I want to make sure I have everything in place to make sure this is successful and I don't end up in a hospital. Have a good night and who know's maybe I'll see you on the otherside if I don't see you again on here
MaybeMaybeKnot
No ctrl-z when you ctb
- Oct 25, 2019
- 339
Also I think everyone is nice because they are pre-paying for when it's their turn. Like paying it forward but in reverse.
Perfect, that should make things easier, thanks so much for the info!
It's not a trouble. I can spare right now. I don't want your stomach to feel empty on your journey and sometimes empty stomach can make you anxious. Also for me, I would love to eat stomach full of my favorite food before my last day. I don't know if you believe this but I offer my ancestors food offerings because spirits get hungry. I'm sorry if I crossed the line but I want you to have at least one good final memory on Earth. The offer is still on the table if you change your mind and PM me.Thank you immensely for the offer but I just wouldn't feel right taking anyone's hard earned money just because I was irresponsble with my own if that make sense. I do really appreicate the offer though. Yeah I just found out my heart randomly either changes rhythms or just skips beats I don't fully understand but that was something I found out randomly just because I was trying to get meto from a walk in. I have had chest pain in the past month but if you say that to a doctor I am pretty sure they have to run more tests and can't allow you to leave so I don't bring it up. Would be ironic if the meto did me in before i could take the diphen. Got told I pretty much need to get tests but why waste tax dollars when my heart will be stopped in a day or two anyways
I wish for you to find the same peace and to see you there as well.
So your heart beats irregularly? Is this because of Meto? I'm sorry but can you tell my stupid self what keto is? You're really a kind soul to even think about not wasting tax dollars. I wish my government, especially the president, can learn from you.
It's really sad most people who want to kill themselves are kind souls crushed by the evil amongst us.
The only slight thing I was thinking was what if taking the alcohol made you very drowsy, and you fell asleep ?
That's why I was thinking to do the stat dose, wait, and then do the alcohol, followed fairly soon by the diphen....
However, that was just my personal thought process, so I guess you will need to make a decision on what you feel is best.....
My thought was that the alcohol might make you feel extra tired due to being on the meto ( although I don't know whether that's the case or not ), so that's why I had that thought.....
That's why I was thinking to do the stat dose, wait, and then do the alcohol, followed fairly soon by the diphen....
However, that was just my personal thought process, so I guess you will need to make a decision on what you feel is best.....
My thought was that the alcohol might make you feel extra tired due to being on the meto ( although I don't know whether that's the case or not ), so that's why I had that thought.....
The best and kindest souls are possibly the least suited to this often unforgiving existence, so perhaps those souls get to "go home early", which is not really a punishment....
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You in no way crossed a line at all, I really do appreicate the offer and the sentimate behind it, I personally just wouldn't feel right taking it.
From what I know I have high blood pressure and it beats irregularly but I haven't had tests to confirm that's just all from the walk in doc telling me and seeing the blood pressure cuff results. You're not stupid at all for not knowing what Meto is, it's an anti-emetic that helps your stomach process things faster as well as "blocks" your vomit center of the brain so it's much less likely to upchuck.
I'm really not a kind soul in my opinion but it means a lot that you think that. There are many things I've done that I regret and that I feel there is no way to repent for but that's also why I recently turned to religion. Have to have faith that there is something bigger out there that understands we make mistakes and doesn't judge us but only want's the best.
I definitely see what you're saying with the drowziness. I think I should be okay based off drinking in the past but I might wait 45 to start drinking, then take the diphen at the hour mark. Will have to check into how meto and alcohol react first.
I feel as though I truly am a bad person but just hope for the best in the afterlife and the lord can understand and forgive like the bible says. I am ready to embrace his undying love.
I understand.
Thank you for taking time to explain what meto is. You're really stressed if you have high blood pressure.
We're our own worst critics. We're only humans, we will make mistakes but I completely understand you because I have lots of regrets in my past, so I try to tell myself that. I've recently got into spirituality and as silly as it sounds, a tarot reader on YouTube has helped me at times. I'm glad you found faith in a higher being. Hope that will safely guide you on your journey. We are here for you.
If you do proceed, and pass to the other side, then I'm certain you will have opportunities to clear any debts you have incurred.
I don't believe in "free rides", where our debts are just instantly cleared, but I do believe we are allowed to clear our debts.
It's quite possible that you have already done a lot of debt-clearing simply by having to exist here on the earth and experiencing unhappiness over your past actions.
