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[Irisse]

Moisture?

As for the rodent, that shouldn't be there in the apartment... idk if landlord, tenant, or both are responsible for calling pest control.

Yeah, the apartment is very moldy so it could be moisture. It never happened before so I was confused. Me and the landlord have searched for the holes where mice get in before but we only found and closed one hole. One mouse still managed to appear somehow. Moving out is not an option because it's really hard to find an apartment in this town and this apartment is really cheap. Also I have an annoying neighbour who from time to time blasts his music on a radio. I don't know how I'm supposed to graduate University in these conditions.

 

[EmptyBottle]

Yeah, the apartment is very moldy so it could be moisture. It never happened before so I was confused. Me and the landlord have searched for the holes where mice get in before but we only found and closed one hole. One mouse still managed to appear somehow. Moving out is not an option because it's really hard to find an apartment in this town and this apartment is really cheap. Also I have an annoying neighbour who from time to time blasts his music on a radio. I don't know how I'm supposed to graduate University in these conditions.

oh (at least some action is taken on the rodents)... maybe combining noise cancelling headphones with the in ear-ear protectors?

 

[Irisse]

oh (at least some action is taken on the rodents)... maybe combining noise cancelling headphones with the in ear-ear protectors?

I wear earplugs most of the time, not just because of the neighbour but also because of mice and they do their job perfectly, but thank you anyway. I also need to get a cat. One pro of this apartment is that I can have pets, and there are some friendly neighbourhood cats who came to my apartment in the past so I'll try to make them want to come again.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I wear earplugs most of the time, not just because of the neighbour but also because of mice and they do their job perfectly, but thank you anyway. I also need to get a cat. One pro of this apartment is that I can have pets, and there are some friendly neighbourhood cats who came to my apartment in the past so I'll try to make them want to come again.

cooool, cats are awesome. I think the over ear headphones can combine with earplugs... blocks out a lot of noise, tho one is still able to hear a CO alarm and evacuate safely.

 

[Irisse]

cooool, cats are awesome. I think the over ear headphones can combine with earplugs... blocks out a lot of noise, tho one is still able to hear a CO alarm and evacuate safely.

Thank you, I'll look into it.

 

[EmptyBottle]

yw.

PS: I feel glad I was able to help

 

[corpse]

Today would actually be a good day for me to die, but I think I'll just try to sleep.

 

[Manaaja]

Democracy is when 9999999999999999 pedophiles and 9999999999999998 kids vote what to do next, except the kids can't vote.

 

[Dejected 55]

Democracy is when 9999999999999999 pedophiles and 9999999999999998 kids vote what to do next, except the kids can't vote.

If you think about it... majority rule makes no real sense. Majority rule doesn't make the majority always right. IF the majority were always right, we wouldn't need majority rule. We think our idea is better or more correct if more people agree... but people agreeing with you has little to do with whether your idea is correct or not.

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

I honestly want to jump from one of the buildings near my college campus. It's been nearly 8 years of this bullshit, I'm stressing over this Japanese test, and one of my family members lost their second job, so our means of living is unstable now...

Fuck Lockdown Browser. Maybe I should cut my wrists in front of the webcam as a means of getting flagged so my college can actually recognize how serious shit is for us out here. This is what I get for being altruistic, for thinking that learning Japanese was a good idea because of my passion for its culture. Now it's going to fuck me over during my second-to-last semester—and I have to reschedule my jaw surgery.

 

[corpse]

I feel lonely and wish I had at least one person here to talk to.

 

[star.trip]

What I feel right now is that I don't want to go on living. It's too much for me. All I want is peace.

 

[Dejected 55]

The suck sucks just a little bit more everyday. Not so much more that it is always obvious or feels definitively more sucky... but over time, you realize... it sucks more and more.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

The suck sucks just a little bit more everyday. Not so much more that it is always obvious or feels definitively more sucky... but over time, you realize... it sucks more and more.

I totally agree !!!!

 

[MissAbyss]

Blank, blank, blank, this doesn't feel right..

 

[Namelesa]

I don't want to live, I don't want to live, let me die, let me die. I don't want to suffer like this for decades to come. Life is so long and grueling. why do I have so many disorders? I don't know what I truly want anymore. I don't know who I am. I don't know how to comfort myself. I just wish to die, it would always be better for me to be dead than alive no matter what.

