Venting weed/nic addiction

[notsosillybilly]

i used to be one of those people who were so heavily against drugs growing up, but september of last year i started doing edibles. over time i started smoking, vaping, using pens and whatnot and got heavily addicted to the feeling. the euphoria is so fucking insane and it feels like my brain is in a microwave, it's so peaceful. (how the tables turn lol)

and i wish people understood that without drugs, i'm miserable as ever. i told my fwb that when we go out i wanna get fucked up and have and good time at this show we're at rn, and he told me that i need to stop "idolizing" the idea of getting fucked up.

weed and nic have stopped me multiple times from hurting myself, and i've had the most shitty year so far, don't i deserve to have a little fun and be happy??

 

[burninghill]

I use nicotine, alcohol and dph. It's really hard for people to understand that those are the only things some of us have left to hold on to.

If you really are at rock bottom, I genuinely don't see the harm in nicotine and weed. They're not rapidly fatal and if they bring you some kind of relief then I think they're worth holding on to, honestly. Would it be better to pursue other coping mechanisms? For sure, but it's not that easy.