shotgunshellz
New Member
- Nov 24, 2022
- 2
bpd spiral because i feel like everyone's pulling away from me. anyone else get super triggered when you lose (perceived or real) connections between people, like hobbies or shared fandoms or shared interests? it's silly and stupid but it fucks me up. i've been fawning for 2 days straight and i can't do this anymore. bf and i have been playing a particular game nearly every night together for years. suddenly he said he can't stand the direction the game is going in, doesn't want to play as much anymore, completely out of the blue. he got off the game today to ''draw'' which ended up being him being completely silent, chatting to some people i've never met before online (and he's also mentioned he "doesn't need all of his friends to be my friends" when i asked if i could meet them) and switching tabs away from the messaging app every time i come near him. i want to die. i took 2 ativan in an attempt to make it all stop but honestly it just made me feel worse. i thought i was a pretty good partner. honestly i was doing pretty good until a few days ago, but i guess nothing ever lasts.
