Polka
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- Oct 6, 2019
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Mine was the best thing that ever happened to me but once I became depressed, contributed to destroying the relationship and found myself alone it just wasn't worth it. Everyone quotes "it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" but I just feel like my moment was lost, I feel like it was all a facade...How can love be destroyed to the point of abandonment and possibly cheating. I just can't conceive the idea of being in a relationship anymore. I can't trust that the good moments are even real and even if they were no one deserves my problems.Go back 12 years and steer clear of my ex. She was the worst thing to happen to me bar none
Peace/hugs
"it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all"
i'd be deliriously happy to have just 1 simple pill and know i just have to pop it in my mouth to be gone in an instant .that really is true
In the sense of experiencing it yes, in the moment it was pure bliss but years later, an equal amount of time that I was with this girl, it's just caused me nothing but trauma, self loathing and regret, on top of the trauma, self loathing and regret I already had. I don't think I can ever get over that period in my life, I feel like my life concluded the day she stop replying back to me or maybe it was the day she said she had a crush on her current lover or maybe it was the day I broke down and told her my personal issues, idk... I just know that words mean nothing over time, promises mean nothing, trust is bound to be broken on both sidesthat really is true
i was just gonna say- a timemachine!!The ability to time travel backwards.
bloody hell-just humble needs then ! ha ;) lol.- not having to work a job i dont like, being able to do what i enjoy doing all day everyday without having to worry about making money
- owning a super modern (almost futuristic) home that i have all to myself (see pic below for an idea of my dream home)
- unlimited money
- a beautiful woman to spend life with me
- being in the best physical shape
- guarantee from some heavenly power that i'll never get sick or get seriously injured in some accident
- having a nembutal pill at my disposal. even if i never use it i just want to have the option
if i have all that then i'll be happy. but i still dont want to live till im like 80-90 and be weak and old. i still want to leave this world on my own terms, maybe i'll swallow the nembutal pill when im around 50-55, and i'll make a specific date many years ahead of time, and when the date comes i'll have a big goodbye ceremony and go out peacefully.
Here are some ideas of my dream home:
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My Dream Woman:
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if somehow there is a heavenly afterlife and you can create anything you want then these are all things i will manifest after i leave this world
Aye, I saw your dream girl at the liquor store the other day, no lie- not having to work a job i dont like, being able to do what i enjoy doing all day everyday without having to worry about making money
- owning a super modern (almost futuristic) home that i have all to myself (see pic below for an idea of my dream home)
- unlimited money
- a beautiful woman to spend life with me
- being in the best physical shape
- guarantee from some heavenly power that i'll never get sick or get seriously injured in some accident
- having a nembutal pill at my disposal. even if i never use it i just want to have the option
if i have all that then i'll be happy. but i still dont want to live till im like 80-90 and be weak and old. i still want to leave this world on my own terms, maybe i'll swallow the nembutal pill when im around 50-55, and i'll make a specific date many years ahead of time, and when the date comes i'll have a big goodbye ceremony and go out peacefully.
Here are some ideas of my dream home:
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My Dream Woman:
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if somehow there is a heavenly afterlife and you can create anything you want then these are all things i will manifest after i leave this world
Money, a time machine, infinite supply of weed
Mind if I dm you something that helped me out with a grow? Dunno about the rules of talking about stuff like that lolNeed $$$$$$$$$$. Need my own land for my outdoor grow. Getting money my religion.
Please!Mind if I dm you something that helped me out with a grow? Dunno about the rules of talking about stuff like that lol
I really hate that quote too. I'd rather have never loved at all than feel all the hurt and pain associated with all that heartbreak. Yeah, everything and all the memories seems and feels like a lie after it all comes to an end. All those once "happy memories" turn upside down into sad, somber ones.Mine was the best thing that ever happened to me but once I became depressed, contributed to destroying the relationship and found myself alone it just wasn't worth it. Everyone quotes "it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" but I just feel like my moment was lost, I feel like it was all a facade...How can love be destroyed to the point of abandonment and possibly cheating. I just can't conceive the idea of being in a relationship anymore. I can't trust that the good moments are even real and even if they were no one deserves my problems.
It hurts even more knowing she instantly fell for someone else and has moved in with him, I've been suffering alone for years and she's probably been happier than ever...They could buy a house, get married or have a kid at any moment and I'm still just stuck with our empty memories. I don't even care that she moved on, I just thought we had an unbreakable friendship but I was replaced. All my plans with my high school sweetheart erased by a guy 7 years older than me, a guy she met while serving at a job that I encouraged her to get, at a place where we had one of our first dates. It seems like everything in my life just dominos backwards and collides into wreck. At this point I accept it, it can only get so badI really hate that quote too. I'd rather have never loved at all than feel all the hurt and pain associated with all that heartbreak. Yeah, everything and all the memories seems and feels like a lie after it all comes to an end. All those once "happy memories" turn upside down into sad, somber ones.
Sorry for this ramble, I feel like I've been going crazy lately...It hurts even more knowing she instantly fell for someone else and has moved in with him, I've been suffering alone for years and she's probably been happier than ever...They could buy a house, get married or have a kid at any moment and I'm still just stuck with our empty memories. I don't even care that she moved on, I just thought we had an unbreakable friendship but I was replaced. All my plans with my high school sweetheart erased by a guy 7 years older than me, a guy she met while serving at a job that I encouraged her to get, at a place where we had one of our first dates. It seems like everything in my life just dominos backwards and collides into wreck. At this point I accept it, it can only get so bad