone is all I see as ideal. To me existence was always the most terrible tragedy that just caused so much harm and is so incredibly cruel, there's so much cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tormented and what is so horrific is how existing can easily get way more unbearable just causing way more torture as a result.

I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I'd always prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I see no value to prolonging suffering rather I'd wish to be unable to suffer at all, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered in the first place, to me existence is such a futile, torturous burden that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible to me. I'm always wishing to just die in peace and forget about it all, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I'm searching for and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for death, I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know I'd never wish to suffer in this existence at all, I just want nothingness instead, all I've ever hoped for is permanent relief from all the suffering this existence causes.

 

[FuneralCry]

Cruelty of being denied painless death.
To me no matter what it'll always feel so cruel how I'm denied the option to just painlessly cease existing in peace and instead the suffering just continues in this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake, there's so much cruelty in how I cannot just painlessly escape from suffering and never exist ever again as non-existence truly is all I hope for. I only wish to cease existing with all finally gone for me, I'd never wish for existence but rather I just wish for the absence of it where all is forgotten about, I only wish for dreamless, eternal sleep where there's no more pain, no more suffering and all is finally gone.

I'd never wish for the futile, torturous burden of human existence that I always saw as deeply undesirable, unnecessary and just caused harm, ceasing to exist truly would solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way and I suffer just from existing. I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, I'm so tired of being conscious in this existence I always saw as so meaningless anyway, my existence truly is just waiting to die and I never would have wished for any of this in the first place which is why it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just die in a painless way. As long as I exist I'll only ever hope for non-existence, I just want all to finally be gone for me, I was never meant for any of this and never should have existed at all but now I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence where there's all this cruelty all I can hope for is to never suffer ever again, death truly is the only peace for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence can I find safety from suffering.
It's true that only in non-existence will I be able to find safety from suffering and harm, there's no suffering in never existing again yet no limit as to how unbearable this cruel, meaningless existence can get and existence can very easily get way more torturous. I'll always find it so harmful to exist, there's just so much cruelty in this existence where existing beings are tormented so unnecessarily all for the sake of it until they die anyway, it's horrific to me how existence causes all this endless suffering yet there isn't the option for me to just have a painless death to finally escape from it all as I see suffering in this existence as being a deeply undesirable, torturous burden.

The suffering this existence causes is very real and I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts, existence truly does just feel like a curse to me, I see existence as the most horrifying tragedy, I find it tragic how this existence was even imposed even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all. The way I see it all that existence does is create unnecessary pointless suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong all the suffering in this existence I never would have chosen just to be tortured and tormented by old age and die anyway rather all I hope for is non-existence. Only in non-existence will I find peace, relief and safety from all suffering, death truly is the only relief for me personally, I'd be relieved to find permanent safety from all suffering from an existence that just causes endless amounts of agony.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for some peace.
As long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for some peace, human existence is such a cruel, torturous burden to me, it's something I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, I truly was never meant for the cruelty of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for nothingness. I wish for permanent relief and safety from all suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten about, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate to exist, only death can bring me the peace and relief I search for, peace for me could only lie in permanent non-existence.

I just wish to forget about this existence that just caused endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist as after all only in non-existence can there be no more suffering, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. I'd never wish for the torment and pain of suffering in this meaningless existence just hoping and wishing for death destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway. I have no interest in existing anyway rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me which is why I'm just hoping for some peace, I only hope for the peace and permanent relief of never suffering ever again, I was never meant for something as dreadful and harmful as existence that just causes one to suffer so unnecessarily but rather I'm only meant for non-existence, I never should have been forced into this existence at all.

 

[Rational man]

Only hoping for some peace.
As long as I exist I truly will only ever hope for some peace, human existence is such a cruel, torturous burden to me, it's something I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, I truly was never meant for the cruelty of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for nothingness. I wish for permanent relief and safety from all suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten about, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I'll suffer as long as I'm unfortunate to exist, only death can bring me the peace and relief I search for, peace for me could only lie in permanent non-existence.

I just wish to forget about this existence that just caused endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist as after all only in non-existence can there be no more suffering, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself. I'd never wish for the torment and pain of suffering in this meaningless existence just hoping and wishing for death destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway. I have no interest in existing anyway rather existence is something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me which is why I'm just hoping for some peace, I only hope for the peace and permanent relief of never suffering ever again, I was never meant for something as dreadful and harmful as existence that just causes one to suffer so unnecessarily but rather I'm only meant for non-existence, I never should have been forced into this existence at all.

We can only suffer whilst alive, so once we cease to exist, we cannot experience the peace and feelings of suffering that plague us in life. We cannot hope for peace, because cessation is the end of everything we were. We live and then cease. Peace can only be experienced now, whilst in life!.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong.
I'll always find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture, such happening is what terrifies me, I wish I could just die in peace in an guaranteed way and never suffer ever again, in fact to be permanently free from all suffering truly is all I hope for and it always feels so cruel how I cannot just have such, all I wish for is to painlessly disappear from this existence, I just want all to be gone for me, I just want to escape from all the suffering than suffer way more in an existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'd never wish to exist, existing will always be deeply undesirable to me no matter what, I just want the peace of never suffering ever again and I'll suffer as long as I exist, I'm so tired of being conscious in this existence I always saw as so futile and meaningless anyway.

