Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[kitkat9234]

Numb. Hating myself. Wanting to CTB but I'm too in my head about everything. Having really bad SI. I need to just say fuck it and just do it already.

 

[corpse]

I was supposed to have a doctor's appointment today, but now I feel awful for not going.

 

[Manaaja]

I got pretty angry at one internet celebrity. His own mother abused him, and kicked him out of house and made him homeless when he was a kid. Then that boy grew into a successful rich man, and now his mother demands money from him while still being an abusive piece of shit who wouldn't give a shit if the boy died. And instead of using all his money and resources to get justice against his mother, he instead is a momma's boy and sends thousand of euros to her. Despite being raised by a single father who tried to make him realize what a bitch that woman was, and what a real good parent looks like.

Why?! Can I identify as your bitch mother, kick you out of your own home, and you'll send me thousands of dollars? Okay, let's do it. I'm now your fucking mother. Here's my fucking money address: xXstopsimpingmothers67Xx .

 

[itsgone2]

I want to make a serious attempt today. I can't take this constant pain every day wheee everything is also a reminder of all the mistakes that I've made.

 

[secretariat]

i feel like straight booty cheeks

 

[MissAbyss]

Why am I even wasting my remaining time over here while my sweet dog looks at me begging for attention. My highest priority that I seem to have suddenly forgotten lately.. It's time to go.

 

[Irisse]

I'm worried for my cat. Well, technically it's not my cat but I guess she belongs to the entire neighbourhood and I feed her when I can and I let her sleep over like today. She has mandibular abscess and I don't know how to treat it because despite my love for cats, I never really learned how to handle them in a sense of being able to check their mouth and eyes and such. I'm too afraid to try opening her mouth. I've found a vet nearby but I don't have enough money as I don't have an income yet and I don't know if my parents could pay because we had a lot of expenses this month. I love her and if she gets sepsis I'll never forgive myself.

 

[closetoyou]

i'm feeling bad!

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

Anxious, but with a strange happiness that summer is coming to a close, I prefer the rain.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

Anxious, but with a strange happiness that summer is coming to a close, I prefer the rain.

Halleluja to that! Rain is wonderful. Makes my headaches and most other pains better as well. No idea why. Probably humidity.

 

[corpse]

Today I realized once again that every person I meet on the street or in a store leads a different, independent life and after my death no one will remember me because people forget me while I am alive.

 

[MissAbyss]

I'm so exhausted, my brains or fried, going back to sleep. Autumn has set in, it's getting darker earlier and earlier, I like it. Gives me a feeling of safety.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

I'm so exhausted, my brains or fried, going back to sleep. Autumn has set in, it's getting darker earlier and earlier, I like it. Gives me a feeling of safety.

Same here. Probably the medication adjustment for me. Going to take a little nap. Maybe it'll help

 

[Manaaja]

I'm so exhausted, my brains or fried, going back to sleep. Autumn has set in, it's getting darker earlier and earlier, I like it. Gives me a feeling of safety.

Just wear sunglasses indoors to make it darker

 

[MissAbyss]

Just wear sunglasses indoors to make it darker

At the beginning of this year I spent months wearing sunglasses and earplugs indoors due extreme sensitivity to light and sound created by Paws. I even had my curtains closed. The summer was horrible. Still wearing earplugs almost whole day though. So I need to adapt to light and sound again.

 

[LigottiIsRight]

I can't stop thinking about how absurd, ridiculous and unjustified is the mainstream narrative that we've to keep on living when we feel, for whatever reasons, that we don't want to.
How futile is our existence, in general. All the fuss for absolutely nothing.

I'm fucking bored, bored to death (literally, I hope!), that's all.

I enjoy birdwatching, and I'm convinced that the lives of the birds I'm seeing these days are more worthwhile than those of any human being.

 

[LighthouseHermit]

The nerve pain in my legs is driving me nuts today.