 

[itsgone2]

I don't want to go on and I feel my brain fighting me fiercely

 

[Irisse]

Yep, I guess I'm definitely dying in summer 2026. I managed to re-enroll in Uni but I have to pass all subjects, yet I can't do that because some classes are overlapping and I can't be in two places at once. I can't order SN this month because I have some other expenses to cover, but as soon as they are covered I'm ordering. I'm so tired of the bullshit. All because I messed up my first year due to depression and psychosis. Fucking kill me already.

 

[Dejected 55]

I wish I could be saved. I wish someone would save me. I don't mean feign interest, pretend, trick me into recovery... I mean true interest, someone actually caring, she wants to be with me. Saves me. I just need that. I can't go on otherwise. The end gets nearer.

 

[EmptyBottle]

I feel the two sides of getting a new laptop as a gift "idk if it was even needed / yet *another* device to backup" and "oo cool, multi GB/s NVME and some RTX GPU". If I had the cash instead, I'd have gotten backup drives, coz they were a higher priority. For now, I'll be making do with rsync, and partial backups.

Yep, I guess I'm definitely dying in summer 2026. I managed to re-enroll in Uni but I have to pass all subjects, yet I can't do that because some classes are overlapping and I can't be in two places at once. I can't order SN this month because I have some other expenses to cover, but as soon as they are covered I'm ordering. I'm so tired of the bullshit. All because I messed up my first year due to depression and psychosis. Fucking kill me already.

Maybe it is possible to drop some of the subjects with conflicts?
I also have not passed some subjects and need to redo.

 

[Irisse]

I feel the two sides of getting a new laptop as a gift "idk if it was even needed / yet *another* device to backup" and "oo cool, multi GB/s NVME and some RTX GPU". If I had the cash instead, I'd have gotten backup drives, coz they were a higher priority. For now, I'll be making do with rsync, and partial backups.


Maybe it is possible to drop some of the subjects with conflicts?
I also have not passed some subjects and need to redo.

I'll have to do that, because there's no other way, but I'm worried because the Dean said that if I don't pass everything I might be in a problem. I'm sorry you are in this situation too. I wish that you can get backup drives as soon as possible. Thank you for always being so helpful.

 

[Manaaja]

Science: most women (and afab people) are killed by intimate partners, nonintimate family, friends or other known people.
Most ball-less people on this forum: who cares if my friend gets killed by their family members, a lonely virgin male teen posted a mean comment! We should all join our powers to take him down!

I truly hate those virginphobic, hybristophilic enablers. They judge a man based on whether he has had vaginal bacteria on his dick? They should get help! Do they judge their cats based on whether the cats are virgins?

 

[MissAbyss]

Feeling sad, I can't cry, one more day left, still need to do a few things, getting nervous.. Hopefully it will work this time.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

I don't know anymore. I've been here for 10 months now, why even. It still feels like a nightmare. How did it even happen. How can something become more unreal over time? Isn't it supposed to get better or make sense? If only he'd believed me, I know life is pointless, but it's better together. I know that ultimately nothing matters, but we mattered, still matter, that's why it's still unreal.

 

[corpse]

Maybe it's selfish of me to want someone to talk to until I'll CTB in a few weeks or months, but I feel so lonely.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

I wish the pain would stop for a moment. It's so draining

 

[Manaaja]

Foreign pro-women-and-children's-rights men in Finland:
Native misogynistic men and women in Finland:

 

[corpse]

The anniversary of my CTB attempt is approaching, and this is making my desire to die even stronger, because I should be dead by now and no longer have to suffer, but I'm still here and I continue to suffer.

 

[Manaaja]

There should be a music competition where professional singers pick the worst possible singers, and then try to train them

I'm so gonna win.

As a gift for winning I want two Hawaiis. You can drop them somewhere south of Finland. I don't think there's any existing land south of Finland, because otherwise Finland would have conquered those lands eons ago.

 

[Dark Moon]

Just bad and/or empty I guess. I know that suicide is coming sooner or later it's inevitable, I hope to die and be gone from this world completely soon.