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eeriepuff

eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
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i feel so dead inside & i'm just waiting for my body to catch up. waking up everyday just to go to work for 9 hours is FUCKING SOUL CRUSHING. what i would give for a gun is immeasurable; or really any guaranteed way out of existence at this point.
 
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SASU-KE

Summoning Mahoraga to end things
Nov 26, 2025
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Only the people who are lucky enough to be able to do what they love for a living enjoy their work.For the rest of us, It's just a job. As you said, soul crushing.
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
Only the people who are lucky enough to be able to do what they love for a living enjoy their work.For the rest of us, It's just a job. As you said, soul crushing.
LMAO. It's fucking hell isn't it? I'm wishing you peace & happiness wherever you are :) ❤️
 
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SASU-KE

Summoning Mahoraga to end things
Nov 26, 2025
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LMAO. It's fucking hell isn't it? I'm wishing you peace & happiness wherever you are :) ❤️
I'm shoveling coal to fuel the furnace in hell,but thanks!

Okay,it's not that bad,but close 😅
 
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Liebestod

Waiting for death
Mar 15, 2025
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Life is slavery
 
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ifckinhatelife

New Member
Apr 30, 2026
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Honestly that is so true. Thinking if this is what I have to do to survive, might as well just end it immediately. Is it my fault not forcing myself to enjoy doing boring, repetitive shit for hours almost every day? Even by imagining it, the money isn't worth it anymore.
i feel so dead inside & i'm just waiting for my body to catch up. waking up everyday just to go to work for 9 hours is FUCKING SOUL CRUSHING. what i would give for a gun is immeasurable; or really any guaranteed way out of existence at this point.
 
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franos666

"Mother I tried please believe me"
May 20, 2026
85
I fucking hate work omg
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
Honestly that is so true. Thinking if this is what I have to do to survive, might as well just end it immediately. Is it my fault not forcing myself to enjoy doing boring, repetitive shit for hours almost every day? Even by imagining it, the money isn't worth it anymore.
It's like a never ending cycle of need & neglect. I can't even imagine forcing someone to be born without consent and forcing them to play this sick game we call life.
I fucking hate work omg
LITERALLY. My parents are putting pressure on me to either go to college or go to work & i wanna die
My grandma just told me i either go to work , go to college or i have to get out. #whatismylife #chud #needtoctbrn
 
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isthisit?

The name's Cedrik
Jun 23, 2023
237
Usually people try to balance it out with a personal life which makes it worth it
 
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eng666

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May 26, 2026
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Want my BEST wishes
 
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ApparentlyNot

Hesitation is defeat
Jul 8, 2023
187
Usually people try to balance it out with a personal life which makes it worth it
how do you do that when you work 50+ hours a week just to survive, when you come home you are extremely physically and mentally exhausted and can barely think or move. You sleep 56 hours a week. You cook, you clean, you shower, you grocery shop, you do basic things for survival because they NEED done, and how much of your energy and drive do you have left? How much of yourself is left?

And thats if you work a job that is financially sufficient. Imagine all that, but you can NEVER afford a home, a family, to comfortably support animals, to retire, because nonskilled labor on a single income simply doesn't provide those luxuries. Futile. Utterly fucking futile. Why do it then?

I'm personally going to ctb for this reason. I can't believe I used to want to kill myself due to the gaping hole in my soul and not this absolutely soul devouring life. I wish I could even consider the state of my psyche and how to heal, but the practical day to day of working tops the hierarchy always.

I really resonate with what @SASU-KE wrote: "I'm shoveling coal to fuel the furnace in hell," because I work myself to the point of mental and physical exhaustion and fatigue just so I can survive... when I fucking despise every minute of it. I am the one keeping this shit show going with hard labor. And I dont know why. There is clearly some delusional drive for something inaccesible confusing me into slaving like a little worker ant for a corporation all day just so I can one day maybe earn the distinct privilege of simply existing in a shitty box somewhere until I keel over (retirement, in a shitty home).

