Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Dejected 55]

Confused and confused and also confused. So many things... some potentially positive, others negative... mostly negative... but some positive... and all are confusing. I don't get to have many non-confusing things. I get very few situations where things mostly make sense, almost none where it entirely makes sense. Even good things, or potentially good things, always come with loads of confusion so I don't know how to feel other than constantly angsty about them.

 

[woodlandcreature]

i'm scared
i'm also just wondering why i've always been such an uncharismatic and unlikable person. people always misunderstand me and think im obnoxious. i hate me too but ive always tried so hard. i'm just some idiot everyone hates. i just wanted to be happy too. now all my hopes of that are gone.

 

[littlecutecorpse]

little sad. hopeless. during the day i've constantly thought to myself, "am i really going down this path now?" i mean, i'm a little astonished with how much my life has crumbled apart so much to the point that ctb is the only option left to stop any further suffering. funny how it's gotten to this point when i'm just barely an adult, but oh well.

 

[silverana]

awake

 

[fromange]

Disappointed, embarrassed, I hate myself.

 

[Dejected 55]

I am lost. I only know how to be me, I only want to be me, but I know that being me doesn't get things done. I am lost.

 

[KenDuh]

Calm, but it feels like I have a pebble bouncing in my heart, trying to shred it

 

[Black_Knight]

I've never played any social deduction games except once, where I was too nervous to do anything. But I've watched videos of other people playing them, and I often feel I'm in one. An evil player who was forced to be evil when they didn't want to and has to deceive good players as a matter of course. Again, I've never played it, but if any of you have, in Blood on the Clocktower terms, I'm either the Marionnette or the Lunatic and I can't tell which.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Well.... It's been a minute.
Where do I even start ?
Lost... Dread... No friends except online. (Thank the ether or whatever is out there)
I thought of so much to say earlier... Now I'm trying to remember .... Defective brain.
I don't think my brain has grown since I was a tween. I don't know if it's something in my shitty DNA.
I can't express how much I hate this world. Not the animals or reptiles... Bugs are a different story.
Humans are terrible..
Especially the rich. When is it fucking enough ???
I Dread the thought of being reincarnated. I will do my best to get out of it, if it's possible.
I wonder if you come back with the same opinions .... Like if you were a liberal or conservative in this life, would that change ?
Does environment around you make a difference or is your soul or life force still the same ?
Would you still be dumb in the next life or a killer ??? Even if I come back as a bug, it would be a short life and then I would have to do it again.
Guess I overthink that. I just want off this ride. For good.
I will NOT be following "The Light" just in case that is how we get recycled.

My rant for now......