Venting anyone remember me? i’ll be gone next week.

[WhiteEyes]

it's time, i'm logging off so no one can trace back to this forum. thank you so much, so much, for all the support. ❤ if i don't post again in a day or two, it means i've succeeded and Mods can ban me. i love every single one of you beautiful souls.

Hope everything turns out how you want it to.

 

[helIboy]

goodbye jade, i'll be seeing you real soon.

 

[Nem]

Sending lots of love
peace/hugs

 

[jade]

fuck it. i'll be going out with SN in a couple weeks. i can't do this right now

 

[Y-B]

Good to have you still here :)

 

[WhiteEyes]

fuck it. i'll be going out with SN in a couple weeks. i can't do this right now

Yay you're back!
Hanging was my method and I was far too cold, depressed, scared ect to do it.

 

[MsMaudlin]

fuck it. i'll be going out with SN in a couple weeks. i can't do this right now

I'm glad you are still here ❤

 

[Time]

fuck it. i'll be going out with SN in a couple weeks. i can't do this right now

NO shame in that. I'm glad you're still with us.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

*phew* glad you are still here.

 

[issyishere]

I'm actually really glad you're still here. I saw you logging off and I was crushed I never said my goodbyes. Hope you're doing okay sweetheart

 

[jade]

feels really good not to be judged. love you all

 

[Carina]

feels really good not to be judged. love you all

We support people regardless of what they choose to do :)

 

[Deleted member 1465]

We support people regardless of what they choose to do :)

Unless they want to watch the Spice Girls movie. I won't support that.

 

[Pan]

I don't remember you; I reached out to you when you were contemplating ctb.i said "I dn't Know you but I know that I Love You. All the best

 

[Quarky00]

Glad that was postponed

Welcome to the SN flock.
Your captain is Stan . Emergency exits are here, here, and here (and basically everywhere:)... Have a nice flight

 

[Lostandfound7]

feels really good not to be judged. love you all

I just joined today n found ur post. I was reading n got so sad when u said u were gonna ctb today,tho I don't even know u n am over life myself..But I'm soooooo happy u postponed it!!! Even tho we r all at the bus stop, it's still a bit sad when someone crosses over, even if it's on their own terms..Sending u love and peace

 

[Mooshi]

Glad to still have you here We're all here for you no matter what you decide to do

 

[Skyview]

You made the right decision , good for you and I'm happy for you . The bus has a timetable but at times that timetable doesn't work in our favor , be kind to yourself , sending hugs

 

[AlreadyGone]

I am glad to hear that you have postponed this. If this is still the path you wish to take, you should do it when the time is right.

 

[MachinaArcana]

Good to have your here (again), jade. Whatever the outcome or choice, you have my unconditional love and support. You and you alone are the only one who is capable of deciding on how to proceed. But the way it stands now, it will require introspection and, as hard as it is, serenity. However difficult it may be to find.

But please do NOT stop reaching out to other community members here, whether in posting threads or via PM. We're here for you, no matter how you feel, what you wish to decide, or what state of mind you're in.

And should you want to PM me, even if it's just to vent, yell, or scream - I wil listen. All ears, and with my whole heart.

Be well. Let everything sink in. Give it time. You owe that to yourself, and - dare I say it - this community; because we care about you, and want what 's best for u. And noone here will condemn or judge you for any of the choices you make. It's YOUR life, and ultimatey, you are the captain, gazing at the stars and steering the ship. Please don't ever forget that.

Hugs

 

[Pan]

I love you... and plenty of hugs on your journey...I am waiting for the spring, when I am sure i'll Be found—hanging from the water pipe in my basement...see you in the next life...

 

[Throwmyselfaway]

Wishing you find peace. Hugs

 

[jade]

arghhhhhhhhh can my SN just get here already i'm so DONE WITH WAITING

thank you guys for all your love. one giant warm hug to all of you.

 

[jade]

IT'S FINALLY HERE!!!!

I bought it from the polish supplier. seems very legit, I haven't opened it but you can kinda see the crystals bc the bottle is a little bit see-through. Package wasn't suspicious at all and doesn't give away what's inside.
I'll do the stat dose on monday or tuesday (GMT+1 time), i'll update this when i know the day for sure. i'm so excited. this is so weird.

this is what i'm gonna do:
• 8-hour fast + stop drinking 2 hours beforehand

• h23: 600mg ibuprofen + 4 x 2,5 mg olanzapine (to calm me down and help me sleep)

• h23.15: 3 x 10 mg meto

• h23.30: double dose of antacid

•h24: SN

i'll have 2 more glasses just in case i throw up. i'm doing 25gm in 50ml water.

 

[jade]

finally booked a hotel. tomorrow night. holy shit

 

[Indieblue]

finally booked a hotel. tomorrow night. holy shit

Hope you find peace.

 

[WhiteEyes]

Hi again, it seems you gave yourself a little more time.
And you still don't have to commit to anything. You can just eat chocolates in the hotel.
It may also help to have distance away from the abusive household.

 

[MsMaudlin]

finally booked a hotel. tomorrow night. holy shit

So glad you got your SN. If you need to talk, I'm here ❤

 

[enjoy]

peace to you.

 

[Mooshi]

I hope you find peace