unta
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- Mar 7, 2020
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I'm pretty much done with my life because no matter what I do, bad and destructive things keep on happening to me. The last one obviously caused me biotoxic ilness, I lost almost everything I owned but it seems I also lost my physical and mental health. I've been thinking about suicide many times before but this time, I'm tired of this shit happening to me, I can't trust life anymore and I don't want to live being this sick.
But I'm scared of hurting people around me. I've been thinking I could just do something that would make me disappear, it would hurt less, maybe? I have many people who care for me. I feel it would bring so much pain if I died and that kind of keeps me from doing it. But other than that, there's not much left of my life. All that has happened in the last six months has made me so empty and has destroyed my body that I feel there's just no future for me anymore.
But I'm scared of hurting people around me. I've been thinking I could just do something that would make me disappear, it would hurt less, maybe? I have many people who care for me. I feel it would bring so much pain if I died and that kind of keeps me from doing it. But other than that, there's not much left of my life. All that has happened in the last six months has made me so empty and has destroyed my body that I feel there's just no future for me anymore.