I feel anxiety and desperation almost always due to this. I do not think using the word slavery is exaggeratory.
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
how do you do that when you work 50+ hours a week just to survive, when you come home you are extremely physically and mentally exhausted and can barely think or move. You sleep 56 hours a week. You cook, you clean, you shower, you grocery shop, you do basic things for survival because they NEED done, and how much of your energy and drive do you have left? How much of yourself is left?

And thats if you work a job that is financially sufficient. Imagine all that, but you can NEVER afford a home, a family, to comfortably support animals, to retire, because nonskilled labor on a single income simply doesn't provide those luxuries. Futile. Utterly fucking futile. Why do it then?

I'm personally going to ctb for this reason. I can't believe I used to want to kill myself due to the gaping hole in my soul and not this absolutely soul devouring life. I wish I could even consider the state of my psyche and how to heal, but the practical day to day of working tops of the hierarchy always.

I really resonate with what @SASU-KE wrote: "I'm shoveling coal to fuel the furnace in hell," because I work myself to the point of mental and physical exhaustion and fatigue just so I can survive... when I fucking despise every minute of it. I am the one keeping this shit show going with hard labor. And I dont know why. There is clearly some delusional drive for something inaccesible confusing me into slaving like a little worker ant for a corporation all day just so I can one day maybe earn the distinct privilege of simply existing in a shitty box somewhere until I keel over (retirement, in a shitty home).

I feel anxiety and desperation almost always due to this. I do not think using the word slavery is exaggeratory.
This. FUCKING THIS. My latest delusion has been buying lottery tickets hoping & praying I could potentially get lucky & find my way out of a 9-5. But if I'm being honest? Things look bleak. I'm looking for a way out as soon as possible. Without a gun im thinking I'll just drink water & not eat food until I pass away. It's such a sad existence I've been brought into but I don't have to stay. I REALLY hope things get better for you. And you don't have to work a stupid fucking 9-5 just to make it to the next day. Sending you lots of love & money telepathically LOL as much as a pathetic chud like me can anyways ❤️
 
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vexana

vexana

life is just a passing illusion
May 30, 2026
14
i feel you. work is eating me alive. i just basically sold my soul to the satan just to survive.
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
IMG 9119
the only good thing that happened to me today
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
1,859
my first permanent job, I loved. Loved. Company was sold. Everyone let go.
another job was 830 to 430. Perfect. Work was ok, but not bad. Merged with another office. All of ours let go.
Current company was best yet. Hours were longer but owner cared for us. Sold to private equity. Absolute hell now.

We're not actually being kept as wage slaves. If so mergers would be rare. More companies more workers. Only stock price matters now. Anyone involved in this greed should die, not us.
 
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SASU-KE

Summoning Mahoraga to end things
Nov 26, 2025
1,023
My latest delusion has been buying lottery tickets
I've also been thinking about Russian Roulette.

I was all right with my job for the past few years, but now my manager calls a meeting and tells us that within two years, if we don't learn Python coding, we're going to be replaced by AI software agents.
These agents are apparently small pieces of independent software code that are programmed to do one particular task.It's called agentic AI. It's the future.

I went through the curriculum for Python And I don't enjoy it at all. Programming is either a love it or hate it kind of thing and I hate it.Not sure what's going to happen soon.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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, if we don't learn Python coding, we're going to be replaced by AI software agents.
this is just appalling. It's inane AI exists. The future is nothing but doom.
 
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JoeFailure

Wizard
Apr 29, 2019
648
There's less and less slavery even available now for people to get by
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
There's less and less slavery even available now for people to get by
I feel this. Pretty soon im gonna start starving myself. I won't do it without water … too painful. Just casually becoming too skinny then dying
 
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permanently tired

it's never enough
Nov 8, 2023
273
I think my life could be tolerable by some ppl but I just don't want this anymore. The money is not worth the effort. It will never change my life so I feel like idec abt going to work. Not that I want to grow with the company or anything.

