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I'm sorry that sucks - shouldn't really have gone against you that you looked stoned - but they will use anything as an excuse to punish someone for drug use -what would they have preferred that u turn up drunk? Kinda understandable if u feel u need a smoke at the mo.
I want to but I tried living long term without her and really tried and it was a struggle. Last time we split up, she logged into my Facebook messenger account at our home that i got kicked out of. i was living in a shithole meth town to monkey branch from homeless to an apartment and it was cheap no credit checks or wait. So I tried to hold out three months, working, starting over, negotiating with her, ect. I got so depressed and frustrated. I had been kicked out 3 times at that time. That was a little over a year ago. I told my best guy friend, her ex actually, everything about our relationship because me and him go back until 12 years old. She and I met at 22 and I introduced those two. He knows her. I can talk to him. I was messaging him and some other friends and I finally snapped with everything and getting screwed. I told some friends I was going to get the police to kill me which I actually regret considering. I will take my own life without sucking other people into my shit situation and putting them on the line. Fuck that. But I wasn't serious...yet. I was desparate to see my daughter or stop hurting. Obsessing. All day all night. So my wife was spying on me 90 miles away and read all my messages through my own account and was messaging my friends and my ex wife as me to mess with me and shit. She finally became scared I was going to commit suicide and gave me a chance to come home.and came.and got me. I abandoned my new place and job and went home. That was a year ago. Got a job as a certified nurse's assistant again then later security and had a good year until the last couple months. I started getting angry and frustrated. Nothing is ever good enough. I went from fit to getting fatter and fatter because all my energy is to what my wife wants and work. Now I'm starting to look fit and muscular again more than fat but who the fuck cares my family is gone. I could meet the woman of my dreams of the hottest woman on Earth idk and idc I want my family and i don't want to love anyone else but the mother of my child and the best friend I fought for so damn long. In the end in the last month I just couldn't take it anymore and started smoking pot again mildly. Pot is one of the 3 major things we always were feuding on. When I married her I agreed not to do it. I wanted her. I get exhausted trying to meet all her demand and give in. I'm in the wrong there. I did promise her I would stop doing that. I did for the most part
I was so hurt and sad I wanted to do worse than smoke a little grass
Yeah I did. And I could have. But I didn't.
But if YOU end up committing suicide, I'd still suggest taking the picture down. It's still worrisome
Numbers are heavily skewed since women tend to go through less lethal methods while men go through more violent and surefire methods like guns. Jumping etc. How often do you hear about women using a shotgun? Simple, women don't like mess. We're more inclined to pills. Cutting our wrists, poison etc
You have to understand there is no "good" in a toxic relationship. But you're allowing yourself to believe that. It sounds like you have no self esteem or self worth if you keep going back for this abuse. I'm going to tell you right now that no one has the right to put their hands on anyone ever! Don't let yourself get used to that and make excuses for her. This is just my opinion but let's just say you started a relationship with someone else. I bet that person would be a piece of shit too. Because those are the people you're attracting because you don't love yourself enough. I'd rather be by myself than sick with someone else. And this woman has definitely made you sick. If you're healthy and are able to work could you get a lawyer to fight for joint custody for your daughter? I know you can't see it right now but you're being treated like a dog. You're being let out and being kept out until your owner let's you come back in the house again. Then she rubs your nose in shit when you do something wrong. I know you're not able to see it from your perspective right now because you're not seeing things as they are. It's like you're looking at things through one if those fun house mirrors. Nothing about this situation is good. I couldn't love someone if they beat me. I just couldn't. I understand you have a kid with her but you have to show her that you have self respect and refuse to be treated like this. What if you went to therapy to talk about it and maybe you'll learn to understand what you deserve in life? Just a suggestion.
If pills or wrist cutting or pretty methods were lethal, I think the numbers would be pretty equal. There's no different parts of the brain something like depression or financial troubles or whatever doesn't touch. It's not any easier. We're just hardwired to prefer a prettier method which is why we're not always successful
