What's bothering you right now?

[Insomniac]

didn't he message you recently?

he did.. he also later invited me and insisted on me being present the day of the wedding... I'm really going to kill myself this time.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Have just got back from the vet's and my Best Friend 'Maximus' is now at rest! He went quietly and peacefully and is now laid in his bed until the cremation company come to collect him tmrw! I feel lost and Numb

A Sincere Heartfelt Thank You to those who responded to my post, You've helped me get through a difficult time,all though l still haven't worked out what is a appropriate amount of time to grieve for a Dog! I get Max's ashes returned home next Saturday! Again Thank You

 

[lili]

I long for a sense of community and connection with people. But every time I make an effort to do this I come off as manic or too crazy, and feel ridiculous after. People are always laughing and sharing stories of all the stupidities i do. So I feel I am the problem inherently and it's hard to find a way to function like this.

Ive always found it hard to fit into this monogamous world, I happen to always cheat or stir some drama, with multiple people.
I feel that I am this agent of chaos, and I don't mean to be. I try so hard to stop it but somehow things always escalate and I'm tired of it all.

 

[hungry_ghost]

Having doubts about the "church", and honestly just being so devoid of zeal that I don't even want to go liturgy at all.

It's like I can't be myself around them. I cuss, I'm prone to being brash, having inappropriate or dark humor, and being incredibly blunt and cynical.

When I'm there, I have to put on this pathologically polite persona that makes me feel like a fucking psychopath, lol.

 

[Life sucks]

I tried playing and doing things and my mind is seriously deteriorating and very terrible performance

 

[Life_and_Death]

Everyone hates me. No one's said it, they just don't talk to me.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

My dog died, my boyfriend makes me feel like a failure, a lifetime of failure and abuse and pain. Physical health failing, finances ruined, failing out of school, no job, no prospects, no friends.

@quothTheRaven9, My dog just died too, You have a friend here

 

[LONE WOLF.]

I think I'm losing the sense of living, it feels like a dead body forced to be alive

I too feel like a Reanimated corpse being forced to go through the motions of living against my will!

 

[symphony]

Anhedonia. I can't bring myself to do the one productive thing I need to do today, and even then, I can't manage to successfully distract myself from the pain. Nothing's sticking.

 

[allesistgut]

i just want to ctb already.

 

[Life sucks]

It's very painful and no method. This human body is so wrong

 

[Tristan]

that i have a new day to endure.

 

[ineedtoctb]

I'm gonna have to go through the same routine. And still no materials to ctb

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

My final semester of college classes.

 

[ImsooDone1N]

I've don't even know how to describe this. But I'm the worst I've ever been in my life. I have know one. The amount of time I spend on the forum is generally proportional to my emotional state. Been "active" on the forum more in the past few months than in a while.
I thought I was suffering before, but this is a new level. I really don't know if I'll make it another 30days. I would give anything to know what's wrong with me. Im isolating more & I'm just so apathetic. I'm also pathetic.

 

[ineedtoctb]

I've don't even know how to describe this. But I'm the worst I've ever been in my life. I have know one. The amount of time I spend on the forum is generally proportional to my emotional state. Been "active" on the forum more in the past few months than in a while.
I thought I was suffering before, but this is a new level. I really don't know if I'll make it another 30days. I would give anything to know what's wrong with me. Im isolating more & I'm just so apathetic. I'm also pathetic.

I feel the same way

 

[Life sucks]

Feeling tired all the time

 

[silent staring void]

I'm still so bitter and resentful over things that happened two and a half years ago everyday GRRRR how do I chill?

 

[Ashu]

My marriage is again on the verge of collapse, but unfortunately it's not going to collapse, now or ever.

 

[BrokenLine]

Life, and the fact I need to try out some stuff i can only do late at night and by then I'll be to tired to try shit. Then rinse and repeat tomorrow.

 

[Life sucks]

Struggling to type my final post

 

[Chiisai]

I am now broke after giving everything to my family. I have spent all what little I have left for me on "last meals" yet I still havent gained back my courage to CTB because I no longer want to feel more pain from all the attempts I did. I am just hoping psychogenic death gets me before I run out of time.

 

[DunnoWhyButYeah]

I almost died 3 years ago. I'm still here, why?

 

[Crazy4u]

I can't find a solution to my only obstacle. I want to ctb it is enough

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Have just got back from the vet's and my Best Friend 'Maximus' is now at rest! He went quietly and peacefully and is now laid in his bed until the cremation company come to collect him tmrw! I feel lost and Numb

Thursday afternoon at 2pm my Dog's ashes were returned home to me in a Scattertube where he now rests beside his predecessor in a display cabinet until my time comes and we're released at the same time to go over the bridge together

 

[apoptosis]

knowing that every day is only more work, more responsibilities, more boredom, more stress, more reasons to be depressed.

 

[Deleted member 8975]

My existence.

 

[Unicornsrnot4dislife]

It's my mums birthday today (she died) and I'm in emotional and mental pain. I'm feeling impulsive and just want to drink all the pain away

 

[ImsooDone1N]

Seriously?. That I'm not physically dead. I'm just existing in the worse possible way. I've to change this; this….I- can not continue.

 

[NSA]

So many goddamn things.