The important thing is, for each moment, to strive to correct or improve, and even though we may sometimes "fail" in that, provided we are continually trying, then that is all we can ask of ourselves, since we are imperfect beings, striving to improve.
I believe that if you cross over, your life continues, even though your body may not. So the striving to improve will likely continue in the afterlife, and you would likely have opportunities to do that.....
Theres nothing silly about spirituality, we each have our beliefs and there's nothing to say one is more valid than another. Our beliefs are meant to bring us comfort and I am glad that you have found something that helps you as not everyone has or will. I thank you Exhausted, you taking the time to even post your friendly words means a lot to me. Much love and hope you find peace with yourself
I hope with all my heart that that is the case, the thought of eternal damnednation is the only thing holding me here at this point. The thought things could get worse scares me a little but to think that we get chances over time to either repay our debt or to see what we have done wrong and be able to learn from it. I have never thought prior about being able to repent over time rather than just a definitive heaven or hell decision. Reassuring if I can be honest. Thank you for sharing this JGMIf you do proceed, and pass to the other side, then I'm certain you will have opportunities to clear any debts you have incurred.
I don't believe in "free rides", where our debts are just instantly cleared, but I do believe we are allowed to clear our debts.
It's quite possible that you have already done a lot of debt-clearing simply by having to exist here on the earth and experiencing unhappiness over your past actions.
The important thing is, for each moment, to strive to correct or improve, and even though we may sometimes "fail" in that, provided we are continually trying, then that is all we can ask of ourselves, since we are imperfect beings, striving to improve.
I believe that if you cross over, your life continues, even though your body may not. So the striving to improve will likely continue in the afterlife, and you would likely have opportunities to do that.....
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I'm going to be taking some rest.
I may not be online when and if you decide to follow your regimen.
If you decide to proceed, then please avoid any unnecessary last minute stress.
Try to finish any planning or preparation, crushing of pills, etc, etc, at least 3 hours before the final regimen.
This is so you can be calm and composed and not feel rushed in any way.....
NOTE : As stated previously, please consider for yourself whether you wish to proceed.
If you can get better and recover, then that is what you should do.
We never encourage anyone to do anything harmful to themselves.
If you decide to proceed, then I wish you a safe journey.
P.S. If you do decide to proceed, and for any reason the attempt does not go as planned, don't worry excessively, I'm sure we'll be able to "regroup" and you could consider the SN protocol instead if you still felt that you wanted to proceed with something like that....
I may not be online when and if you decide to follow your regimen.
If you decide to proceed, then please avoid any unnecessary last minute stress.
Try to finish any planning or preparation, crushing of pills, etc, etc, at least 3 hours before the final regimen.
This is so you can be calm and composed and not feel rushed in any way.....
NOTE : As stated previously, please consider for yourself whether you wish to proceed.
If you can get better and recover, then that is what you should do.
We never encourage anyone to do anything harmful to themselves.
If you decide to proceed, then I wish you a safe journey.
P.S. If you do decide to proceed, and for any reason the attempt does not go as planned, don't worry excessively, I'm sure we'll be able to "regroup" and you could consider the SN protocol instead if you still felt that you wanted to proceed with something like that....
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Sorry I meant tarot reading as silly. I've actually tried to learn it before and I've also studied a bit about aromatherapy.
My take on beliefs is that if you take good beliefs then you should take the bad ones as well because without bad, good can not exist. I would feel like I'm in denial if I'm just selectively chosing to believe in the good. Maybe I'm reading too deeply into this.
It still feels so surreal about goodbye threads. I hate to see people go but at the same time I can empathize with the excruciating pain they're in to even come to this. Some may be an impulse but even then there's a long history of suffering and misery and who am I to say no don't die when I can't even help myself or offer any usable solutions to better my life. I can't deny other's right to chose because I wouldn't want it denied to me. But your post really hit me at the core of my heart and wanted to reach out so you wouldn't feel lonely. Sending you lots of love and prayers. I hope you too, can find peace.
snowman626
Mage
- Jan 28, 2019
- 545
where did you learn that SN is restricted in canada? i just got mine a few days ago. the box clearly stated the content was sodium nitrite and passed customs without problems
Tired & Ready-
"I'm Exhausted" sent you a lovely note which said, among other sentiments, "Sending you lots of love and prayers."
Years ago, in a graduate class about religious history and so on, a professor said a sentence I always remembered.
