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puppyboy

puppyboy

nblw // bpd+did
Apr 9, 2026
61
just a stupid post but i feel sooo fucking braindead and exhausted from taking xanax or whatever benzo i have like candy. i literally wake up n pop a xan and wake up hours later just to take another one. i dont even feel anxious i just like the feeling. wishing i had diff drugs on me so i can rotate..i just don't like being sober 🥱 a part of me wishes i would get laced and die, it'd be nice..
 
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CrawlingInMySkin

CrawlingInMySkin

Is there life after birth?
Jun 14, 2026
50
You can keep going, mate. You've come this far, no? Just a little longer won't hurt. Lots of love and peace to you, mate♥️
 
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dirkw83

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Mar 4, 2026
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It's too bad we can't accidentally OD from benzos :/ Just be careful with that stuff tho, if your body becomes dependant on it it will be hell. My body became dependant on olanzapine and my life is ruined.
 
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never mind me

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Nov 7, 2022
165
Be careful with the benzos though. You really don't want to get physically dependent on them. I know many people who have been dependend on different kinds of drugs (like heroine, alcohol, benzodiazepines, fentanyl,...) and all of them say that the withdrawal from benzodiazepines is the worst.
 
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