What's bothering you right now?

[Hydrangea]

i have so much work i need to do, i need to clean my room, i need to take a shower, i need to wash my hair, i need to fill out some forms, i need to go to class, i need to eat healthier, i need to brush my teeth, i need to go and buy food and necessities, i need to call my parents, i need to do the coursework.

all i want to do is sleep, or play the guitar while staring at the ceiling.

 

[Foresight]

My employer didn't train me and kicked me out completely on my own on day 3 with barely any managerial oversight. I cried my eyes out on the morning of my first day. I couldn't handle the stress. I know I'll learn as I go but it's the facade of being a trained employer when they invested nothing in me.

Most companies, including their top competitor, give 2 weeks training. That should be the minimum for this work. I feel awful.

 

[LONE WOLF.]

Have just got back from the vet's and my Best Friend 'Maximus' is now at rest! He went quietly and peacefully and is now laid in his bed until the cremation company come to collect him tmrw! I feel lost and Numb

 

[Interloper]

Why is this brain willing to take so much mental battering, what for? Why does it have to be so resilient? Somebody please come shoot me.

 

[Tortured_empath]

Sudden weight of burdens.

 

[Dr.Precocious]

The feeling when you are looking at art everyone is saying is great, but you're like; some jackass just tossed their watered-down shit on a canvas... and you can smell it.

 

[ShadowsFall]

I have known this person for about 5 years who is currently having financial and housing difficulties. As much as I would like to help them out, it is beyond my current financial capabilities to do anything atm. I thought about allowing them to move in with me, if I was able to find a place near their current location. However, I am having doubts about that as well due to previous experiences with them.

 

[Life sucks]

I can't think properly and have difficulties because of brain damage

 

[ikadasui]

Just how miserable I really am. I have failed in pretty much every regard at life and frankly I just have disdain for being born, like, why? What was the point of any of this

 

[genericuser]

I want to CTB but I'm scared I won't be able to succeed with SI kicking in.

 

[AnestheticVoid]

That I have a rope set up and ready. I've practiced the feeling of hanging a few times. This morning I did it before work. Slipped my head in tightened on my upper neck. Stepped off the ladder onto my toes. Felt the head rush, the sense of auditory distortion. It's uncomfortable but still able to breathe. Stayed like that for a couple minutes. All I needed to do was drop my heels and I know I would have went unconscious quickly. Got scared. Fuck my life.

 

[Life sucks]

I think I'm losing the sense of living, it feels like a dead body forced to be alive

 

[ShadowsFall]

Really missing a certain individual right now. Haven't seen them physically since December of 2020.

 

[Life sucks]

I want to play elden ring but brain and body are deteriorating

 

[wanttheend]

Well, the Florida trip was legit, but I'm sure he was cruising Grindr while he was there. Maybe that's where it started, or maybe it's been going on for a while. He's done this before, but I thought it stopped. It just sucks because he's one of the two major reasons I'm sticking around. Makes me wonder if he really would be happier if I just offed myself.

Hi, florida here also

 

[GrumpyFrog]

I'm feeling all the shitty things at the same time.
Keeping up morale is like mass toxic positivity that you aren't allowed to break. I am so irrationally angry at people at work today. We're discussing absolutely stupid normal things all day, as if nothing is happening. There is fucking Apocalypse unfolding right outside our windows, I went to buy pet food and a police officer gave me a leaflet that instructs you on what to do if you're kidnapped and tortured, and we're sitting on our asses discussing that Microsoft is unhappy about the deadlines. Who the fuck cares anymore? Everybody seems to act like they just had a really bad dream and they are waiting to wake up aaany minute now. I get it, we can't change it. But do we have to pretend this isn't happening?

 

[orange]

That I'm trapped in my car by the pouring rain bc I didn't bring an umbrella lmfao

 

[Life sucks]

The everyday needs like eating, it's a burden

 

[S like suicide]

Me still breathing,i want end it with all myself...being trapped and not be even able to suicide is awful,really awful

 

[Burned out]

Hit the 10 year milestone for chronic pain.
Edit
Just found out I have flat back syndrome AND scolisos, which can cause more chronic pain, and also fatty liver, which is a risk for cancer and organ failure and has to be monitored.

 

[quothTheRaven9]

My dog died, my boyfriend makes me feel like a failure, a lifetime of failure and abuse and pain. Physical health failing, finances ruined, failing out of school, no job, no prospects, no friends.

 

[ameliacecelia]

I have 5 people I want to say goodbye to. But writing that many suicide notes is too laborious in my condition. I also feel bad leaving a single note for my mother with instructions on who else to distribute it to lol

 

[Life sucks]

It's really hard to post, read, write or do anything.

 

[Life sucks]

Not knowing what to do anymore

 

[allesistgut]

i wish i'd have the energy to actually do certain things that i keep telling myself i'll do, and not just keep putting them off.

 

[Foresight]

i wish i'd have the energy to actually do certain things that i keep telling myself i'll do, and not just keep putting them off.

That's on my mind every day too.

 

[Euthanasia]

I can't do anything alone, Don't ask for help, when you tell them to solve it on their own...

 

[ShadowsFall]

Nausea and heartburn.

 

[Insomniac]

upcoming wedding of the love of my life.

 

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upcoming wedding of the love of my life.

didn't he message you recently?