I just wish for a painless death to bring me peace from the terrible, torturous mistake of human existence but of course I wish I never suffered at all and I never should have done, never existing would have saved me from all unnecessary suffering but now I suffer and have done for so long all I can hope for is to cease existing in peace but of course there isn't such an option for me which always feels so cruel. I just want permanent relief from the imposition that is existence, peace for me could only ever lie in being permanently unconscious and permanently unable to suffer, I wish I had the choice to just never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that I cannot just painlessly escape from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence will always be preferable for me.
No matter what non-existence truly will always be preferable for me, I'd never wish to exist, I find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence I always saw as such a painful, tragic mistake, I just find it a burden to be conscious and have to experience anything at all in an existence that was always completely unnecessary. I wish this existence was never imposed as all that existence does is create so much suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, non-existence is always preferable for me as after all only when I no longer exist will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me.

I just hope and wish to never exist again, all I see as desirable is being permanently unconscious and permanently unable to suffer, I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for non-existence as only then will I be safe from all cruelty, harm and suffering and there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, I just want to never suffer ever again.

I just don't see value in being conscious and aware waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts rather I see such as the most futile and torturous burden that I was never meant for, only non-existence can solve everything for me. Peace for me truly could only lie in never suffering ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than prolong the suffering in this existence I always saw as dreadful and hopeless just to be tortured in agony from old age, I'd rather avoid suffering, I'd rather prevent suffering and that is why non-existence truly is always preferable for me, I've only and always ever wished for the peace of an eternal sleep where I can finally forget about this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It always feels like I've suffered in this existence for such a long time.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long but really I never should have suffered at all, I never should have been burdened with this cruel, meaningless existence I always just saw as a mistake, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me no matter what. I only wish for the absence of all harm and suffering and it truly does feel like I've suffered for such a long time, it'll always be painful to be trapped in this existence I was never meant for that truly did bring nothing but suffering all for the sake of it and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to be tortured and tormented by old age, human existence just feels like a mistake to me and I'd never wish for it.

I just wish for peace from the suffering instead, I never wished to exist and under no circumstances would I, I find it painful simply being conscious, I see it as a burden to have to wake again and suffer so much as a result and it's suffering that only death can take away for me. I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally I can find some peace with all gone and forgotten about for me, I truly have suffered so much for so long and I'll always be so tired of it. I find it tiring to simply be conscious and aware in this existence that only ever caused me to suffer all for the sake of it, it'll always feel so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace as all I wish for is to permanently escape from suffering and never exist again, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope for some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless amounts of suffering.
It truly does which is so horrific to me, I find it horrifying how existence causes all this endless suffering all for the sake of it torturing existing beings until they die anyway, personally I only hope for non-existence, it's so cruel and terrible to me how there's all this suffering. Just being conscious in this existence will always be so dreadful to me, I just wish to cease existing in peace and forget about it all but of course all the suffering just continues instead with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence really is the problem to me, it's something so torturous that just causes harm.

I'd never wish to exist and find it such a cruel yet so futile burden to have to exist at all and existing can easily get way more unbearable as well all while one is just waiting to die anyway. To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy and most horrific mistake, to be conscious burdened with this existence is always something deeply undesirable to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for peace from it, I only wish for peace, relief and permanent safety from suffering where all is finally gone. To suffer in this existence will always be something so dreadful to me no matter what, it's something I'd prefer to avoid, it's something I only hope for true permanent peace from, in an existence so cruel and torturous that just causes endless amounts of suffering death truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope to never exist again. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chose, I personally see no value to suffering in this existence there was never even a need for at all, I'm always wishing I could just simply die in peace and finally forget about it all

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in death will I be safe from all cruelty and suffering.
And this is why non-existence is all I personally hope for as only once I cease existing will I be safe from all cruelty and suffering, to me existence truly was always the most cruel, painful mistake that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it causing endless amounts of harm. I'd never wish to exist but rather I just wish for the absence of existence where finally I'm unconscious unable to experience anything at all. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to an eternal, dreamless sleep with ceasing to exist soving everything for me as after all without existence there can be no suffering, all suffering is ultimately as a result of existence itself after all, personally all I see as desirable as never existing again.

I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer in this futile, meaningless exstence that just leads to decay and death anyway where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's horrific to me how one is capable of suffering to unlimited extents and one can very easily end up in a situation of way worse torture which is why I only hope and wish for death. Only in non-existence will I be safe from all cruelty and suffering, only non-existence can bring me peace from an existence I never would have wished for, I'd never wish to suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing much worse suffering at any moment and I don't want to suffer in any way, I personally see no value in suffering rather I just wish to die in peace and forget about it all, only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is meaningless.
It truly is, I see it as just meaningless, unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all, existence truly is so pointless and futile to me, I see existing as just waiting to die with humans destined for decay, loss if they have anything to lose and way more torment just to die anyway, for me personally non-existence would be the solution as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer and all is gone for me. Non-existence would solve everything for me as it removes the ultimate source of all problems in the first place, all I personally hope for is to cease existing and never experience anything at all, I see it as such a cruel, torturous yet so futile burden to be conscious and aware having to experience anything at all, I'm so tired of being conscious and find it so burdensome to have to wake again even know there are no disadvantages to falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep.

