hello707
hello world
- Jun 19, 2026
- 4
Hi everyone. This is 707. This is my first post on SaSu but I've been lurking for years- finally decided to make an account because I'm exhausted of living, and I need some help with my plans.
I originally planned to CTB ~4 years ago (acquired SN) but I couldn't go through with it because I'm a loser. There are so many problems in my life that won't go away and no one seems to understand that. Even when I vent to my "friends" they only say the same generic bs about how "I'll meet new people moving forward" or "it's just an unfortunate situation right now but after this it will get better." THE ONLY REASON YOU CAN SAY THAT IS BECAUSE YOU HAVE FRIENDS THAT WILL ACTUALLY LISTEN TO YOU AND HANG OUT WITH YOU AND DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT UNI OR FINDING A JOB OR HAVING TO DEAL WITH A FAMILY THAT HATES YOU OR GETTING MEDS OR BEING TRANS (and a bunch of other shit i don't even wanna think about)
I have no passion in life and I feel like I never have enough time to do anything. Even if I tried to improve myself, there will always be someone that's better than me, and I will always be overlooked. Even if I graduate from uni, I'll just be doomed to slave away to make money for the rest of my life. To make things worse, I'm getting a degree in art with no industry connections so it's really hopeless for me. I should be thankful to be born into financial stability, but I never wanted to be born. My parents are divorced, my dad rarely messages me or sends money, my grandmother and mom mentally and physically abuse me (but when I sh its suddenly a big deal).
No good thing come my way, but when it comes to the people surrounding me, it's only success after success. Whenever I hear them talk about their most debilitating problems, I can hardly care because that's how I feel and live everyday. And nobody gives a shit about what I'm going through so why do I have to pretend to listen to their struggles?
I keep trying to convincing myself it wasn't a mistake to not CTB when I was 16 but it really regret not ending it earlier. Nothing improves. It just keeps getting worse and worse.
Goodnight.
I originally planned to CTB ~4 years ago (acquired SN) but I couldn't go through with it because I'm a loser. There are so many problems in my life that won't go away and no one seems to understand that. Even when I vent to my "friends" they only say the same generic bs about how "I'll meet new people moving forward" or "it's just an unfortunate situation right now but after this it will get better." THE ONLY REASON YOU CAN SAY THAT IS BECAUSE YOU HAVE FRIENDS THAT WILL ACTUALLY LISTEN TO YOU AND HANG OUT WITH YOU AND DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT UNI OR FINDING A JOB OR HAVING TO DEAL WITH A FAMILY THAT HATES YOU OR GETTING MEDS OR BEING TRANS (and a bunch of other shit i don't even wanna think about)
I have no passion in life and I feel like I never have enough time to do anything. Even if I tried to improve myself, there will always be someone that's better than me, and I will always be overlooked. Even if I graduate from uni, I'll just be doomed to slave away to make money for the rest of my life. To make things worse, I'm getting a degree in art with no industry connections so it's really hopeless for me. I should be thankful to be born into financial stability, but I never wanted to be born. My parents are divorced, my dad rarely messages me or sends money, my grandmother and mom mentally and physically abuse me (but when I sh its suddenly a big deal).
No good thing come my way, but when it comes to the people surrounding me, it's only success after success. Whenever I hear them talk about their most debilitating problems, I can hardly care because that's how I feel and live everyday. And nobody gives a shit about what I'm going through so why do I have to pretend to listen to their struggles?
I keep trying to convincing myself it wasn't a mistake to not CTB when I was 16 but it really regret not ending it earlier. Nothing improves. It just keeps getting worse and worse.
Goodnight.
