I've thought about it and am considering it, I just don't have any money to pay for an extra day. I'm trying to see what I can work out but I'm in a rough spot for that. Definitely good thoughts though, thanks Junes
We are with you, whatever you do.
Thank you June, I'm going back go crushing the pills now. Plan stays on to do it tonight but if that changes in the next little bit I'll make sure to update everyone
Just on the topic of music from before, I recommend checking out, Don't Be Afraid (You're Already Dead) by Akron/Family
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Wondering if you can put the tablets in a bag of some type, eg carrier bag, and get something that can be used as some type of hammer....
Just a thought.....
Just a thought.....
TRG - just listened to Don't Be Afraid, on youtube. Thanks for the tip. I am now thinking of CARRY YOU HOME, by James Blunt. Great video, and lyrics are very touching for all of us, I think.
That's a great song and I thought I recognized the singer and it turns out there is another song by him I like, Goodbye My Lover - James Blunt
I think most people here will like it or recognize it or the reference haha
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Exactly. Fantastic song. I am glad you know it, we have that in common. Cheers to you, dude,
MaybeMaybeKnot
No ctrl-z when you ctb
- Oct 25, 2019
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If your inn allows it, you might be able to request a late checkout tomorrow to get a little extra time. Hopefully you don't need it, but it couldn't hurt. Central time, here. I'll be on for support as well.
You can also try putting pills in folded up paper and crushing in the hinge side of the bathroom door.
You can also try putting pills in folded up paper and crushing in the hinge side of the bathroom door.
Those are great ideas I'm going to check into the late check out. With the pills I might just take your advice for the last few pills. I've already crushed about 200 so far but will be a good way to get through the last little bit!
Does anyone happen to know how much Meto I should use for this? I suspect it might just be the stat dose like people use for SN but any advice?
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MaybeMaybeKnot
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- Oct 25, 2019
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Using purely assumption and logic, I'd guess the stat dose is about as good as it gets, considering it's what they use for N and SN.
Also, thank you for taking the time to share with us and include us on your journey. Remember, we're here to support you, but don't feel pressured to do anything you're not 100% sure of just for us. We love you whether you do this tonight or not.
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I agree with Maybemaybenot, we care about you and are with you 100% today or tomorrow.
Its relieving to have the community around and so many great people as well. I am still figuring out if I am going to do it tonight or tomorrow, but I have time to figure it out since I need to fast for another hour or two before I take my meto. I will keep the thread updated once I make a decision and with keep you all posted with progress as long as I can if I do it tonight
Thanks guys
Thanks for checking in, I'm just finishing grinding it all up right now. Had to do it manually after all and it's killed my hands but hey I'll be killing the rest of me soon too
. Definitely think I will need apple sauce or yogurt seeing the ampunt of powder it is but in a worst case can always just use waterTRG - don't panic. You have done the hard part. It seems to me there is no reason to hurry, just slowly, as you can, if you decide to do this, take a 1/2 teaspoon at a time, drink, and when ready do it again. There is no time table, take it as you can.. I will be constantly wishing you peace and love, and we all will be with you regardless of the outcome, of that you can be certain my friend. And we thank you, for sharing this part of your life with us, we are the better for it. Good night.
MaybeMaybeKnot
No ctrl-z when you ctb
- Oct 25, 2019
- 339
I can't imagine how much powder six grams must be. You might see how water soluble it is to see if drinking it would be best.Thanks for checking in, I'm just finishing grinding it all up right now. Had to do it manually after all and it's killed my hands but hey I'll be killing the rest of me soon too
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@TiredAndReadyToGo
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I hope your plan works well for you and it will be peaceful. Please keep us updated.
Sending hugs to you.
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I hope your plan works well for you and it will be peaceful. Please keep us updated.
Sending hugs to you.
That is very inventive idea, Maybemaybenknot, necessity being the mother of invention.
It definitely seems like more than I was expecting but I'm hoping the meto helps process it fast so even if I do vomit it's only stomach acid (might take pepcid to helo that too)
@TiredAndReadyToGo
Thank you for sharing your experiences. I hope your plan works well for you and it will be peaceful. Please keep us updated.
Sending hugs to you.
Thank you and will do!
