LilGhost
Shark
- Apr 8, 2026
- 91
For context: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/thre...h-my-friends-to-make-them-feel-better.246852/
Long story short, I left our group chat and when they asked why, explained about all ignoring me shit and how I am the only one that tries to arrange shit. Apparently, they were hanging out without me. And... In another post i mentioned that I had a way out which would be directed to one of my friends: I dont. He has a sister who used to be my best friend, who betrayed me. Apparently, she dont want me in their house (as partially a reason why i was being excluded). So no more ways outs. And my friend admitted he did notice all that shit of me getting ignored and was planning to offer a solution today and offer to hang out... conviently after I pressed. And doing nothing for the course for the entirety of this month. So... I successfully cut my ties with my friends and found out truth. I think im gonna do it tmrw. I have nothing more to look out for, tho I want to go to one concert in few days, but i have no one to go there with so ill pass. I was 87% sure of my decision, it is 97%. 3% cause i am scared hell is a thing or there is smth worser after my death or Ill fail or smth. I just hope, if there is hell, flames wont burn me as much, as people my heart
I dont regret being friends with them. We are all barely in our 20s (like... Ig the oldest of the friendgroup is 21 or smth) and I know they didint do it out of cruelty. My friend apologized for it. And I still got good memories from being their friend. So i still will be kind in my ctb letter, its just.... I knew i gonna ctb from ig age 12-13. I would sometimes feel like my life gives me little choice but to do so. For the first time in years, i have no choice at all. For the exception of course try to apply for refugee and become homeless, but it is very hot outside and I am afab, which will end ugly. I also hate hot. Ig i could still come to the friend who apologized and put cards on the desk. I have nothing to loose....
idk. I dont want to inconvient him. idk what to do. If anyone have any thoughts on if i should just ctb or tell that friend first... that would be appreciated
Long story short, I left our group chat and when they asked why, explained about all ignoring me shit and how I am the only one that tries to arrange shit. Apparently, they were hanging out without me. And... In another post i mentioned that I had a way out which would be directed to one of my friends: I dont. He has a sister who used to be my best friend, who betrayed me. Apparently, she dont want me in their house (as partially a reason why i was being excluded). So no more ways outs. And my friend admitted he did notice all that shit of me getting ignored and was planning to offer a solution today and offer to hang out... conviently after I pressed. And doing nothing for the course for the entirety of this month. So... I successfully cut my ties with my friends and found out truth. I think im gonna do it tmrw. I have nothing more to look out for, tho I want to go to one concert in few days, but i have no one to go there with so ill pass. I was 87% sure of my decision, it is 97%. 3% cause i am scared hell is a thing or there is smth worser after my death or Ill fail or smth. I just hope, if there is hell, flames wont burn me as much, as people my heart
I dont regret being friends with them. We are all barely in our 20s (like... Ig the oldest of the friendgroup is 21 or smth) and I know they didint do it out of cruelty. My friend apologized for it. And I still got good memories from being their friend. So i still will be kind in my ctb letter, its just.... I knew i gonna ctb from ig age 12-13. I would sometimes feel like my life gives me little choice but to do so. For the first time in years, i have no choice at all. For the exception of course try to apply for refugee and become homeless, but it is very hot outside and I am afab, which will end ugly. I also hate hot. Ig i could still come to the friend who apologized and put cards on the desk. I have nothing to loose....
idk. I dont want to inconvient him. idk what to do. If anyone have any thoughts on if i should just ctb or tell that friend first... that would be appreciated