At the beginning of this year I spent months wearing sunglasses and earplugs indoors due extreme sensitivity to light and sound created by Paws. I even had my curtains closed. The summer was horrible. Still wearing earplugs almost whole day though. So I need to adapt to light and sound again.

Never heard anyone who wore earplugs like me for sound sensitivity before. So sorry you have that problem. I know how hard that is, and reading someone else has the same is heartbreaking. I have white noise generators throughout the house. Makes those little noises that can drive you nuts a lot better. When I was a child, I would always have a fan on next to me.

 

[MissAbyss]

The nerve pain in my legs is driving me nuts today.



Never heard anyone who wore earplugs like me for sound sensitivity before. So sorry you have that problem. I know how hard that is, and reading someone else has the same is heartbreaking. I have white noise generators throughout the house. Makes those little noises that can drive you nuts a lot better. When I was a child, I would always have a fan on next to me.

Nerve pain is awful, I had it throughout my whole body. Now it centers in the upper body.

I wear earplugs for sleeping, I almost hear nothing. What's dangerous about it is that it cuts you off from reality and I'm used to it by now, I even prefer it. So, I force myself to take them out in the evening for a couple of hours. The dehumidifier device is on right now, but I can hardly stand the sound.

 

[corpse]

I stay in my bed and do nothing but wait for death.

 

[Dejected 55]

"glad" to be back in my house... but disappointed in the state of every other aspect of my life.

 

[Manaaja]

Over 60% of women report rape fantasies, zero pro cent of women report physical or mental abuse fantasies.

Over 1/2 of Finnish males mentally abuse, 1/3 Finnish males abuse physically. Only 9% of Finnish males rape. (google helsinkitimes and finnish abuse rates if you want.)

Half of Finnish women report being sexually harassed at work places.

So, over half of Finnish males will first break your mental health, then 1/3 of Finnish males will kill you, then half of Finnish males will sexually harass you when you are just trying to do your work, then when you get home and hope for some nice hot anal sex, him grabbing you from behind, throwing you onto sofa, and fucking you till you orgasm twice, your male says "My lady! *tips fedora* Finnish males are true gentlemen, we would never hurt a woman!".

Once again, I hate nothing more than Finns.

 

[Dejected 55]

Woozy and blurry vision today... feeling weak... probably need to eat something. All I'm managing to do is keep up on water for all the reasons. Glad pain is still gone and hope that is a trend. Everything else in my life is just as shit, though... and getting shittier by the moment. Try to not dwell and up my stress, but its so hard not to see everything falling apart around me.

 

[corpse]

I don't know what to think, feel or say anymore.

 

[foreverfalling]

I feel like crying, overwhelmed, in a state of existential crisis. I don't know why I have to put up with all of this. The one thing that I want and makes life somewhat worth living today is out of my control to get. I am so frustrated that I can't get it. It's an endless cycle of trying to fulfill my desires and getting frustrated when I can't. I know I'll continue to suffer after that. Right now this is the only thing I can think about, but there's so much stuff I should be doing piling up. Feeding myself, getting my taxes done, organising my things, going to work tomorrow. I can't manage it. I don't want to feel this. I want to die so I don't have to feel it.

 

[MissAbyss]

I'm so sleep deprived, that I look like a
I even can't describe my emotional state at the moment. Completely drained and chaotic at the same time. Need to refocus and mentally prepare.

 

[itsgone2]

Outside of a few hours, I just spent the entire weekend in bed or on the couch, in silence. Today I need to go to work. I think yesterday I was so glued to the couch and numb because my mind knew how much I thought it was the day. I have everything in place for a serious attempt. And yet here I am.

 

[corpse]

I need a break.

 

[Desperatelyyearning]

Hollow.

 

[corpse]

I will isolate myself until I am ready for CTB.

 

[Dejected 55]

Still woozy from last week... ate semi-normally yesterday, though. Have to try to keep drinking more water than I normally would. But waiting for more shoes to drop. There are all the ones I know will drop, then ones like what happened to me last week are just waiting to surprise me always. I am so beyond giving a fuck.