Venting Tomorrow’s the day.

[OperationOblivion]

Welp, tomorrow's the day. I changed my method again and settled on carbon monoxide. I've got a gas generator set up to run in the back of my car. I've been getting myself as prepared for death as possible. All I have to do is start the generator, and go to sleep, unless I made another mistake (which knowing me is likely).

I've been having so many problems with family, and now the kids at work are noticing my self harm scars. I can't let them be affected by me and my issues. I just wanna disappear. I wish I never happened and this is the closest I can get.

If everything goes "well" I'll be gone this time tomorrow. Only time will tell.

 

[geepeedee]

good luck. hope you find peace.

 

[darksouls]

good luck,
I hope everything goes well for you and you find the peace you desire

 

[absolutethistime]

take care buddy, rest well

 

[spero_meliora]

hope you find the peace you're looking for, may your journey be an easy one

 

[FuneralCry]

I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I know of someone that succeeded with this same method. I wish you the best of luck but so sorry life has brought you to this point.

 

[OperationOblivion]

I was too nervous, I need to find a better spot to ctb. I'm sorry

 

[tourn/ait/ne/nera]

I was too nervous, I need to find a better spot to ctb. I'm sorry

Don't be sorry, you do not owe us your life! I hate how overly apologetic life has made us (ex: "unless I made another mistake (which knowing me is likely)."

It may be harsh but if anything goes wrong you will shoulder your new health issues on your own, all we can say is "sorry" and macabrely ask what you did for our own application which also terrifies us lol, so if it did not feel right, there is no shame in saying "not today".