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lostinthebleak
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- Nov 16, 2021
- 45
As of late my life has been slowly moving towards a dark place. I've noticed I've been drinking a lot more than I used to. I'm stressed more than ever. Lost a lot of sleep and weight too. The idea of possibly losing my job has made my life hell. Even with the support of some of my coworkers and my wife I can't help but feel hollow. I've become more antisocial, more apoplectic, and more withdrawn from the things that once made me happy. My best friend was in a major accident that nearly killed him recently. I lost my mother who was my best friend and confidant last year to a drunk driver. Nearly lost my dad and brother to this pandemic. And now due to sheer circumstances my job is at risk of something I didn't know about. I've spent thousands of dollars of my emergency fund on a lawyer to help me. Lost so much sleep and sanity over this situation. Already faced demotion for my "crimes" and could potentially lose my livelihood as a result. I'm scared, numb, and on the verge of tears almost on a daily basis. Part of me just wants to end it all and CTB now. While another hopes things will get better. I don't know what to think rn.