Farewell

[phezel]

Tonight I will CTB using SN. I know I haven't been here long and haven't really spoken to anyone, but I wanted to say I really do appreciate the compassion and kindness of the people here. You're all wonderful. In particular, I want to thank the forum for the SN methodology, which I had no idea about beforehand, and it was so reassuring for me to find that method.

I have a friend who will join the forum soon after I've passed and give my feedback on my behalf.

Regime is as follows:

Stat Dose
4pm: started fast
10pm: stopped drinking
11pm: 1000mg paracetamol
11.15pm: 6mg Buccastem M
11.30pm: 10ml Milk of Magnesia
12am: 20g SN in 50ml water

Thank you all again. I wish you all the best, and I truly hope that life gets better for you.

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

As long as you are totally sure about your decision. We are all here to talk if you need to. I wish you peace and love

 

[squirtsoda]

Good luck and I hope it is peaceful for you

 

[Lostandfound7]

I'm so sorry it has come to this for u..I wish there was something I could say to help
Whether u have spoken on here or not, ur family

 

[LMFAO FOCKERS]

In particular, I want to thank the forum for the SN methodology, which I had no idea about beforehand,...

No need to thank the forum. I assure you all of this information is publicly available on many sites on the internet. What is posted here is just people's personal experiences with it just like any other social media.

If you are 100% settled on your decision, I hope you find peace. Please always know that you can change your mind.

 

[LMLN]

Peace and love to you . I am sorry it has come to this for you. There is no shame in changing your mind, right up to the last minute. We will be here either way.

 

[Girobatol]

Peace to you and hope everything goes as planned.

 

[harleymackesy]

I can't read this and not write a reply asking you to please reconsider. In my darkest moments I have felt so sure that suicide was the right choice for me and would be the only thing to bring me peace. I have no doubt that I will feel like that again in the future, and in my current state that could be tomorrow. But right now the clouds have parted for a couple of hours, and I remember how unwell I am. You can get help, and get the right kind of help. It's a case of holding on until you do but it will be so worth it.

 

[faust]

Well, that is a little bit strange you did not find SN method anywhere else, because it is very popular nowadays.
I regret you don't have very much time to stay with us and talk,
However I wish you calm and peaceful journey!
Even if you decide to stay, we are here to hear you and support!.

 

[Whale_bones]

I'm quite new to the forum as well. One thing I love about it is how everyone is totally accepting of someone changing their mind, so I want to reiterate that as well. If for any reason this isn't the right time for you, then you can come back and post again and I'll be here. If this is the right time for you, then I wish you peace in your final moments. I'll be checking in to see what happens with you. Sending you thoughts of peace and comfort.

 

[Indieblue]

It was so good to know you. Hope for the best.

 

[bigtasty]

I hope it goes how you want it to and I hope you have peace with either, if you reconsider just remember there are people out there who may help or there's always us here to chat

 

[Deathbydemo]

I hope you find peace on the other side. Godspeed.

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I hope everything goes smoothly. I hope you find the peace you are looking for and I'm sending you lots of love

 

[phezel]

OK, slight setback - my scales don't go down to mg when I thought they did. Is there way to measure 20mg in teaspoons or tablespoons?

 

[bigtasty]

OK, slight setback - my scales don't go down to mg when I thought they did. Is there way to measure 20mg in teaspoons or tablespoons?

A quick Google searched showed 20mg being 4 teaspoons.
(please correct if I'm wrong or search for yourself, I'm personally not 100% sure so this may not be right at all.)

 

[BPDbitch]

I hope you find peace x we'll be here for you

 

[ghostspace]

I'm sad I didn't get to know you better.

I hope it's peaceful and painless; you don't deserve the pain life put you through.

 

[phezel]

A quick Google searched showed 20mg being 4 teaspoons.
(please correct if I'm wrong or search for yourself, I'm personally not 100% sure so this may not be right at all.)

Can anyone confirm this is correct?

 

[one4all]

Can anyone confirm this is correct?

SN i do believe has a certain weight to it..unlike other substances.
There are a few threads discussing what SN amounts to in teaspoon/tablesoon measurements.

 

[jgm63]

Can anyone confirm this is correct?

20g of SN is 2 heaped teaspoons of SN.
Note : That is "g", not "mg"

(If it were water, it would be 4 teaspoons. SN is about twice as dense as water)

More info here :

Spoiler: sn-water-amount-lookup-table

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-water-amount-lookup-table-draft-version.31851/post-585818

 

[bigtasty]

20g is 2 heaped teaspoons.
Note : That is "g", not "mg"

More info here :

Spoiler: sn-water-amount-lookup-table

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-water-amount-lookup-table-draft-version.31851/post-585818

Thank you, I was just about to cross post a previous comment of yours on the weights.

 

[Soul]

My understanding is one tablespoon (15ml) of SN is about 17g. I wish you good outcomes of your choices as you go forward. Journey well x

 

[jgm63]

Thank you, I was just about to cross post a previous comment of yours on the weights.

Actually, I wonder if the OP is talking about the "mg" parts of his post, rather than the SN.
I edited my post above.
May post another comment in a minute or two : ¬ )

 

[phezel]

20g is 2 heaped teaspoons.
Note : That is "g", not "mg"

(If it were water, it would be 4 teaspoons. SN is about twice as dense as water)

More info here :

Spoiler: sn-water-amount-lookup-table

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/sn-water-amount-lookup-table-draft-version.31851/post-585818

So what would mg be? Or should I order precise scales? I'm already missing the window.

 

[jgm63]

My understanding is one tablespoon (15ml) of SN is about 17g. I wish you good outcomes of your choices as you go forward. Journey well x

Only if it's a "level" tablespoon.

By tablespoon, people typically mean "heaped" / "rounded", which is 30g of SN

So what would mg be? Or should I order precise scales? I'm already missing the window.

What substance are you trying to measure out ?

 

[phezel]

Only if it's a "level" tablespoon.

By tablespoon, people typically mean "heaped" / "rounded", which is 30g of SN

What substance are you trying to measure out ?

The SN

 

[Soul]

So what would mg be? Or should I order precise scales? I'm already missing the window.

The protocol calls for 20-25g of SN. You don't need more precise scales. I hope you'll stay calm and reread the guidelines. Please be careful. There's no rush. x

 

[jgm63]

The SN

20g of SN is 2 heaped teaspoons of SN.

You should not need "mg" for SN.
SN is generally discussed in terms of "g".

 

[phezel]

The protocol calls for 20-25g of SN. You don't need more precise scales. I hope you'll stay calm and reread the guidelines. Please be careful. There's no rush. x

Oh, gosh. Thanks for clearing that up. I don't know how I got it into my head it was mg. Will taking SN thirty minutes late still be OK?