What's bothering you right now?

[Meditation guide]

I can't tell if the anxiety I've had recently for a month or two was the cause of my dread of living, or if the problems I'm facing are the cause of the anxiety. I've started taking a lot of various supplements and since starting on the B12 I've felt a lot calmer and more clear headed. It was a dramatic difference. It's as if the problems are still there, but I'm no longer anxious and panicking.

 

[logan]

What definitely helps:
- Vitamin B complex
- Magnesium
- Omega 3
- Vitamin D

this helps more than many medicines and has no side effects.

 

[newave3]

What's bothering me you ask? Well I'm here to tell you. The outrageous heat and humidity here in NYC. I have 3 air conditioners in my apartment,but I can't keep running them all the time because the electric bill would be sky high. So I use box fans most of the time which just blows hot air on me.
I'm 61 and you think I would be used to the shitty summers here, but I'm not. I can't imagine how people who live in Florida, Georgia or Louisiana tolerate the heat. I could never live in a southern state. If I had the money I would move to Alaska.

 

[Meditation guide]

What's bothering me you ask? Well I'm here to tell you. The outrageous heat and humidity here in NYC. I have 3 air conditioners in my apartment,but I can't keep running them all the time because the electric bill would be sky high. So I use box fans most of the time which just blows hot air on me.
I'm 61 and you think I would be used to the shitty summers here, but I'm not. I can't imagine how people who live in Florida, Georgia or Louisiana tolerate the heat. I could never live in a southern state. If I had the money I would move to Alaska.

Central air conditioning and never going out in July and August. The air cond. quit working one day recently and I felt dizzy and almost ready to lose consciousness from the heat.

 

[western_heart]

I feel like I'm fading away again. I'm no longer talking to friends, and avoiding my family. My SO's grandfather just died and I can barely support her.

I hope I have it in me to make myself lunch.

 

[Fire&Ash]

I'm unemployed. Again. I've been unemployed so many times, I have a longer record of it than employment. I have no idea what I'm doing. Or what I will do

 

[Taki]

The usual perpetual dread and rage about wasting my life.

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm so tired of the bugs in this state. It's a constant war with them.

 

[TheDevilsAngel]

The anxiety, depression, paranoia, the voices and knowing I'm nothing but a worthless piece of meat....

 

[Life sucks]

Experiencing things and playing games alone is way better. Other people and fandoms makes everything worse. So even if there are some interesting things one wants to do, humans just ruin it and the make the experience worse.

 

[Cast_Away]

feels like i'm being followed/someone's always watching me, though i'm probably just being paranoid. my ankle keeps hurting and it doesn't seem to get any better. scared shitless of any dogs i see outside because of recent accident when i heard(not even seen just heard) a kid almost got torn by a dog. i'll never forget his screams, damn..

 

[croctears]

Just went to the local drive thru and saw a guy throwing trash all over the ground. I truly hate humanity

 

[logan]

No more chance of things changing for the better

 

[Meditation guide]

I want to move to a state that allows assisted suicide but have no idea how I can possibly do it. There are too many roadblocks.

 

[Apathy79]

There are too many roadblocks.

Try the train.

 

[Celerity]

I want to move to a state that allows assisted suicide but have no idea how I can possibly do it. There are too many roadblocks.

I don't think any here in the US allow assisted suicide for mental illness. Do you have a terminal illness that will kill you within 6 months?

 

[Meditation guide]

I don't think any here in the US allow assisted suicide for mental illness. Do you have a terminal illness that will kill you within 6 months?

No but I want to have the option if I ever need it.

 

[Celerity]

No but I want to have the option if I ever need it.

Oregon. I heard NY is working on a law. Canada has a pretty generous one from what I've heard.

 

[that_guy2611]

Honestly I just feel bad because I'm lonely as hell but can't socialize and also horny as fuck

 

[Meditation guide]

My friend said to me every boyfriend I've had has gone crazy. The implication is that somehow I drove them crazy. Is that even possible? Someone can literally make someone else go crazy? I realized he's right, they did all go crazy after a while.

 

[Celerity]

My friend said to me every boyfriend I've had has gone crazy. The implication is that somehow I drove them crazy. Is that even possible? Someone can literally make someone else go crazy? I realized he's right, they did all go crazy after a while.

