Polka

Polka

Student
Oct 6, 2019
135
Cure for depression.
 
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Kodama

Kodama

Experienced
Oct 11, 2019
209
Be certain to have enough Money for the next 2 years... Pathetic
 
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CursedForDisaster

Student
Apr 1, 2019
187
Go back 12 years and steer clear of my ex. She was the worst thing to happen to me bar none
Peace/hugs
Mine was the best thing that ever happened to me but once I became depressed, contributed to destroying the relationship and found myself alone it just wasn't worth it. Everyone quotes "it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" but I just feel like my moment was lost, I feel like it was all a facade...How can love be destroyed to the point of abandonment and possibly cheating. I just can't conceive the idea of being in a relationship anymore. I can't trust that the good moments are even real and even if they were no one deserves my problems.
 
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angie

angie

need to exit
May 25, 2018
480
that really is true
i'd be deliriously happy to have just 1 simple pill and know i just have to pop it in my mouth to be gone in an instant .
that's the downfall to the methods we have we are not 100% sure they will work .
so a pill that is 100% guaranteed and instant would make me happy knowing i'd definitely be gone ! what s lovely thought .
 
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CursedForDisaster

Student
Apr 1, 2019
187
that really is true
In the sense of experiencing it yes, in the moment it was pure bliss but years later, an equal amount of time that I was with this girl, it's just caused me nothing but trauma, self loathing and regret, on top of the trauma, self loathing and regret I already had. I don't think I can ever get over that period in my life, I feel like my life concluded the day she stop replying back to me or maybe it was the day she said she had a crush on her current lover or maybe it was the day I broke down and told her my personal issues, idk... I just know that words mean nothing over time, promises mean nothing, trust is bound to be broken on both sides
 
Polka

Polka

Student
Oct 6, 2019
135
I get it.

It's just about the hardest thing to experience. Thanks for sharing. It's killing me as well.
 
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Mokocchi

Mokocchi

Going Back to Paradise
Sep 20, 2019
7
Go back in time and stop my mom and dad from shagging each other.

If we're talking about being alive, being born not ugly or an aspie with a functional family unit would do it. More specifics would be things like friends and relationships, things I never got to taste despite numerous efforts, but I think that by just changing my genes and my family I would end up with those by default and be happy, no more pain.

But since that will never happen I will kill myself and leave it at that.
 
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Kiwi

Member
Aug 29, 2019
59
In terms of time travel I only need a year and a half or so, maybe two with the knowledge I now have.... still impossible though.

Failing that;

Someone to love me and my two boys no matter what. A life long love for us all. Someone who can weather the highs and the lows and build a life with us.

Moneywise some more would definitely help however money can be made.

Physically I'd like to have my appearance back (a good 9 months of depression neglect has kind of ruined any good looks I had), or at least be attractive to the person who cares for me no matter what.
 
DoNotLet2

DoNotLet2

Wizard
Oct 14, 2019
684
To be "normal" and/or have a few friends that care about me.
 
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Castles

Castles

Member
Oct 7, 2019
61
Having my stolen parental rights back for my daughter. Seeing her on a regular schedule.

And more money so I'm not behind on most things anymore and can actually do things I want to like travel.
 
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detached

Student
Mar 31, 2019
105
The only thing I can come up with is to die.
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
No more mental illness or brain fog
 
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Gamja

it hurts
Aug 27, 2019
43
I want to have a happy afterlife, but eh, that doesn't exist.
*meant next life
 
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MeltingHeart

MeltingHeart

Visionary
Sep 9, 2019
2,151
The ability to time travel backwards.
i was just gonna say- a timemachine!!
- not having to work a job i dont like, being able to do what i enjoy doing all day everyday without having to worry about making money
- owning a super modern (almost futuristic) home that i have all to myself (see pic below for an idea of my dream home)
- unlimited money
- a beautiful woman to spend life with me
- being in the best physical shape
- guarantee from some heavenly power that i'll never get sick or get seriously injured in some accident
- having a nembutal pill at my disposal. even if i never use it i just want to have the option

if i have all that then i'll be happy. but i still dont want to live till im like 80-90 and be weak and old. i still want to leave this world on my own terms, maybe i'll swallow the nembutal pill when im around 50-55, and i'll make a specific date many years ahead of time, and when the date comes i'll have a big goodbye ceremony and go out peacefully.

Here are some ideas of my dream home:

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if somehow there is a heavenly afterlife and you can create anything you want then these are all things i will manifest after i leave this world
bloody hell-just humble needs then ! ha ;) lol.
 
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Sdj

Sdj

In this life like weeds, you're a rock to me
Aug 1, 2019
43
cure for whats wrong with me, or at least a diagnosis
 
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namelessX8

Student
Feb 22, 2019
111
Reincarnation as a person of the opposite gender and of different ethnicity.
 
