What's bothering you right now?

[motel rooms]

Well, this feels like an attack. I hate forced positivity much more.

I often feel like a bad person because certain members bore me. I know that people have all kinds of illnesses/conditions & that their suffering is very real, but I simply can't stand it when someone repeats the same 3-5 sentences over & over again. I could never be a therapist.

Depressing people who have a way of phrasing everything in the most miserable way possible. I know depressives who are funny all the time.

 

[Amumu]

My heachaches

 

[Celerity]

I often feel like a bad person because certain members bore me. I know that people have all kinds of illnesses/conditions & that their suffering is very real, but I simply can't stand it when someone repeats the same 3-5 sentences over & over again. I could never be a therapist.

Hm. Well, my suffering is pretty boring. I'm not surprised because I bore people even at my best.

 

[motel rooms]

Hm. Well, my suffering is pretty boring. I'm not surprised because I bore people even at my best.

As if my suffering isn't boring... That's why I almost never talk about it. And you know very well that you don't repeat the same couple of sentences in each post

 

[Celerity]

As if my suffering isn't boring... That's why I almost never talk about it. And you know very well that you don't repeat the same couple of sentences in each post

I try not to. If I'm gonna suffer, I may as well make it a little interesting and shake it up as much as possible. I now have a feeling I know who you might be referencing, lol.

 

[Celerity]

I've read people saying "I want to die." for hours in chat. Over and over with very little variation.

Edgy teens, maybe? I feel like I would have been a bit like that in my teens.

 

[motel rooms]

Oh my... I suddenly find his mouth very attractive

 

[Celerity]

I've read people saying "I want to die." for hours in chat. Over and over with very little variation. But that wasn't what I was talking about. I also have noticed people who are more gifted with their communication skills who paint such a grim miserable picture with every post that I can't help but feel like immediately grabbing my SN and swallowing the whole bottle of it without bothering to mix it with water.

I mean, what exactly did you expect on a suicide forum?

 

[Kattt]

MRI next week. Just how fucked is my brain?
My dad's coming and I been up smoking meth for 3 days
My dad's coming and I been up smoking meth for 3 days

 

[Kattt]

MRI next week. Just how fucked is my brain?
My dad's coming and I been up smoking meth for 3 days
My dad's coming and I been up smoking meth for 3 days

Definitely fucked
More meth just arrived
More meth just arrived

 

[Amumu]

Crying like hell

 

[Meditation guide]

Crying like hell

I wish I could help.

 

[S like suicide]

Deep lonliness

 

[Celerity]

I hate my job. I'm not meant for this world. I think I need to find a job where I don't deal with anybody. As lonely and boring as that sounds, it's for the best. No one can stand me.

 

[hʚll]

i don't know what to do. family is forcing me to go with them on holiday and if i say no, they will get suspicious and they would never let me stay alone at home not even for one night. the place outside that i chose to ctb is impossible to reach if i go to holiday with them. what could i do to avoid it? i don't want to force things too much and say no, because they know i wish to die, can't let them know my intention. i need to find a good excuse sigh

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

Someone who left me because he thinked that I love someone else... Well now I'm sad, he don't talk to me and I'm going to die with this pain. He don't listen what I say and I never can fix things. He is so cold and mean to me and still I want him back.

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Horrible photos of people I hate streaming on the computer clock next to laptop.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

Out of control anxiety for (mostly) no reason. It also gets worse when I encounter rude or aggressive people.

 

[NumbItAll]

Life is unbelievably tedious, boring garbage. Just personal maintenance alone is a couple hours every day for hygiene, eating, bathroom breaks, etc. Then if you have a job it's another 8 hours of repetitive tasks, or if you're a worthless sack of shit like me you just spend that time doing nothing instead. Throw in a steady barrage of chores and errands and you've got the most pointless, miserable experience possible. Who ever thought this was a good idea?

 

[Journeytoletgo]

Regrets and mistakes, I feel gross after these experiences

 

[Kattt]

The summer has finally arrived in the UK. The sun...aka,the skyfire, is blazing.
I take methotrexate which means you literally have to stay in the house with blackout curtains shut. I still have scars from burn I got 8 years ago.
Even factor 50, gives you a maximum of 10 minutes. It feels like a blowtorch attack.
I just bought a iv protective parasol. It has to come from India. I'm so excited that I may get to go out.
I can't even get to the shop to buy some sorbet. I like on the bed all day sweating profusely.
I have skin cancer too. And arthritis. I"m immunosuppressed,so all the crazy people who were told by our psychopathic government, that it's all over, can infect me and I have zero chance of survival. I am scared of suffocation.
That's all. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk

 

[whywere]

Chronic nerve damage pain. Also a bad case of depression. Walter

 

[rotten]

Depression and I'm kinda hungry.

 

[Kattt]

The summer has finally arrived in the UK. The sun, aka the skyfire, is blazing. I literally have to sit in the house with blackout curtains shut. It feels like a blowtorch attack. Even factor 50 gives a maximum of 10 minutes.
I have skin cancer and arthritis.
But all the crazy people who believe our psychopathic government, have been told it's all over. If I get infected,I have zero chance of survival. Even worse,I can then wind up, being responsible for other people dying .
I brought a beautiful UV protective parasol. It has to come from India. So it's a bit of a wait. It's so bloody miserable and I can't get to the shop to buy some sorbet. So I simply lie here, sweating profusely. That's all. Thanks for coming to my Ted talk. x

 

[Kattt]

Chronic nerve damage pain. Also a bad case of depression. Walter

Are you getting medication?

 

[whywere]

Are you getting medication?

HI! Yes, I have been on hydromorphone for a long time for the chronic pain and celexa for depression. Sending you lots of love and hugs as far as your skin cancer and arthritis goes. So, so sorry to hear about it and I hope you get better. I had gall bladder cancer back in 2014. Walter

 

[Meditation guide]

praying that people get the help they need

 

[lofticries]

Afraid to eat atm. Having acid reflux/gerd symptoms and I don't even know why. All I know is that yesterday I wasn't even able to take a daily vitamin because it triggered a lot of belching and the feeling of a marble being stuck in my throat. It ranged from uncomfortable to painful. This has been going on for 2 weeks and I'm afraid I'll get attacks like this for life. Going to hospital to see what's up. Thought it was simply anxiety but it seems to be more. Can hold food down so long as its plain and soft. On nexium atm which seems to have calmed the beast for now. Stomach still has a burning feeling but i'll take that any day before problems even swallowing water.

 

[NoName9321]

This will sound pretty stupid for you guys but I joined this forum a few days ago and I can't for the life of me figure out what cbt stands for.
Can anyone enlighten me?

 

[lofticries]

This will sound pretty stupid for you guys but I joined this forum a few days ago and I can't for the life of me figure out what cbt stands for.
Can anyone enlighten me?

catch the bus=suicide
n means nembutal and sn means Sodium nitrite btw.