I hate my family. They don't understand me and frankly some of them are so stupid it's disgusts me to converse with them. Their presence is an intrusion in my life. Life is a waste of time and energy, I don't want anything life can offer. I need to admit to myself, I was always meant to die an untimely death. Emotionally crippled by the ppl that raised me.
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
I think my life could be tolerable by some ppl but I just don't want this anymore. The money is not worth the effort. It will never change my life so I feel like idec abt going to work. Not that I want to grow with the company or anything.

I hate my family. They don't understand me and frankly some of them are so stupid it's disgusts me to converse with them. Their presence is an intrusion in my life. Life is a waste of time and energy, I don't want anything life can offer. I need to admit to myself, I was always meant to die an untimely death. Emotionally crippled by the ppl that raised me.
I hate that you feel like this. I know all too well what it feels like to have DISGUSTING fucking parents who are nothing but pests. My parents are more or less the exact same as yours.
 
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DeersCanTalk

Member
May 25, 2026
27
RANT INCOMING!!!

IDGAF! At this point, It's NEET or nothing (Like the NERF commercials) When you start to see "j*bs" as optional life becomes so much better, (I understand being NEET is a privilige but god god it's sooooo nice to do wtv you want and not have to worry about anything) i would rather end up on the street scavenging and surviving, that's real WORK not some bs adult kindergarten job that just strips you of your energy and soul. I read some conspiracy theory lately that talked called modern jobs demonic and a way to fuel satanic energy that surrounds us since it strips us of our energy and prevents us from existing in our natural way of being (which is imo dormant and hedonistic)

How can someone that doesn't believe in an afterlife spend their time slaving away at a job they hate? People are secretly religious because otherwise they would go insane.

We "live" in the worst era of humanity ever, nothing can compare to how oppressed we are and how weak we have been made, nothing is our fault we are being fed garbage and made into defect ugly freaks, i really hope this can all end an we can return to a more primitive tribal way of living. There is a war on beauty and everything is being made ugly, It's so hard to see our reality as heaven but i try my best and i hope you guys find a way to see past this veil of hell that has been created to imprison us <3
 
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SASU-KE

SASU-KE

Summoning Mahoraga to end things
Nov 26, 2025
1,023
I think my life could be tolerable by some ppl but I just don't want this anymore. The money is not worth the effort. It will never change my life so I feel like idec abt going to work. Not that I want to grow with the company or anything.

I hate my family. They don't understand me and frankly some of them are so stupid it's disgusts me to converse with them. Their presence is an intrusion in my life. Life is a waste of time and energy, I don't want anything life can offer. I need to admit to myself, I was always meant to die an untimely death. Emotionally crippled by the ppl that raised me.
Yeah, money isn't everything. It's just one facet of life. To tolerate all the bad things, we need to have at least a near equal amount of good things in some other form. When it's mostly just bad,there's no point.
 
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isthisit?

isthisit?

The name's Cedrik
Jun 23, 2023
237
how do you do that when you work 50+ hours a week just to survive, when you come home you are extremely physically and mentally exhausted and can barely think or move. You sleep 56 hours a week. You cook, you clean, you shower, you grocery shop, you do basic things for survival because they NEED done, and how much of your energy and drive do you have left? How much of yourself is left?

And thats if you work a job that is financially sufficient. Imagine all that, but you can NEVER afford a home, a family, to comfortably support animals, to retire, because nonskilled labor on a single income simply doesn't provide those luxuries. Futile. Utterly fucking futile. Why do it then?

I'm personally going to ctb for this reason. I can't believe I used to want to kill myself due to the gaping hole in my soul and not this absolutely soul devouring life. I wish I could even consider the state of my psyche and how to heal, but the practical day to day of working tops the hierarchy always.

I really resonate with what @SASU-KE wrote: "I'm shoveling coal to fuel the furnace in hell," because I work myself to the point of mental and physical exhaustion and fatigue just so I can survive... when I fucking despise every minute of it. I am the one keeping this shit show going with hard labor. And I dont know why. There is clearly some delusional drive for something inaccesible confusing me into slaving like a little worker ant for a corporation all day just so I can one day maybe earn the distinct privilege of simply existing in a shitty box somewhere until I keel over (retirement, in a shitty home).

I feel anxiety and desperation almost always due to this. I do not think using the word slavery is exaggeratory.
Who works 50+ hours? The average workday is 8 hours in most of the western world nowadays. I honestly dont understand how people cant afford life in the US, when compared to my country, which has an average pay of 2K a month and has less buying power compared to the US.
 
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itsgone2

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Sep 21, 2025
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We "live" in the worst era of humanity ever, nothing can compare to how oppressed we are and how weak we have been made, nothing is our fault we are being fed garbage and made into defect ugly freaks, i really hope this can all end an we can return to a more primitive tribal way of living. There is a war on beauty and everything is being made ugly, It's so hard to see our reality as heaven but i try my best and i hope you guys find a way to see past this veil of hell that has been created to imprison us <3
This is so true. Agree 100%
People say we have modern medicine. Many can't afford it. Insurance companies are awful. Doctors do unnecessary procedures just to charge more. I'm a malpractice victim.
Or they say we have all this information at our fingertips. Yes it's amazing. And I was far happier 20 years ago when this shit didn't exist. Lots of bad aspects to it too.
Long lifespan? Ok what if you're poor and don't enjoy it anyway.
We're watching western civilization crumble. Where to then? No new lands to explore. Everywhere is becoming a crime ridden shithole.
Jobs disappearing. AI disrupting all of life. Remember when people pretended to care about global warming? Yeah nevermind we need massive data centers everywhere.
It's been building for a while but it's sudden upon us. This era is the worst. It will soon come for everyone. This generation sees it first.
 
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Echo

Echo

Hell is empty and all the devils are here
Dec 1, 2022
606
My latest delusion has been buying lottery tickets hoping & praying I could potentially get lucky & find my way out of a 9-5.
Literally me right now. I'm so fucking done with being a wage slave. I just wanna buy a cottage and live in peace.
 
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groovygoober

Member
Apr 1, 2026
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I am unemployed can't find a job can't find the will to learn what it takes to do a job , an okay job, part of the reason is that it's all just so shit , genuinely abhorrent stuff .
All corpos just want to squeeze the life out of you through labour so that they can produce slop 2 min delivery apps that they can boast about on linkedin and eventually just replace you with AI .
Don't see any hope in the future , those who are born rich are the only people who seem happy or just be an ingorant insensitive prick , my friends who work hate their jobs , those who don't , hate work and not working , those who have a wealthy backup or connections are just chilling , it's easier if you like the job but only a few people get a job like that .
Hoping to get a govt job , it's low pay and growth but it's real chill .
 
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eeriepuff

just west of weird
May 31, 2026
67
I am unemployed can't find a job can't find the will to learn what it takes to do a job , an okay job, part of the reason is that it's all just so shit , genuinely abhorrent stuff .
All corpos just want to squeeze the life out of you through labour so that they can produce slop 2 min delivery apps that they can boast about on linkedin and eventually just replace you with AI .
Don't see any hope in the future , those who are born rich are the only people who seem happy or just be an ingorant insensitive prick , my friends who work hate their jobs , those who don't , hate work and not working , those who have a wealthy backup or connections are just chilling , it's easier if you like the job but only a few people get a job like that .
Hoping to get a govt job , it's low pay and growth but it's real chill .
I wish you nothing but luck on your journey. ❤️
Literally me right now. I'm so fucking done with being a wage slave. I just wanna buy a cottage and live in peace.
Twin LMFAOOOO. wage slavery is like a fate worse than death.
 
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54321song

54321song

Here we go again
Oct 31, 2024
10
I've had no life outside of work, I feel like a shell who can barely perform the necessary functions to stay alive. Recently got a therapist so I'm hoping to discuss this soon. If my situation doesn't change I'm not planning to stay alive to be taken advantage of by the system.
 
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