I already know I'm going to CTB. Don't bother trying to talk me out of it. I've owned a shotgun for several years and I'm going to blow my brains out on Friday; I've already researched the best place to aim to make sure I don't fail and I'm going to down all of the alcohol I have left to give me the nerves to follow through.
All I want is help knowing if my final message to my only friend is good, and won't harm them all that much. The message is as follows.
"By the time you are reading this, I am already dead. I've hit enter, and shortly after pulled the trigger on my gun. Don't bother responding, I won't ever be able to read it.
Nothing you could have ever said will have changed my mind, and gotten me out of the corner I've backed myself into. You were an excellent friend, and I felt as though I could always trust you.
I pray that you continue to exude positivity and make an impact on those around you. Don't cry for me, my mind has been made up months in advance of me reaching out to you about this.
I could get into the multitude of reasons I decided this was the logical conclusion for my life, but it won't matter to you. No amount of words, or air tight explanation can heal the insurmountable
pain you're experiencing right now. The only thing I can say to provide comfort is that I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life making this decision. I wouldn't go through with it if it wasn't rehearsed, and my mind was made up. I'll always love you."
All I want is help knowing if my final message to my only friend is good, and won't harm them all that much. The message is as follows.
"By the time you are reading this, I am already dead. I've hit enter, and shortly after pulled the trigger on my gun. Don't bother responding, I won't ever be able to read it.
Nothing you could have ever said will have changed my mind, and gotten me out of the corner I've backed myself into. You were an excellent friend, and I felt as though I could always trust you.
I pray that you continue to exude positivity and make an impact on those around you. Don't cry for me, my mind has been made up months in advance of me reaching out to you about this.
I could get into the multitude of reasons I decided this was the logical conclusion for my life, but it won't matter to you. No amount of words, or air tight explanation can heal the insurmountable
pain you're experiencing right now. The only thing I can say to provide comfort is that I am the happiest I have ever been in my entire life making this decision. I wouldn't go through with it if it wasn't rehearsed, and my mind was made up. I'll always love you."
