![Beyond_Repair](/data/avatars/l/81/81575.jpg?1699067908)
Beyond_Repair
Disheartened Ghost
- Oct 27, 2023
- 453
Thank you to everyone on this site who I had the pleasure of having discussions with and received advice from. Such a compassionate and empathetic group of people, I felt less alone getting to talk about things that you really can't anywhere else. I sincerely hope this site persists despite the pushback from the powers that be, as censorship is an insidious virus and should be fought for those who value freedom of thought and expression of ideas. Thank you to the developers and mods and others who help make this site possible.
My reasons: childhood trauma, the subsequent CPTSD and generally feeling as if I was not made for this world. Having experienced much of what I wanted to and having enough life experience and awareness of what potentially lies ahead to know that I am ready for it to end. I'm too sensitive, and cannot successfully function in the world as it is as a result. The world is full of pain and suffering and inequality, and I don't want any part of it. I believe that this is the path to true freedom from this prison for me.
I've revised my plan a bit as I had breakfast later than I planned. I started fasting at noon and plan to take SN at midnight so it should be a 12 hour fast (I don't tend to eat much so it shouldn't be a problem for me). I am also changing how I am taking the Xanax.
My method:
11am - breakfast
Noon - start fasting (12hrs)
10pm - stop water intake
11pm - 1000mg Tylenol + 2mg Xanax
11:20pm - 30mg meto
11:30pm - 2 pepcid
(In the mean time)
Prep SN drinks - 25g in ~ 100ml of water per drink
11:55pm - 8mg xanax + 400mg propranolol crushed and mixed in water
12am - drink SN
I will try to keep updated as the day progresses. After tonight, if you do not hear from me within a week, please cross out my name. I'm still open to comments/critiques about my regimen, if anyone has any suggestions
One note - I have IBS and some other digestive issues. People have said that SN is not an ideal method in these cases, but I am still going for it because it is my preferred method and the best option I have.
My reasons: childhood trauma, the subsequent CPTSD and generally feeling as if I was not made for this world. Having experienced much of what I wanted to and having enough life experience and awareness of what potentially lies ahead to know that I am ready for it to end. I'm too sensitive, and cannot successfully function in the world as it is as a result. The world is full of pain and suffering and inequality, and I don't want any part of it. I believe that this is the path to true freedom from this prison for me.
I've revised my plan a bit as I had breakfast later than I planned. I started fasting at noon and plan to take SN at midnight so it should be a 12 hour fast (I don't tend to eat much so it shouldn't be a problem for me). I am also changing how I am taking the Xanax.
My method:
11am - breakfast
Noon - start fasting (12hrs)
10pm - stop water intake
11pm - 1000mg Tylenol + 2mg Xanax
11:20pm - 30mg meto
11:30pm - 2 pepcid
(In the mean time)
Prep SN drinks - 25g in ~ 100ml of water per drink
11:55pm - 8mg xanax + 400mg propranolol crushed and mixed in water
12am - drink SN
I will try to keep updated as the day progresses. After tonight, if you do not hear from me within a week, please cross out my name. I'm still open to comments/critiques about my regimen, if anyone has any suggestions
One note - I have IBS and some other digestive issues. People have said that SN is not an ideal method in these cases, but I am still going for it because it is my preferred method and the best option I have.
Last edited: