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moya117

moya117

A replacement that can easily get replaced
Mar 31, 2023
272
at first, i want to bring my mental pain into a physical one so that i can understand it better, and now its like a release from the mental pain, plus the blood is a bonus cus i actually like them.
fortunately tho i dont cut that deep (i think), yes there is a lot of blood but maybe i just bleeds easier? cus so far from the first time i cut to this time i never go deeper
 
anhedonic_moron

anhedonic_moron

Member
Mar 20, 2025
18
started to cut my inner thigh due to my loneliness and being stuck all day in my home then it evolved into more general self harm like hitting myself with my bare hands, using a pen to stab my arm, exerting my finger in awkward positions, etc etc. sometimes a memory hits my head and my immediate reaction is sh other times it is gradual
 
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ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
443
My pain threshold is quite low, so I've never been able to cut 'properly'. I tend to lash myself with a blunt knife. I used to do it as a teen just to cause welts, but I've recently started doing it again, this time with more force so as to bruise myself.

I mainly do it to force myself to stop thinking about past memories. Like another commenter said, it brings me into the present.
 
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matchalavendercake

matchalavendercake

pokémon devotee forever (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.゚
Feb 23, 2025
37
i hate this body so much lmao, i only sh whenever i feel very overwhelmed like in an anguished or furious way. i actually been sh for several yrs, starting on nov 2020 when mom caught me staying up late and took my device away. that was also 2 months after i almost attempted suicide, so ofc i wasn't feeling any well and felt the urge to sh as i silently cried in agony after getting my device taken

as yrs passed, i did sh every now and then(?), but 2025 was when i started sh more often than before and also became increasingly short-tempered. the only way i sh is by violently scratching the arm tho, i'm too much of a wuss to do anything else. and i also sh the arms only, with the left having the most scars and the right having the least scars
 
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MissWannaLive

MissWannaLive

Member
May 1, 2025
21
For me it's the only way of coping with my emotions that make me feel like suffocating from inside. And yes I have tried everything else before I went to sh, even talking with my parents but even if I open up no one ever understood me and brushed everything off as that it will pass and it's temporary. So I was left with no other way than that to help myself some way.
 
matchalavendercake

matchalavendercake

pokémon devotee forever (*ᴗ͈ˬᴗ͈)ꕤ*.゚
Feb 23, 2025
37
i hate this body so much lmao, i only sh whenever i feel very overwhelmed like in an anguished or furious way. i actually been sh for several yrs, starting on nov 2020 when mom caught me staying up late and took my device away. that was also 2 months after i almost attempted suicide, so ofc i wasn't feeling any well and felt the urge to sh as i silently cried in agony after getting my device taken

as yrs passed, i did sh every now and then(?), but 2025 was when i started sh more often than before and also became increasingly short-tempered. the only way i sh is by violently scratching the arm tho, i'm too much of a wuss to do anything else. and i also sh the arms only, with the left having the most scars and the right having the least scars
i sure hope i don't end up getting caught by anyone with how much i've been sh now… hoping i won't need to wear anything with no sleeves or else it might be over for me. i never wanted to do this for attention but i feel too scared to try anything else
 
Griever

Griever

SN
May 1, 2025
462
I've been hurting myself for years and have simply become addicted to it
 
milkteacrown

milkteacrown

suicidal angel
Feb 16, 2025
128
I don't feel deep emotion. In my worst states, I don't feel any emotion at all. Cutting is painful, and because I don't feel, I've come to enjoy negative emotions; thus, I like pain.
 
xxlavenderxx

xxlavenderxx

Member
Apr 8, 2025
16
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
I started having self harming behaviours way back when i was 11-12, just where I'd bite or scratch myself when anxious (I had no idea I had an anxiety disorder or what self harm was, I never gave it much thought tbh) and it just works to redirect my thoughts to physical pain and allows me to do something violent/destructive without affecting other people . As i got older i found out about cutting and it seems to help so I probably wont ever stop. I dont see why its so taboo tbh, I feel like it's pretty much the same as smoking cigarretes when you're stressed.
 
25jiyuki

25jiyuki

Lost
Feb 25, 2025
32
Self-hatred plays a big role, but it's also the best way I cope with traumatic memories. The pain distracts me from my thoughts. It's only temporary though, so I have to do it often.
 
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maneose

maneose

天天天国地獄国
Sep 10, 2023
142
when i first started i did it because i felt disgusted at my body (specifically my left thigh), developed into something i did when terribly depressed, but now i usually do it to get the 'edge of', which in my mind is when i'm anxious and all i can think of how much stuff i should/shouldn't be doing…. it does feel kinda good now—but it always just hurt at the beginning and my depression era
 
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