Thank you June, really taking that no time table thing to heart a little haha. I haven't even taken my Meto yet but i really should given the time, need at least an hour for that and then another 10 at minimum to make sure its effective and has time to work
Would it be a bad thing if I take the stat dose of Meto tonight and then if I don't go through with it take the same dose tomorrow?
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"Would it be a bad thing if I take the stat dose of Meto tonight and then if I don't go through with it take the same dose tomorrow?"
Well, for the non-stat method, you still take 3 tablets per day, but just not all at once....
So although I can't say 100%, I would think it would be okay....
Well, for the non-stat method, you still take 3 tablets per day, but just not all at once....
So although I can't say 100%, I would think it would be okay....
I just wanted to give a little update, I'm not doing it tonight just so I can get that one last night sleep and know it's the last one I will ever had. (I feel like a kid on Christmas now that I have my Meto) I found a way to get one last night in the hotel. In the morning I am going to go get some apple sauce or something to help get the powder down. I might get one more bottle of 60x25mg tablets just to help ensure lethality. I am a little scared but at the same time I know logically this is my best move/opportunity since there is no chance of things getting better.
I want to thank everyone for being here, to know there are such caring, compassionate, friendly people on here that are willing help/be there for me to the end is just a feeling I can't possibly describe. I know I will be alone physically when I CTB but I will have all of you in spirit, and that is going to be my biggest comfort. Good night and much love to everyone!
I want to thank everyone for being here, to know there are such caring, compassionate, friendly people on here that are willing help/be there for me to the end is just a feeling I can't possibly describe. I know I will be alone physically when I CTB but I will have all of you in spirit, and that is going to be my biggest comfort. Good night and much love to everyone!
Once again, wishing you a peaceful journey......
WilliamKline
Flâneur
- Sep 16, 2019
- 135
Thank you JGMOnce again, wishing you a peaceful journey......
William that is so incredibly generous and thoughtful, waking up and seeing someone offer to help me with my last meal, it brought tears to my eyes. I do appriecate the offer but I wouldn't feel right taking someones hard earned money because I have been irresponsible with my own if that makes sense. There aren't enough words in the english language to express how blessed I feel to have such a great group of people around for my last days on earth, Thank you from the bottom of my heart.Do you have paypal? If so PM me, I'd like to buy you a (whole) pizza
I have to go out to do some stuff quickly to get final preparations done but once I'm back to the room, Ill be coming back on with updates.
Much love SS,
If you changed your mind and William was offline then I would also extend the same offer.....Thank you JGM
William that is so incredibly generous and thoughtful, waking up and seeing someone offer to help me with my last meal, it brought tears to my eyes. I do appriecate the offer but I wouldn't feel right taking someones hard earned money because I have been irresponsible with my own if that makes sense. There aren't enough words in the english language to express how blessed I feel to have such a great group of people around for my last days on earth, Thank you from the bottom of my heart.
I have to go out to do some stuff quickly to get final preparations done but once I'm back to the room, Ill be coming back on with updates.
Much love SS,
Thank you JGM, the offer is unbelievable considerate of you. I am not use to having people around let alone people who are wanting to help, its almost a little overwhelming for me (in a positive way). Seriously thank you and if I do I'll let ya knowIf you changed your mind and William was offline then I would also extend the same offer.....
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- Jul 25, 2019
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I'm glad that here are so much kind and supportive ppl.
I hope your last hours will be nice but I'm sorry that I possibly asleep when you want to do your last step. Wishing peace to you whatever you'll do at last.
I hope your last hours will be nice but I'm sorry that I possibly asleep when you want to do your last step. Wishing peace to you whatever you'll do at last.
It is more than okay, everyone has to sleep and I'm doing it at an odd hour haha. Its comforting to know I have so many people in spirit.
I just got back in from getting things. I got some yogurt to help wash down the powder, I got some lemonaid to mix with tequila (not a big drinker and figured soda chasers wouldn't be a good idea on Meto). I also picked up one last bottle just to make sure I have enough and to hopefully make it quicker.
I got my room until Sunday morning now, (hotel discounted the rate to help me out since I've been here a week or so) I don't have to worry about time now and can just go at my own pace.
I simply don't know how to express my gratitude to you all, thank you for being so accepting and thoughtful.
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