Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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I'm the friend who chickened out last night...
She doesn't respond anymore, so i hope she's asleep now...
She doesn't respond anymore, so i hope she's asleep now...
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
That's so unsual when friends help that way... Mine would not simply understand me, noone would... You are a true friend, not the one who will allow the other to suffer.
Edit: Ofc, friends in real life, not from here. You are amazing
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Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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She showed me so much friendship....
Thank you for your kind words...
Ill miss her terribly, but know shell be loved wherever it is the soul goes.
Until we meet again..
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
Thank you too for letting us now! We are worried about her, how she feels now and if everything is alright! I told my friend that I am going to CTB, now he treats me like I am already dead...
Lostandfound7
Just waiting....
- Jan 21, 2020
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Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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I promised her to let people here know.
Who are we to judge the feelings of someone else?
Especially because she's my friend, i wanted to be there for her.
I hope you have someone who supports you to!!
That is very understandably difficult to do..plz don't feel bad honey
Thank you so much
PoisonedJuliet
You saucy boy!
- Feb 12, 2020
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faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
I would like to shake your hand, because that was not an easy decision I think... And your words worth a million! Thank you again...
I have this forum for support and one more person from here who I talk to.
Its great to know that there are understanding people in the world such as yourself. I'm sorry for you your loss. I wish someone cared enough about me to show that kind of compassion. To me its quite unselfish and loving to show that type of gentle support.
Hope you are at peace with her decision. As I hope she is also at peace.
Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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I would like to shake your hand, because that was not an easy decision I think... And your words worth a million! Thank you again...
I have this forum for support and one more person from here who I talk to.
I'm glad you have people who'll listen.
I can only say, I've learnt so much these passing weeks, there's so much shit in this world, eventhough you may not feel the same, if you call yourself a friend, you'll be friends even through this...
ill always be grateful for the time she was in my life
I would like to shake your hand, because that was not an easy decision I think... And your words worth a million! Thank you again...
I have this forum for support and one more person from here who I talk to.
Jean4
Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
- Apr 28, 2019
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Last seen 59 minutes ago. I hope you are at peace. Sending love and light.
Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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Thank you so much
Thank you so much..
I am well aware that not many people would understand..
But i did, and still do. She has a special place in my heart.
Im grieving now, and am crying like a little child, but i know we'll meet again, and that her sorrows have ended
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
@Myforevercharlie I wish your tears wash away all your grief soon and you are sure that your friend found peace and love which she was looking for
If you need us, we are here, with you!
If you need us, we are here, with you!
Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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Thank you.... I think I really would like to talk to someone.@Myforevercharlie I wish your tears wash away all your grief soon and you are sure that your friend found peace and love which she was looking for
If you need us, we are here, with you!
It's the middle of the night where i live.. Everyone is asleep
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
Oh, I guess it is Greenwich time for you as well? You can talk to us if you wish!
Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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Yes it is....
Im not sure how to start.. Or what to say....
I myself have different mental problems, but scared to death, about dead...
It was very hard for me to understand why someone else longed for it. But i did, she was so clear and definite in her believes. I learned a lot especially these last weeks. She made me see beyond my fears.
Not that im not scared anymore, but understand why she had not many other options.
It's just... When I send her our normal morning message in a few hours.. She won't respond, and although i know she couldn't go on.... I feel horrible.
Last year my litte brother got out as well. It was all over the news, at least here and in the UK.
And again.. Because I understand, doesn't mean im not f..... hurt
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foreverbroken28
I've gone off the deep end.
- Jul 11, 2019
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I'm grateful to Phezel for sharing her experience as she was CTB. I pray she is at peace, now. ~
Also, thanks to the friend for letting us know. I hope you are/will be okay, too. ♡
Also, thanks to the friend for letting us know. I hope you are/will be okay, too. ♡
faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
@Myforevercharlie The loss is always painful even if you understand that it is her choice.
The reason why we are here is because many of us tried so many things and did not succeed.
I suppose she was desperate with her life and tried her best to improve something...
It is not a shame to be scared of death, it is natural.
And when the death is somewhere close to you, sometimes it is even more scary.
I am so sorry your little brother passed away, honestly you are having so much strength!
Please, take care of yourself, you are very kind and full of compassion
The reason why we are here is because many of us tried so many things and did not succeed.
I suppose she was desperate with her life and tried her best to improve something...
It is not a shame to be scared of death, it is natural.
And when the death is somewhere close to you, sometimes it is even more scary.
I am so sorry your little brother passed away, honestly you are having so much strength!
Please, take care of yourself, you are very kind and full of compassion
thouisdead
unpredictable, but it suits reality.
- Feb 15, 2020
- 35
If you ever want to talk send me a message. I mean it. ❤
MsMaudlin
This is the fierce last stand of all I am
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Myforevercharlie
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- Feb 13, 2020
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@Myforevercharlie The loss is always painful even if you understand that it is her choice.
The reason why we are here is because many of us tried so many things and did not succeed.
I suppose she was desperate with her life and tried her best to improve something...
It is not a shame to be scared of death, it is natural.
And when the death is somewhere close to you, sometimes it is even more scary.
I am so sorry your little brother passed away, honestly you are having so much strength!
Please, take care of yourself, you are very kind and full of compassion
Thank you so much.....
She had her reasons, and gave me permission to share her story after she was gone.
But i don't think many people will understand or believe.
That's why I wait a bit.. And look around here, if you all don't mind...
I may be scared to die, i understand depression and anxiety much to well.
Im honoured i could be with her in her final conscious moments and proud she called me friend.
My little brother... I knew he would go. But the way how, and his face all over the newspapers broke a piece of my heart...
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faust
lost among the stars
- Jan 26, 2020
- 3,138
@Myforevercharlie That's fine, please, take your time, there is no need to rush.
I think I will be able to understand her and will gladly read her story.
Not encouraging, just letting you know!
I know you probably won't find a friend like she was, but keep her in your mind, heart and soul...
Well, a little bit more about death. In my opinion, I am more scared to live right now than to die. So we all have our own phobias concerning this and there is nothing to be ashamed of.
It is great she called you a friend and I think she was thinking about you might be even as about the best moment of her life.
I hope one day you will meet her again and you will never lose each other...
I think I will be able to understand her and will gladly read her story.
Not encouraging, just letting you know!
I know you probably won't find a friend like she was, but keep her in your mind, heart and soul...
Well, a little bit more about death. In my opinion, I am more scared to live right now than to die. So we all have our own phobias concerning this and there is nothing to be ashamed of.
It is great she called you a friend and I think she was thinking about you might be even as about the best moment of her life.
I hope one day you will meet her again and you will never lose each other...
squirtsoda
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- Jan 19, 2020
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@Myforevercharlie you're a wonderful person. Thank you for being such a unique and genuine type of friend to @phezel. In the short time she was with us I could tell she was a genuine and gentle person.
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Unsure what’s the point anymore.. life is so hard
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faust
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Myforevercharlie
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LostAllHope7651
Unsure what’s the point anymore.. life is so hard
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That's so sad, I hope she's at peace where ever she is
That is very true. I've been there too. I'm sorry. The only thing that helps a little is other people on here who have been through similar and understand. It doesn't fix anything, but it helps a little.