I see existence as so meaningless, the way I see it, it serves no function but to cause suffering until death takes away all anyway but it's also so cruel, there's so much cruelty in this existence and what is so terrible is how existing can easily get way more unbearable and torturous just causing way more suffering as a result and there is no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty of existing can get, I'd never wish to exist and view existence as deeply undesirable in general. I have no interest in suffering in this meaningless existence and to me non-existence will be always preferable, I'd always prefer the permanency of eternal non-existence where nothing can matter to me anymore with no problems, no suffering and all forgotten about for me than the cruelty and futility of waiting to die in this existence I never would have chosen. Existence is the source and ultimate cause of all suffering, without existence there cannot be any suffering and those who no longer exist cannot mourn for the absence of existence and that is certainly why non-existence will always be preferable for me and it's all I'll wish for as long as I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see existing as deeply undesirable.
No matter what I truly will always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this cruel, futile existence that I never would have chosen, I see it as so undesirable having to be conscious and aware at all, I see it as such a torturous meaningless burden to have to think and feel at all and it's a burden so unnecessary there was never a need for that just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it. Personally I've never had any interest in suffering in this undesirable existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, I just don't see value in existence in general and believe existence to be a mistake and it's a mistake so terrible and harmful.

I also see existence as so undesirable as it's the source of all suffering and without existence there canot be any suffering in any way, to me existing truly is just waiting to die where one suffers so unnecessarily in the process with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, there's so much cruelty in existing, existence truly does just case so much harm, it's all so terrible to me. Only ceasing to exist can solve what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten about for me, I wish for no more suffering and I'll suffer as long as I'm conscious, existence will always be undesirable to me no matter the circumstance which is why I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just painlessly die in peace to finally escape from all suffering in an existence I never would have chose that just brought me nothing but pain, I just wish to simply die in peace and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring non-existence.
No matter what I truly will always prefer non-existence, in an existence so cruel and futile where there's all this endless suffering it's all I hope for. I wish for non-existence as after all there are no disadvantages to never suffering ever again with there being no need for anything in non-existence, ceasing to exist would remove the source of all suffering which is existence itself and without existence there cannot be any suffering in any way. All I see as ideal is being permanently unconscious where I cannot be harmed in any way with nothing able to matter to me, I just wish to forget about this existence I never would have chose and always saw as so deeply undesirable, I could personally never see value in waiting to die anyway in this existence where there is all this terrible cruelty.

I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way yet there is no limit as to how torturous and unbearable this existence can get, the way I see it existence truly does just create pain and problems there was never a need for just tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it until death takes away all for them anyway. The way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing much worse suffering at any moment just to be tortured in agony decaying from old age, personally I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing than suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything and I just don't see any point or benefit to existing in any way rather I see existence as an imposition, it's a burden so unnecessary that just causes suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it. Non-existence is all I'll hope for as long as I exist, I wish to be unaware of something so futile and torturous as existence that just causes harm all for no purpose, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of being denied painless death.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace, I'd always prefer to die painlessly than prolong all the suffering in this meaningless, torturous existence I never would have chosen. Non-existence truly is the only relief for me and is all that can solve everything for me, I'd never wish for the terrible, cruel burden of human existence that just causes all this pain all for the sake of it and that is why it always feels so dreadful how I cannot just peacefully cease existing as all I wish for is some peace.

I wish for the peace of never suffering again instead of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence there was never a need for just hoping and wishing to be gone, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I'd never wish to exist under any circumstance but rather I just want nothingness, all I've ever wished for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering, I just wish to be permanently unconscious where all is finally gone for me and there is no more cruelty. I wish I could just escape from this cruel, futile existence in peace, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long in this existence where there is no limit as to how much they can suffer, I never would have chose any of this which is why there's so much pain in how I cannot just choose to simply not exist, I was never meant for something as torturous and pointless as existence which just brings suffering and causes so much harm all for the sake of it, death is the only peace for me, I see so much cruelty in how I'm denied such peace.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

It's so unfair that you're still alive and suffering in existence. Everyday I wish that you were to die from a natural accident so that you can finally be at peace. I didn't want to tell you this but I am because I feel so bad for you. It's just so unfair and I hate at how sadistic pro lifers are to where they'd rather prolong our lives for as long as possible even though we are to die anyways. It's just pointless suffering and you deserve to be in peace asap. If I had access to nembutal, I'd honestly rather give it to you as you deserve to be in peace more than I do but of course this is only a hypothetical since I'd never be able to get nembutal.

I hope you find peace as early as possible, you deserve it