Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Dejected 55]

I feel nothing and everything. Almost all the time. Bad and worse... never good, though. Rarely ever neutral... mostly bad and worse.

 

[CTB Dream]

me no psbl doany all pain sffr noend

 

[alstroemeria55]

I have to study and work but I can't get out of bed. I'm tired. I can't stand myself.

 

[Dejected 55]

It's all coming to an end soon... whether I die or not, everything else will end. Soon enough.

 

[yourmemory]

i'm going to die if this doesn't work out. certain of it.

 

[Unsure and Useless]

I looked more into the Epstein files, and I am beginning to hate everything. I don't care if humanity has a capacity for good; we all need to die. Everything needs to be obliterated. If we, as a species, are capable of evil to that degree, then I don't think we deserve to live at all.

 

[Faith.fornow]

Like I'm dying and trying to figure out how to perform but oddly not really having to. I'm giving warning signs and it's to a point with people like what can they do and I understand I don't blame them I'm miserable to be around lazy and insufficient I'm monstrous. I want it all to be over I have nothing to live for. I promised myself to leave 3 years ago if things didn't get better I would exit I've made and I think I've been through enough I'm tired and idk what else to do anymore or if there's anything I can do. I think everything would be better off in many ways if I were just dead.

 

[Manaaja]

Just thinking about that idiot makes me angry.

Other people: it's nice to see you energetic and happy. :D
That mammanpaskaläjä pelle: omg, one time in 15 years you smiled a bit too widely, it hurt my strong masculine feelings!

Saatanan vitun uhriutuja pelle! Syö paskaa ja juo kuravettä päälle nyhveli! Hanki oikeaa itkemisen aihetta luopio!

In better news, JJ released a new song video and he is a billion times cuter than a certain someone will ever be!

You eat nothing but meat and wonder why you aren't a tiger. JJ sings and knows he is a beloved cat who deserves all the love!

Maybe I should become a rapper and release a dissing song about that idiot ex-friend. I have so much anger energy. (shit i noticed rapper is only one letter away from... you know what word. get longer words english! someone might accidentally typo!)

 

[BlendedHeart]

I have this person who hurt me a couple of years ago. We haven't talked since then. Yesterday, all of a sudden, she contacted me again. Didn't answer. She say she's gonna talk to me every day for a month until I answer her. Very childish. Also very childish from me not to answer, but I don't care.

Don't know what to do. On one side, I have no one else. I could talk to her but I know how this is going to end. On the other, I'm very tempted to say to her something really offensive to send her to hell, and to make clear I don't want her to contact me again.

Haha, I wish I wasn't this lonely. That way I wouldn't be worried about stupid dilemmas like these.

 

[violetforever]

neglecting homework and i need to stop eating

 

[tomatriste]

hopeless .. weak .. defeated .. hurt .. sad .. cold hearted .. lonely .. helpless.

researching practicing radical acceptance

 

[jojobanana]

I looked more into the Epstein files, and I am beginning to hate everything. I don't care if humanity has a capacity for good; we all need to die. Everything needs to be obliterated. If we, as a species, are capable of evil to that degree, then I don't think we deserve to live at all.

second this. i don't know why im forced to live, why is my life valued so much that i can't make the choice to end things peacefully. but a rich powerful elite can at his whim? or i could join the army. then my death is 'brave'

 

[Parasitism]

Abandoned and unlikeable

 

[amor.dor]

I feel like human garbage. I try not to get close to anyone so I don't ruin the mood. Sometimes I want to be able to open up, but that would bring other people down. I light a cigarette to try and relieve this tension inside me. If I don't do this, I feel like I'll break at any moment.

Even though I've managed to get medical help, I have to wait a few days for my appointment. Until then, I'll have to make do with cigarettes—which I can't even smoke without coughing or choking on the smoke—but it's the only thing I have left.

I didn't even want to write this here. I really don't want to bother anyone. I feel trivial and useless.

 

[SatinSoul]

Deep rooted exhaustion. Body and eyes feel heavy, everything is sore and little tasks take so much energy. My mind feels dizzy and foggy but also ultra sharp. Maybe if i would learn my lesson and tried to rest for a couple days, i would feel better again but silence is deafening so instead i keep overwhelming my mind with random tasks, if i want to or not.

 

[lakefish]

Tired

 

[T22222222]

emptiness, limbo, numb, subhuman, weird, eerie, like i'm overseeing my welcome on the planet

 

[Manaaja]

It's amazing how much better people will treat you the second you have a kid, regardless of what you do to that kid or how you got it.

If I said I was a parent, would people help me?

 

[corpse]

I want to CTB today, but I'll wait until my CTB date.

 

[halfstay]

im feeling trapped. i have people who love me and i love them in return, but i am only living for their sake. i want to die more than anything, it is my only desire. but i will keep going in unending pain for a chance they may believe im happy and successful, and thus feel content in themselves in return. i feel so alone in this ideation. ive abruptly stopped all doctors visits, therapy, and medication. i want none of it anymore. i just want to die.

 

[violetforever]

i dont know why i dreamed of this person coming back to message me apologies and make promises. if it really happens will it make a difference?

 

[lost in the lilies]

Tired, but cozy.

 

[violetforever]

i cant believe i am studying to teach and care for children when i dont even have hope for the world they will grow up in. i should just die. theres tragedy in everything.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

This is not a life. Let me get high again.

 

[violetforever]

still loving you all these weeks to months to years later. no matter how bad you get you will always look and be the same to me as the day i first saw you and fell in love. maybe theres nothing of the person i knew left inside of you and your name is really all thats familiar.

 

[underairpressure]

i just want to be held by someonee. i just want to touch another human being and know they dont see me as something subhuman or only to be pitied. ijust want to be held by someone. im sorry

 

[BlendedHeart]

I wish I had a minimum of self-respect. I wish my stomach didn't go berserk at the minimum spark of hope, at the littlest chance of contact.

I wish I wasn't this touch starved. I wish I wasn't a barely functional/asocial human being, so this stuff wouldn't bother me.

 

[Arvayn]

This whole day today, I've been stalked by this very deep, viscerally intense feeling of sadness. I can't seem to shake it off. But, it's not like being depressed. It's unpleasant, yes, but it doesn't give me any suicidal thoughts, or desire to act out. As a matter of fact, I would even say that there's some kind of passion or warmth buried under there... So, it's horrible, but also kind of not.
Very curious thing...

 

[RiftbornVeil]

I feel... oddly hopeful. Usually, I feel numb and am incapable of feeling emotion; everything feels like a thick fog enveloping me. Sometimes, it feels as though I'm drowning, stuck in this limbo between life and death. However, today, I feel light. Making my own choice to CTB feels empowering. It's a relief that cuts through my status quo.

 

[itsgone2]

Fear. Weekends are easiest time for me to get a gun. But fear overwhelms me. I hate myself for so much just add this to it.