Help Songs that ENCOURAGE suicide?

[delta2]

For starters, hello again.
Secondly, asking this question makes me feel like a strait laced nerd looking up "where is the best place to find drug dealers near me".

The question is exactly that. I'm not looking to encourage myself to keep living, Im trying to encourage myself to just fucking do it already.

So far I have
Bloodhound Gang - Lift Your Head Up High
Pink Guy - Kill Yourself (beginning looped but constantly being removed from YouTube)
MGMT - When You Die
B.I.G. - Suicidal Thoughts (not directly encouraging though, just kinda imagining how people would react)

I need something that is equivalent to someone saying
"Kill yourself you insecure, simpy, perverted, creepy, attention seeking, broke ass little boy"
Extra points if it's racist as fuck (I am Afro Latino).

I know I love life, I know I love people in my life, but I also know I hate myself and I'm never going to be able to live the life that I have in mind for myself. I can't take the pain, I can't break the restraints of guilt over how the people who value me would feel, and every day I wake up more tired and discouraged than the last despite being put on PROPER meds for once. The only way to "fix" me is to get rid of me.

 

[LosingFeathers]

I'm sorry you are that hurt. Though I think encouraging people do ctb is not what this place is for tbh. I can recommend some songs, that I listen to regulary when I'm feelin down. They are not explicictly about commiting ctb, and more expressions of the struggle with mental health:

HEALTH got some dramatic songs, but they are sometimes a bit too "emo" for my taste tbh
Personal favorites of HEALTH:
- UNLOVED
- ASHAMED
- (OF BEING BORN)
- DON'T TRY
- FREE TO DIE
- STILL BREATHING
- IDENTITY

Pretty much anything from my favorite artist ADA ROOK. My personal favorites:
- BURY YOURSELF
- RAT KID LIFESTYLE
- PEE YUORSELF
- holding your sleeping body i prayed to god for the first time in my life that i would be able to keep you alive
- Strangers - Silk Thread Growing Through the Glass Tube Bisecting the Abdomen of a Cecropia Moth Hatched in Captivity - DNA - Nothing Here.
- An ocean
- BRACKISH
- in for a world of hurt

Deathconsciousness:
- A Quick One Before The Eternal Worm Devours Connecticut

I hope those songs help to linder your pain.