Maybe it's who you're attracted to. If your friend was trying to imply that you drove them crazy, it's a shitty thing to do to a friend. That said, no one can stand me. No one will give me a chance. If they did, I'd probably have similar results.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I just don't have anyone to look to and to turn to about my self.
I just feel so lost, disconnected, rejected, isolated, bored. I cannot do this anymore for another year for debt obligations. I can only do one more month until the end of august. I am in so much pain, misery, I cannot connect and socialize for years. Why do I have to be contained in this misery, I'm stressed. I'm unattractive, I'm traumatized because of something out of my control acne, and verbally hurt by others. I feel so awful I'm going to ruin my parents and younger siblings I hope they learn it wasn't their fault that I cannot tolerate this emotonal
Pain. I have knowone to turn to. It's just so lonely and painful not having anyone to talk to about these things. All these regrets and pains rushing back. I just want to be done. I hope these last few weeks come on. 5 more weeks. I cannot tolerate this anymore, any opportunity I had to make Néw friends I ruin it.

 

[Celerity]

I just don't have anyone to look to and to turn to about my self.
I just feel so lost, disconnected, rejected, isolated, bored. I cannot do this anymore for another year for debt obligations. I can only do one more month until the end of august. I am in so much pain, misery, I cannot connect and socialize for years. Why do I have to be contained in this misery, I'm stressed. I'm unattractive, I'm traumatized because of something out of my control acne, and verbally hurt by others. I feel so awful I'm going to ruin my parents and younger siblings I hope they learn it wasn't their fault that I cannot tolerate this emotonal
Pain. I have knowone to turn to. It's just so lonely and painful not having anyone to talk to about these things. All these regrets and pains rushing back. I just want to be done. I hope these last few weeks come on. 5 more weeks. I cannot tolerate this anymore, any opportunity I had to make Néw friends I ruin it.

I'm in the same boat. The only thing I have anymore is anger. I wish I were some big, burly dude who could work a job like truck driving alone. All I can do is push aside my desire for company. Videogames are a decent distraction. Booze is an inconsistent lover. Sometimes it numbs the pain. Sometimes it just makes me cry.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

I'm in the same boat. The only thing I have anymore is anger. I wish I were some big, burly dude who could work a job like truck driving alone. All I can do is push aside my desire for company. Videogames are a decent distraction. Booze is an inconsistent lover. Sometimes it numbs the pain. Sometimes it just makes me cry.

I'm sorry you're experiencing that. Yeah it's so painful seeing how others are so sociable and can interact. I may have to get a ps4 as a mild distraction after work just for the temporary. I can't cope with this much longer years of isolation begin to do things to you.

 

[Meditation guide]

I hate it when I hear the phrase "give me a chance". What does that even mean? I am not interviewing job applicants and putting them on probationary status to see what they can do. Someone said that to me after taking me out to dinner and was trying to get me to go to his place afterwards. I refused. I didn't want to see him again. The chance I gave him was the dinner.

 

[Celerity]

I'm sorry you're experiencing that. Yeah it's so painful seeing how others are so sociable and can interact. I may have to get a ps4 as a mild distraction after work just for the temporary. I can't cope with this much longer years of isolation begin to do things to you.

Yeah, I don't know how much longer I can do this either. I keep hoping against hope that I don't wake up. I'm an atheist but on the very slim chance there is a merciful god, I pray almost daily to die a quick death. But who am I kidding? You look around and it takes no time at all to see suffering much worse than ours. What always sticks out in my mind is a video I saw of a worm eating a starving child's eyes while the child was still alive. I remember it wriggling in the sunlight. What kind of god could any of us hope to count on? If He exists, he's not merciful.

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Yeah, I don't know how much longer I can do this either. I keep hoping against hope that I don't wake up. I'm an atheist but on the very slim chance there is a merciful god, I pray almost daily to die a quick death. But who am I kidding? You look around and it takes no time at all to see suffering much worse than ours. What always sticks out in my mind is a video I saw of a worm eating a starving child's eyes while the child was still alive. I remember it wriggling in the sunlight. What kind of god could any of us hope to count on? If He exists, he's not merciful.

Same here, personal reasons aside now that I know there is no turning back. Yeah that's pretty scary, if there is a god or gods I guarantee it wouldn't care what happens on this planet.

 

[Toonloon]

A trick fucking with me right now so that's my issue right now. N than the never ending feeling of loneliness and being unwanted.

 

[Meditation guide]

Depressing people who have a way of phrasing everything in the most miserable way possible. I know depressives who are funny all the time.

 

[Celerity]

Depressing people who have a way of phrasing everything in the most miserable way possible. I know depressives who are funny all the time.

Well, this feels like an attack. I hate forced positivity much more.