Venting parents cant understand why i don’t hv a bf

[yukisopathetic]

when i was in high school they were completely against me having a bf and sent me to an all girls school so ig i didnt rly hv any guy friends anyways. but now that i've started uni my mum is obsessed with me getting a fucking bf. it's all she wants to talk abt like what guys am i hanging out w and do i like any and do any like me. it makes me feel like a complete piece of shit bc she always compares us and tells me abt how many guys were in love w her bc she was so amazing and pretty. then she asks why that doesn't happen to me i don't fucking know maybe bc i don't live in disneyland or maybe i'm chopped idfk. she never talks to me about anything else except when she says she's kicking me out bc i'm 18 now. idk but it makes me feel like a fucking waste of space.

why do ppl even have kids i really don't get it at all. i cant think of a single valid reason to have kids. most people's reasoning is so selfish and i js cant imagine creating a whole person who might hate their existence and it's all my fault. sometimes i hate my parents for having me and then acting like they don't even want me.

also i cant get myself to commit to someone when ik i want to die as soon as possible. not js that but i hate how my mum only asks abt boyfriends when ive dropped pretty clear hints that i like girls. ik she'd fucking crash out if i got a gf. i hate it i wish she'd never had me at all i fucking hate this

 

[hurts2b]

I'm sorry, that's shitty of her :(

It's not her business anyways.