Update to my adventure

[awfullife]

Hi TRG, how are you holding up?

 

[TiredAndReadyToGo]

Hi TRG, how are you holding up?

Hey Awful,

I took the day to reflect and do feel much more at peace with my decision now, feel like it hit what I needed to. Lots of supportive people giving great resources on how to be calm with it.

Definitely feeling more ready, will likely follow the plan from yesterday with the timing for the reason's I posted before. I am just going to enjoy my morning, watch some TV, one of the resources again then Joker (will probably take my meto midway through so I can take the cocktail at/near the end to take my mind off it. Thank's for checking in and sorry for the late reply. You all are amazing and I thank you all for staying with me, I am not trying to string people along, just have had a hard time gathering the courage, calmness and the rememberance of the reasons why I am doing this.

Considering getting a joint or two from a dispensory before I do it, been a heavy every day smoke for almost 2 years but took a break since I started this so not sure if it's a good idea. Figured it would let me drink more since you don't feel as drunk if you smoke before drinking but don't want to mix too much.

I will be back to update before I start to say my goodbyes to all the amazing people I have had the pleasure of meeting here and to self-ban to avoid people getting into the account or site (worst case I make a new account if I get saved since ban appeals are a thing of the past)