Venting 2024 will be the worst year of my life

[Judah]

I have almost never had that feeling, I have even wished a happy new year before but this time it will be different, it is not as if something happens suddenly that temporarily relieves my pain... this time I think I am alone, or at least I will be in the future. next months. Right now I'm fine, enjoying these small moments of stability because I know that in a couple of months my future will turn horrible.

I am incapable of performing CTB so I found it more feasible to kill myself little by little, either by consuming strong drugs and letting myself go... anything that manages to shorten my life considerably, after all, I will no longer have anything to lose and I will not I want to have to live with the health problems I face.

 

[Sleeper System]

Life sucks. Stay if you must. Go when you can.

 

[Judah]

Life sucks. Stay if you must. Go when you can.

I would not like to stay, that is why I will resort to passive CTB since I do not have access to N or SN

 

[Deleted member 8975]

I have almost never had that feeling, I have even wished a happy new year before but this time it will be different, it is not as if something happens suddenly that temporarily relieves my pain... this time I think I am alone, or at least I will be in the future. next months. Right now I'm fine, enjoying these small moments of stability because I know that in a couple of months my future will turn horrible.

I am incapable of performing CTB so I found it more feasible to kill myself little by little, either by consuming strong drugs and letting myself go... anything that manages to shorten my life considerably, after all, I will no longer have anything to lose and I will not I want to have to live with the health problems I face.

I worry 2024 will be worse too.

 

[F@#$]

I say the same thing every year.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

I'm sorry Judah...

It seems to me that every year is getting worse. Thankfully for me personally there are some little lights that get me through each year.

I hope you will find some too to make it a bit more bearable

 

[CTB Dream]

V sry know cncpt time yr move move wrs ya this all life awfl slow die v sry sffr v sry hpn