"Prayer is a cry of need, with the expectation of an answering response." While I don't necessarily believe there
is any unhuman entity to answer our prayers, I love the saying, because praying in a time of need, is ENTIRELY
human.
If you decide to proceed, then we wish you a peaceful journey...
If you didn't feel ready to proceed, then we will support you and try to help you regroup.
If you didn't feel ready to proceed, then we will support you and try to help you regroup.
If you decide to proceed, then we wish you a peaceful journey...
If you didn't feel ready to proceed, then we will support you and try to help you regroup.
jgm63 - I followed your postings to @TiredAndReadyToGo last night, and wanted to thank you and express how
thoughtful and giving you were with your research and information you provided to TRG and to members at
large. Thanks.
I do believe that there is a hell but I believe that the Lord can forgive you for misdeeds. I hope that Hell is not eternal but that you may pay your debts and be returned to the lord but understand that may not be the case. I agree you must take the bad with the good so it is what it is, in my opinion just need to have faith that we can be seen for the good we have done when we reach the lord. Another bible quote not to harp on about them is Psalm 23. The fact that the lord prepares a table for you in the presence of your enemie, I take that to mean that he see's the wrong but cares anyways.
I get that the goodbye threads are hard but I prefer to think of them as see you soon's, I have a past that I must carry with me, no means to improve the future, and no support network so this seems like my best recourse. I am sorry that you also have reached this point but I wish all the best for you and that you can find serenity in what ever you choose.
I will be proceeding tonight I am just not sure if it will be at 5, or at 10 just so I can enjoy my last slice I just picked up and get in another Meto dose. But it will be tonight. I appreciate that there is a community that understands and doesn't judge based off of decisions or the past. Thank youIf you decide to proceed, then we wish you a peaceful journey...
If you didn't feel ready to proceed, then we will support you and try to help you regroup.
I don't think I could have asked for a better group of people to have around, not only the support but the information that we all share for the potential of ensuring someone else doesn't have to make a mistake that would cause even more issues. It's been calming to have you all around.
The brick and mortar sales are restricted massively and even if I had the money for it I would have to order it only which could take a few weeks which I don't have. It is a nice thought but I am confined to the method which I have selected at this point with how much I have failed with Night night.
Does anyone know if Pepcid would be good to mix with the meto since it works as an antacid?
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Not too sure about pepcid.
A web search said : "No interactions were found between Benadryl and Pepcid."
So it seems both can be taken together.
Also found this :
Q) I heard a rumor that Pepcid works well for post-surgical itch. I also heard people like to use Benadryl for this. I wanted to know if you can take these both together without an adverse reaction.
A) Absolutely you can do this. They work well together. I usually recommend to start with the Benedryl as it works well alone for most people.
But not sure that has any relevance to your thought process.....
A web search said : "No interactions were found between Benadryl and Pepcid."
So it seems both can be taken together.
Also found this :
Q) I heard a rumor that Pepcid works well for post-surgical itch. I also heard people like to use Benadryl for this. I wanted to know if you can take these both together without an adverse reaction.
A) Absolutely you can do this. They work well together. I usually recommend to start with the Benedryl as it works well alone for most people.
But not sure that has any relevance to your thought process.....
I don't know you personally but I doubt you've done anything so atrocious that warrants you to be condemned to hell. Lord is forgiving. At least whatever wrong you may think you have done, you recognize that and it's definitely the first and biggest step. I believe you will be able to correct your wrong and reach closer to the Lord. I hope so too because I've made plenty of mistakes I regret. I truly wish for you to be at peace.
I hope you enjoy your slice and I'll say goodnight until I see you again.
MaybeMaybeKnot
No ctrl-z when you ctb
- Oct 25, 2019
- 339
A pastor once told me that only the mentally sound can be held accountable for their decisions and clearly that is not the case if one has to CTB. That was why they felt like CTB was not a mortal sin.If you do proceed, and pass to the other side, then I'm certain you will have opportunities to clear any debts you have incurred.
I don't believe in "free rides", where our debts are just instantly cleared, but I do believe we are allowed to clear our debts.
It's quite possible that you have already done a lot of debt-clearing simply by having to exist here on the earth and experiencing unhappiness over your past actions.
The important thing is, for each moment, to strive to correct or improve, and even though we may sometimes "fail" in that, provided we are continually trying, then that is all we can ask of ourselves, since we are imperfect beings, striving to improve.
