FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
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Never should have existed.
I truly never should have suffered in this existence in the first place and there is so much pain in the fact that I did, it's painful how I had to suffer at all and it brings me so much pain how the suffering continues and I'm trapped in this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as so undesirable.
I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have became aware of this existence that just causes all this suffering and creates all this pain all for the sake of it, to me existence just feels like a terrible mistake. I personally see no value and I see no point to experiencing anything at all, rather such to me is a burden that just brings suffering, I know I'm not meant for the torment of existing as a human rather I never should have existed.
But now that I do exist all I can hope for is some peace and to never suffer again, all I wish for is to painlessly not exist so finally I can rest, to me existence itself will always be the problem and it's a problem that only death can take away for me. I find it so painful how I cannot just easily die in peace to escape from this existence preventing all future unnecessary suffering, I just find it so horrific and cruel how there's no way to just simply free myself in peace even know I never would have chose to exist, I was never meant for existing, having the ability to exist brought me nothing but pain, I should have died a long time ago but really I never should have suffered at all.
I truly never should have suffered in this existence in the first place and there is so much pain in the fact that I did, it's painful how I had to suffer at all and it brings me so much pain how the suffering continues and I'm trapped in this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as so undesirable.
I'd always prefer to not exist but really I never should have became aware of this existence that just causes all this suffering and creates all this pain all for the sake of it, to me existence just feels like a terrible mistake. I personally see no value and I see no point to experiencing anything at all, rather such to me is a burden that just brings suffering, I know I'm not meant for the torment of existing as a human rather I never should have existed.
But now that I do exist all I can hope for is some peace and to never suffer again, all I wish for is to painlessly not exist so finally I can rest, to me existence itself will always be the problem and it's a problem that only death can take away for me. I find it so painful how I cannot just easily die in peace to escape from this existence preventing all future unnecessary suffering, I just find it so horrific and cruel how there's no way to just simply free myself in peace even know I never would have chose to exist, I was never meant for existing, having the ability to exist brought me nothing but pain, I should have died a long time ago but really I never should have suffered at all.