Discussion Does anyone else cling to a little hope?

[15dec]

I'm just really curious about this. I know my life is coming to an end soon and that I can't go on, yet sometimes I still cling to a bit of hope that things will be better, even though they never are. Does anyone else feel the same?

 

[Threads]

My life will get better, and I will recover.

I say this to myself every day in the morning.

 

[15dec]

My life will get better, and I will recover.

I say this to myself every day in the morning.

Thanks for the reply, I hope you recover soon! Sending you hugs

 

[Anima]

Yeah I do, often to be honest. I compare myself to others that have been through a lot in the past but somehow seem to find the strength to go on and just live. Being able to live without pain or being able to simply taking things the way they are. But I am sick of being forced to simply exist.

 

[15dec]

Yeah I do, often to be honest. I compare myself to others that have been through a lot in the past but somehow seem to find the strength to go on and just live. Being able to live without pain or being able to simply taking things the way they are. But I am sick of being forced to simply exist.

That's what I do a lot as well -think about people I know personally and who I've heard of who have made it out. I'm quite sick of it as well, it's one of my main reasons for wanting to ctb. I'm just sick and tired of living like this. Hugs

 

[Going Home]

I used to have some hope but this past year has been so crazy. I've had unbelievable injustices come my way. If I didnt have low self esteem I certainly have it now and I rarely have good days anymore.
Too many people flat out say I'm not worth helping, just not worth it.
I am ready, nothing will be changing in my life anytime soon. I refuse to live years into old age the way things are now.

 

[15dec]

I used to have some hope but this past year has been so crazy. I've had unbelievable injustices come my way. If I didnt have low self esteem I certainly have it now and I rarely have good days anymore.
Too many people flat out say I'm not worth helping, just not worth it.
I am ready, nothing will be changing in my life anytime soon. I refuse to live years into old age the way things are now.

I understand how you feel, things have been similar for me. Sending you hugs

 

[ChemicallyCalm]

I have a small bit of hope. I would love for things to get so good that I don't feel suicidal anymore. I'd love to wake up one day feeling like death wouldn't be my best option. After all, I don't hate life, I just hate this life

 

[15dec]

I have a small bit of hope. I would love for things to get so good that I don't feel suicidal anymore. I'd love to wake up one day feeling like death wouldn't be my best option. After all, I don't hate life, I just hate this life

I know what you mean, sending hugs

 

[DeletedUser4739]

I live in hope or despair. There doesn't seem to be much of an in-between anymore.

 

[15dec]

I live in hope or despair. There doesn't seem to be much of an in-between anymore.

I feel you, my life either seems brilliant and like everything is okay or as if it's awful and falling apart. Sending hugs

 

[Mixk009]

I am hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Both hurt me a lot over and over again. Death will only hurt me once.

 

[15dec]

I am hopeful and hopeless at the same time. Both hurt me a lot over and over again. Death will only hurt me once.

It'll be okay in the end, sending hugs

 

[Sanguinius]

I've lost hope after hope, and I've had a lot of hopes.
I'm tired of hoping.
I'm tired of trying.
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of living.

 

[15dec]

I've lost hope after hope, and I've had a lot of hopes.
I'm tired of hoping.
I'm tired of trying.
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of living.

I'm sorry to hear that friend, sending you hugs

 

[Sanguinius]

I'm sorry to hear that friend, sending you hugs

*hugs back...

 

[Kingkelly]

I wish... All hope is gone for me. I made the ultimate permanent stupid decision. I can not live like this. Why didn't I listen to everyone?

 

[15dec]

I wish... All hope is gone for me. I made the ultimate permanent stupid decision. I can not live like this. Why didn't I listen to everyone?

I'm here if you feel like you need to vent to someone, hugs.

 

[Kingkelly]

I'm here if you feel like you need to vent to someone, hugs.

Thank you. Its so bad. Last night i wanted to cbt so bad but am waiting for my supplies. I've already tried to od on random prescription meds which didn't work. I'm in hell its all so surreal like a bad dream. :( Hugs

 

[Lefty]

I sometimes do. However this year has been a really bumpy ride for me. I feel I'm at the end of my rope now.

 

[15dec]

Thank you. Its so bad. Last night i wanted to cbt so bad but am waiting for my supplies. I've already tried to od on random prescription meds which didn't work. I'm in hell its all so surreal like a bad dream. :( Hugs

I know how you feel, sometimes I feel trapped in a nightmare as well. I've tried using prescription pills too but they tend to cause more harm than ctb. Try to hang in there for now friend, myself and others in the community are always here to listen or offer advice with anything if you would like it. Many hugs

 

[Fucking loving it]

I've lost hope. So many years this way. I'm resistant to medication. I'm on ketamine now, don't know that it's helping. It does in the moment and it's so short acting. I've tried therapy. Groups. Hospitalizations. My last treatment would be ECT. I'm not fucking doing that.

 

[15dec]

I sometimes do. However this year has been a really bumpy ride for me. I feel I'm at the end of my rope now.

We've all been there, you're definitely not alone. Sending you hugs

 

[Kingkelly]

I sometimes do. However this year has been a really bumpy ride for me. I feel I'm at the end of my rope now.

I know what you mean this year has sucked. Its almost over hopefully everything will get better for you.

 

[15dec]

I've lost hope. So many years this way. I'm resistant to medication. I'm on ketamine now, don't know that it's helping. It does in the moment and it's so short acting. I've tried therapy. Groups. Hospitalizations. My last treatment would be ECT. I'm not fucking doing that.

I've heard ketamine is very effective as an antidepressant so I hope it can help you long-term eventually. I've been in counselling before myself but it wasn't particularly helpful for me. Best wishes for the future, sending hugs

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

I just designed this so I'm going with no.

 

[Anima]

I've lost hope after hope, and I've had a lot of hopes.
I'm tired of hoping.
I'm tired of trying.
I'm tired of fighting.
I'm tired of living.

I get that and yet I am sorry to read it ):

 

[ReadyasEver]

Hope for me, no. You have to be honest. My hope rests in my family not watching me die a slow withering death to cancer. The shock factor will be high but in the end I know they will understand.

 

[15dec]

I just designed this so I'm going with no.

I'm sorry to hear that friend, sending you hugs

 

[15dec]

Hope for me, no. You have to be honest. My hope rests in my family not watching me die a slow withering death to cancer. The shock factor will be high but in the end I know they will understand.

I'm sorry you're going through this. I wish you (and your family) the very best. Hugs