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Boonks

Boonks

Lowlife
Mar 2, 2019
236
- not having to work a job i dont like, being able to do what i enjoy doing all day everyday without having to worry about making money
- owning a super modern (almost futuristic) home that i have all to myself (see pic below for an idea of my dream home)
- unlimited money
- a beautiful woman to spend life with me
- being in the best physical shape
- guarantee from some heavenly power that i'll never get sick or get seriously injured in some accident
- having a nembutal pill at my disposal. even if i never use it i just want to have the option

if i have all that then i'll be happy. but i still dont want to live till im like 80-90 and be weak and old. i still want to leave this world on my own terms, maybe i'll swallow the nembutal pill when im around 50-55, and i'll make a specific date many years ahead of time, and when the date comes i'll have a big goodbye ceremony and go out peacefully.

Here are some ideas of my dream home:

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My Dream Woman:

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if somehow there is a heavenly afterlife and you can create anything you want then these are all things i will manifest after i leave this world
Aye, I saw your dream girl at the liquor store the other day, no lie
 
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Lokd26

Lokd26

Member
Oct 20, 2019
27
For me... bring back my son and my wife...
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
Money, a time machine, infinite supply of weed
 
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Moon Flower

I'll soon be sleeping sound
Oct 14, 2019
536
Need $$$$$$$$$$. Need my own land for my outdoor grow. Getting money my religion.
Mind if I dm you something that helped me out with a grow? Dunno about the rules of talking about stuff like that lol
 
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OreoWellington

OreoWellington

Ready To Die
Sep 28, 2019
123
Mine was the best thing that ever happened to me but once I became depressed, contributed to destroying the relationship and found myself alone it just wasn't worth it. Everyone quotes "it's better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all" but I just feel like my moment was lost, I feel like it was all a facade...How can love be destroyed to the point of abandonment and possibly cheating. I just can't conceive the idea of being in a relationship anymore. I can't trust that the good moments are even real and even if they were no one deserves my problems.
I really hate that quote too. I'd rather have never loved at all than feel all the hurt and pain associated with all that heartbreak. Yeah, everything and all the memories seems and feels like a lie after it all comes to an end. All those once "happy memories" turn upside down into sad, somber ones.
 
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khw777

khw777

Just trying to catch a bus!
Oct 18, 2019
235
Go back in time when I was healthy and happy. When I had no health problems. Could sleep and feel refreshed and alive the next day. And no Depression!
 
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CursedForDisaster

Student
Apr 1, 2019
187
I really hate that quote too. I'd rather have never loved at all than feel all the hurt and pain associated with all that heartbreak. Yeah, everything and all the memories seems and feels like a lie after it all comes to an end. All those once "happy memories" turn upside down into sad, somber ones.
It hurts even more knowing she instantly fell for someone else and has moved in with him, I've been suffering alone for years and she's probably been happier than ever...They could buy a house, get married or have a kid at any moment and I'm still just stuck with our empty memories. I don't even care that she moved on, I just thought we had an unbreakable friendship but I was replaced. All my plans with my high school sweetheart erased by a guy 7 years older than me, a guy she met while serving at a job that I encouraged her to get, at a place where we had one of our first dates. It seems like everything in my life just dominos backwards and collides into wreck. At this point I accept it, it can only get so bad
It hurts even more knowing she instantly fell for someone else and has moved in with him, I've been suffering alone for years and she's probably been happier than ever...They could buy a house, get married or have a kid at any moment and I'm still just stuck with our empty memories. I don't even care that she moved on, I just thought we had an unbreakable friendship but I was replaced. All my plans with my high school sweetheart erased by a guy 7 years older than me, a guy she met while serving at a job that I encouraged her to get, at a place where we had one of our first dates. It seems like everything in my life just dominos backwards and collides into wreck. At this point I accept it, it can only get so bad
Sorry for this ramble, I feel like I've been going crazy lately...
 
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tehdisturbedone

tehdisturbedone

Innately yearning for eternal sleep
Oct 24, 2019
42
I thought owning a dog would make me happy, it did but it doesn't necessarily fill that void. Now I've thought having a kid would do it, but it didn't seem to do it for my cousin. The last time I can remember being genuinely happy about the future was the day I went and picked up 7 clones. I had to get rid of them nto too long after but I was still able to grow them out but it just isn't and wasn't the same. This was the one thing in my 25 years on this earth that really actually brought me substantially happiness as lame as growing weed sounds, it just did it for me.
 
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Hadenuf

Student
Aug 3, 2019
160
My tinnitus to go then I would not want to go and ctb
 
Xaphous

Xaphous

hikikomori
Nov 11, 2018
550
Not being an isolated single dateless hugless kissless regular-jobless loner virgin
 

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