I believe that if you cross over, your life continues, even though your body may not. So the striving to improve will likely continue in the afterlife, and you would likely have opportunities to do that.....
CTB does not mean you are mentally unsound.
It means you find the negatives of living outweigh the positives.
You can be of perfectly sound mind, and decide to CTB.
I would say the majority of people who CTB are of sound mind.
MaybeMaybeKnot
No ctrl-z when you ctb
- Oct 25, 2019
- 339
I agree with you 100%. I'm saying this is what a pastor told me. That in his opinion, those that CTB could not be held responsible. I apologize, I didn't mean to imply otherwise. Thank you for correcting me.
I'm going to be offline for a while now, so I may not be online when you follow your regimen....
Once again, wishing you a safe journey if you decide to proceed.
And if for any reason you decide not to proceed then that's fine.....
Once again, wishing you a safe journey if you decide to proceed.
And if for any reason you decide not to proceed then that's fine.....
In that case I will take the Pepcid just in case, after all it can't hurt.
I feel as though the thing's I've done I am not worth of being saved for but I guess that is why it isn't up to us to make that differentiation. I know the Lord judges us all fairly, I will take whatever decision he makes and accept it and hope you can as well. Also thank you the slice was great, ate it slowly to savour it.
I hope that's the case but can accept I also have some mental illness that helps contribute to making the decision but its more of factor that I accounted for in my decision as well. I know there are many others who won't have those cognitive issues who do it but I can only really speak for my decision. I appreicate that people don't just think I'm a nut job for wanting to do this.
I know what you were trying to say and nothing wrong with it. I understand you are just sharing your experiences with it and that's all that we can do. Nothing to worry about.
Sorry for my delayed responses today, I've been just relaxing and watching TV trying not to over think things. I am nervous to do it but its more the side effects that have me worried, it might not be fun but it should do the job hopefully the drinks I make will help make it better. Thanks for staying with me guys, know this is a long thread but it means a lot that everyone is here for me. It's ironic that I go out with a massive support system when I never really had one when I was living. I think other than having to wait for meto and such I am ready for my last adventure. I have never been into being couragous or doing things out of my comfort zone but can't exactly do something like this without them.
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You are very courageous.
It's really unfortunate to not have a support system when you were trying but those are the people that later say "he/she should've reached out" when it's too late. I've reached out almost begging for help and I just got kicked out of the door. It's very saddening but screw them.
I hope I can find the same strength and courage like you.
Sleep tight this will all just be a nightmare.
It's really unfortunate to not have a support system when you were trying but those are the people that later say "he/she should've reached out" when it's too late. I've reached out almost begging for help and I just got kicked out of the door. It's very saddening but screw them.
I hope I can find the same strength and courage like you.
Sleep tight this will all just be a nightmare.
MaybeMaybeKnot
No ctrl-z when you ctb
- Oct 25, 2019
- 339
No need to apologize. Like we've all said before, in your own time. There's no rush.
I always found it funny when people said stuff like that because its almost like they expect you to just say it to start the conversation, whenwhile if you don't lead with that they ignore or postpone the conversation. I am sorry that people have treated you in this way too. Its as though we are supposed to put on an act for them but those mask's just grow to tiresome. I hope that if you make the choice to CTB that you may just gently drift into a unending calming sleep.
I hope it is just a nightmare as well.
I know there is no rush I just feel like I am stringing people along and that isn't how I want other to interpret it.
I am beyond gratiful to have such loving, support and generous people here at the end with me. I feel as though it might just be a sign that the lord know's what I am trying to and is okay with it, this is just simply his way of telling me so. I am not sure if it is blastphomas to make such assumptions but it is the assumption that seems most logical if that makes sense to anyone else. I will be around one more night as the hotel is dead quiet and feel I would get caught convulsing and couldn't stand the idea of being rescued by medicine. I am following my meto regime every 5 hours instead of 8 to allow for slightly shorter than 48 hours. I will keep posting updates as I go as I would like to be able to say a proper goodbye to you all before I take my lethal cocktail as I am afraid I won't be able to do it afterwards. Thank you all, even those who just took the time to read my thread before and after my passing your spending your time on a lost cause like me is a feeling I will never be able to express to you all
Don't know why but as I come closer and look into high dose Diphen use it just keeps making me nervous. I know there are few reports of anyone taking such a high dose (7g-7.5g)without it being lethal but just seeing the side effects is almost worrying. Is this just my SI kicking in or is it me being rational about the method?
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