Can you see yourself getting older ?

[Buddyluv19]

I want to go before I reach that age where everyone else in society impatiently waits for me to die. Considering I have other things that are prompting me to ctb, I see it happening before I get that old.

At what age will 'everybody else in society' be impatiently waiting for you to die? Is that written down somewhere in your culture?

 

[ManWithNoName]

At what age will 'everybody else in society' be impatiently waiting for you to die? Is that written down somewhere in your culture?

It's just an impression I get from the current Zeitgeist of the usa. And I put the age around late 50's.

 

[Meretlein]

I dread getting older, I have feared it since I was 10. After everything that has happened in life the idea of me old is incomprehensible.

 

[Meretlein]

It's just an impression I get from the current Zeitgeist of the usa. And I put the age around late 50's.

I'm from the US and that seems a little too early. I think it is more in the 70s. Also physical appearance matters too, if you look like a young 70 year old people will see you differently than a old looking 60 year old.

 

[DownInaHole]

Yeah, I want to live until at least 2100.

 

[Buddyluv19]

It's just an impression I get from the current Zeitgeist of the usa. And I put the age around late 50's.

Oh Good. Since you are from Europe, it doesn't affect you. And even if that Zeitgeist manages to creep over the ocean into your country, you've still got at least 40 years to live without concern for it.

 

[Xaphous]

No I never got to enjoy being young so what is the point, middle and old age is shit, I'm not there yet and I already know that. I just need to build the momentum to end it soon.

 

[ManWithNoName]

Oh Good. Since you are from Europe, it doesn't affect you. And even if that Zeitgeist manages to creep over the ocean into your country, you've still got at least 40 years to live without concern for it.

Europe is America's bratty little brother - they basically take after what the USA does. There is a lot of the American culture that Europe adopts.

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I can't.

The same way I can't see myself getting married (which I'm undecided if I want) or having kids (which I know I 100% don't want). It just doesn't feel like something that could realistically happen given who I am and how things are going for me.

 

[Thisisme373]

The thought of me growing older is really fucking depressing as I know things will only worsen for me. I hate life as it is, me being older, mostl likely fat and bald, miserable and alone is a seriously scary thought.

 

[KatieW]

I should be dead by now but life surprised me. I got pregnant and need to live few more years longer to take care of my child. Once my baby has a good complete parents and in a wealthy life, ill do ctb.

I'm still searching for where to buy nembutal.

Wow @DyingSoul this is so cool

 

[Othermind]

Whatever happens, I don't want to hit 30.
I've had maybe 2 good years in my entire life, I don't want them to be bogged down by decades of straight up misery like this last year has been. It's weird, but I feel almost compelled to die with those memories fresh in my mind.

 

[KatieW]

Whatever happens, I don't want to hit 30.
I've had maybe 2 good years in my entire life, I don't want them to be bogged down by decades of straight up misery like this last year has been. It's weird, but I feel almost compelled to die with those memories fresh in my mind.

Just one bad year lucky you... godspeed ❤

 

[Othermind]

Just one bad year lucky you

It was actually most of my life that sucked, last year was just on another level. Hell on earth.

 

[KatieW]

It was actually most of my life that sucked, last year was just on another level. Hell on earth.

I see. Seems with anxiety, bipolar, etc maladies we share some experiences; they start slow and peak up... to a tormenting crescendo. Till we give up in the end despite years of effort. It's a losing battle. Last five years have been quite negative compared to the earlier college and working years.

 

[essbet]

Yeah I always figured I'd end it between 30-40 after exhausting the usual lifestyle/treatment options.

So here I am, 31, ready to go. No interest in sticking it out.

 

[21Neberg]

It was actually most of my life that sucked, last year was just on another level. Hell on earth.

It's always when we think that we've had the worst, that it gets even worse than before. Life's magic.

 

[21Neberg]

On one hand, my current situation is only going to make me attempt again. On the other hand, I'm too much of a failure to succeed. So perhaps I'll get old. It's possible, if I'm honest, especially since I'm starting therapy this week.

 

[catwalk]

I'll either end up homeless or die from drug overdose/alcohol poisoning if I ever somehow make it that far.

 

[lemmeeleev]

No, sometimes I can't even see myself the next day, let alone a whole year or longer.

 

[HelpPlease]

I'm older than I want to be

 

[Conflicted Cat]

I thought I wouldn't be alive by the age 20. Yet here I am. 30? I don't know.

 

[HelpPlease]

Sure wish I had died earlier. I certainly did enough stupid shit too.

 

[Fadingfast]

My birthday is July 20th and I'll be gone by then.My twin sister told me to just kill myself so happy birthday to her. Me too, I guess.

 

[Dead beat dad]

I can't.

Every single day I think about it and I know my time is running out.

I know I will be dead before 30.

I never thought I'd love this long to be honest

 

[CursedForDisaster]

At this moment I can't imagine living into 2020

 

[Deleted member 1768]

Absolutely! And it used to be a "popular" method "back in the days". Some pain specialists I've met claim freezing to death is more painful than burning (typically witch- burning on a stake). You loose your conscious earlier when burning.

Having come close to freezing to death I concur with the doctor. It is exceedingly painful, lengthy, and without peace...really. Happened accidentally to me and it is not something I woud attempt without an overdose that would cause unconsciousness and ataxia, (inability to walk).

I can't.

Every single day I think about it and I know my time is running out.

I know I will be dead before 30.

Every time I take a breath I get older...

 

[soda_pressed]

No, once my looks fade I will truly be human trash. I'm going to be gone in a month so it doesn't matter anyway

 

[Milly Fenn]

At this point I'm assuming to have ctb by 2022. definitely wish I wouldn't wuss out by then

 

[Sick Boy]

No,the idea of aging it scares me to death,the thought of getting older and being alone terrifies me